I Hate Having to Love
CHAPTER VI The journey of love

Me and Faisal had only been lovers for a few weeks but it felt like I had been for years because the more days I learned about Faisal's sweet attitude and attention to me , moreover, Faisal's self-sacrificing attitude accompanied me until the night when I was doing the task . Me and Faisal have a special call ', Faisal used to call me Casper because, I like to disappear suddenly while we were chatting like ghosts said Faisal . And I used to call Faisal madung, because Faisal's nose was sharp like an Arab so I called him sharp .

Faisal always accompany my nights sometimes while singing, sometimes we also like to sing together even though only by phone but it has made me happy really . Faisal and I had our favorite song, yes, although I didn't know it at first, but because Faisal used to sing for me so I knew and it became our favorite song .

" Casper baby, are you busy ? Your job is a lot until you forget to tell me " asked Faisal.

" Yeah I'm busy, many tasks I do in addition to the report that I have to do also from the results of the study earlier . I'm sorry I don't have much time for you, but I still love you" I said in a calm manner.

" Yes, I've done it while I sing our favorite song, so you're not too stressed as well as your duty" Faisal said.

*Even if you are far away my love will not disappear even in the swallow time but the solitude of your solitude there but this love will not disappear despite the many trials that are now increasingly hit *Dhyo haw song - the distance between us .

That song that Faisal used to sing to me every time he accompanied me to do my chores . Even Faisal often accompanied me until the morning to work on the report .

Sometimes Faisal also often seduced me and teased me with his romantic words he .

" I'm just a man who doesn't have, just a love that I have that I sincerely give to you, where you are right now what you are thinking of me. My beautiful boyfriend came and hugged me for a moment but with a love of "the dreadlocks of Faisal .

Faisal and I sometimes like to throw attention at each other on social media, and often I get teased by my classmates, to the extent that my classmates were envious to see it especially if Faisal had written poetry on social media I must have my friends know first than I .

Sometimes Faisal also wrote his prayers on my social media, Faisal wrote on my social media because we were willing to exchange social media accounts .

" O God I I wish this relationship to last, I am so sorry this woman is loving and sincere from the heart . Although I was not the first in her heart but I loved her well. And if you separate the two of us, I hope he is kept away from a bad man. I want him to live happily I will always pray the best for him, God, may he be happy always "the prayer that Faisal wrote.

I never knew Faisal wrote this prayer on my social media, I knew it was from my classmates who always mocked me . When I read this sad heart, but he was there who was sick but he was always there for me, while I was here always busy with school and school affairs continue, sometimes telling Faisal was rare . But Faisal always waited patiently for news from me, and always patiently waited for me to come home . Until the semester break arrived I promised Faisal to come home but suddenly could not because there was an impromptu event held at my school during the semester break and at that time Faisal was very disappointed in me .

" well..... I have missed you so much. Do I need to go to town to see you " asked Faisal.

" No need Faisal you're sick, I don't want anything with you on the way, you've been waiting for me there I will definitely go home later" I replied.

As Faisal was very disappointed because I did not go back to the village, it was sad that this heart could not keep my promise to Faisal . Actually I also miss Faisal very much but how else is this an important school activity in my opinion that can not be left behind .

I'm with Faisal dating been almost 1 month old and all that goes with his normal decent man courtship on his general . But suddenly while I was doing those school activities, I got bad news about Faisal through his sister .

" Sir is beautiful, there is bad news that I have to convey to my sister is beautiful even though this is hard for me to convey. Last night Faisal's brother was taken to the hospital because Faisal's brother could no longer bear his pain, and only this morning did Faisal's brother exhale his last breath, sis, before he left all of us, Faisal told me to convey to my beautiful brother. If Brother Faisal loves his beautiful brother, brother Faisal always wants to be with his beautiful brother always in joy and sorrow, but God says other brother God has already picked up Faisal first, Faisal first, perhaps this is indeed the path that has been outlined by Allah sis . I as his sister Faisal thanks a lot to the beautiful brother so far beautiful brother is still willing to accept all the shortcomings of Faisal and accept the disease that kak Faisal naturally . Even though Faisal's brother is no longer in this world I hope that beautiful brother can still continue to be on good terms with me well sak "news from Dina .

I can't reply to a single word Yanga I can do just cry over Faisal's departure. I can't go home there can't see Faisal one last time . It's broken that this heart is in pieces.

It was the toughest day I had ever had, I had to lose the person I loved, the person who always accompanied me, I felt like I wanted to catch up with Faisal to the divine. I was thinking why God did this to me when I was feeling the sincere affection of Faisal, feeling the love of the man I hated first why all this happened to me .

From that day on, I became a quiet person who didn't talk much so I regretted why I didn't go back to the village to meet Faisal. Even if it's the last time I don't do that. I felt stupid for not being able to keep my promise to Faisal back then . My days were quiet without Faisal, without the singing voice of Faisal.

All I could do right now was cry at Faisal's picture, listen to Faisal's voice that I recorded when Faisal sang, and reread the messages Faisal often sent me.

Every time you hear Faisal's voice it feels like this heart is broken to scream "why don't I just be called by you God, why should Faisal be the person I love, he said, although I only briefly knew Faisal but he was a good man, a man who always sacrificed time to accompany me when he was sick. God why is all this happening to me God why ?"

I felt like I could not let Faisal go, but as sad as I was and shouted as loud as I could not make Faisal come back again .