I Hate Having to Love
Chapter VII The Days without Faisal
Day after day went on, the more heartbroken this day over the departure of Faisal . It was like a nightmare I didn't want to go through but in reality this turned around on me.
Every time I've always imagined Faisal's sweet face. I can't just forget the sweet story we went through together even if it was just a few months . I was confused by my own feelings why I became like this when I used to be uncomfortable with the existence of Faisal but now I actually lost Faisal.
But Dina Faisal's sister always gave me encouragement so that I could run my days without Faisal. Because Dina gets the mandate from Faisal to always make my days beautiful without Faisal by my side .
" Sister is beautiful, already yes sister is beautiful do not cry over the continued departure of Brother Faisal I am sure brother Faisal will be happy if you see the beautiful brother is happy as well" said Dina .
" But Din felt empty my days without Faisal, I was not eager to do anything because every time I did something I was reminded by Faisal, he who always gives me with full attention, gives me the spirit that I always live my days . But now no one understands my situation like Faisal "answer me .
" But my beautiful sister must be the spirit of my sister, I promise I will always give the spirit as she did Faisal for her beautiful sister" said Dina .
Indeed Dina always gives me the spirit like Faisal, but the taste is different still there is less in my opinion.
Every night I always hear the sound of Faisal recording while singing either every time I hear it I always cry considering the time when I was with Faisal .
Faisal is not a good man, although Faisal had studied in pesantren but it is not denied that Faisal also has a dark mass, too, it was Faisal who made me hate him but now I love him instead .
I cannot dissolve in this situation I must rise up and must remain enthusiastic about my activities. Kasian Dina who gave me the spirit, but I even slumped steadily with the departure of Faisal .
" Sister, do you want Dina to know Dina's cousin ? He is good because he also studied in pesantren with kak Faisal his name is Dika kak "Dina offer .
" Don't, for now you can't open your heart to others sometimes you are still keinget by your brother "reject me well.
" Come brother is just a friend is also okay kok kak, just to accompany the heart of an empty brother. I'm kasian kak if I have to squirm my beautiful brother slumped continuously over the departure of kak Faisal" pinta Dina .
I was confused by Dina with this situation, I have to how I have not been able to open my heart to new people let alone her cousin Faisal must know right about Faisal . I didn't want to hurt her feelings if she knew that I wanted to get acquainted with her just to forget about Faisal, but Dina kept forcing me to get acquainted with Dika's cousin .
" Let's try first one Sunday brother acquainted with her if according to her brother is not good brother can refuse her really. I told you the same, brother, if the brother is his girlfriend, brother Faisal and brother are very bad will be the departure of brother Faisal and he wants kok kak make brother excited again as before accept well my acquaintance is "pinta Dina .
" Yes, I've accepted it but only one Sunday, if I don't feel like I say Din, I don't want to hurt Din's feelings because I'm still being imagined by Faisal " answer me with resignation .
" Okay brother I promise one Sunday, if Dika can not make sister happy as before while being with sister Faisal brother may not want to be acquainted with her again" answered Dina .
But it feels selfish if I want to get acquainted with him just want to please me, what kind of woman do I have such a heart to a man who does not know my problem with Faisal.
It is also true that the one who said Dina I should try to open my heart to new people, open new sheets again to live my life again with others. I have to go back to how I was, happy as I used to be when I was with Faisal, I have to change, I can't keep falling apart .
