I Hate Having to Love
CHAPTER XII To the grave of Ryan's girlfriend

Ryan and I went straight to Ryan's girlfriend's grave, and I forgot Ryan bought a handlebars of Ryan's favorite white roses.

" Ndah later we stop by the flower shop first yes gapapa will I want to buy my girlfriend's favorite flowers" pinta Ryan.

" Yes please Ryan gapapa "my answer.

Once at Ryan's girlfriend's grave, Ryan and I tried to clean up around Ryan's girlfriend's grave and continued by sending prayers to Ryan's girlfriend, after we prayed Ryan directly talked to himself with her boyfriend's grave.

" Dear I came to see you at your final resting place, I came to my classmate's name is beautiful, I miss you baby, I miss where you are always by my side, I miss you, you understand me the most, you are calm there I am happy here, I am not sad again after your departure " Ryan said while crying.

" Had yan yu ga could have seen you rich gini" I said while pulling Ryan's hand.

" I came home first, baby I'll be here again" Ryan said to his girlfriend's grave.

I tried to calm down Ryan who was still crying when he left his girlfriend's grave. Ryan who still feels sadness in his girlfriend's stay feels to me the same as Ryan. But I must be strong because of Ryan's father if I go along crying who calms Ryan who is crying can no longer be weaned .

Ryan and I sat for a while in a stall near the tomb and I bought Ryan a drink so he could calm down if he had to drive the car still crying I was afraid there was nothing on the road.

" Nih drink first, let you calm down a little "my offer.

" Thank you, I'm sorry that I couldn't control my crying in the tomb" Ryan said.

" Gapapa why his name is also natural to lose the people we love" I said.

Ryan and I immediately rushed back to the car and went home to my boarding house, along the way Ryan was still sobbing I gave myself a profit holding Ryan's hand to try to calm him down.

" Had Ryan not been tangisin continue to be your boyfriend there happy I'm sure" said me while holding Ryan's hand.

" Yes thanks from now you always remember me when you also must be sad like me, but we are strong enough to hold it in front of others unlike me who is weak" Ryan said with a smile looking at me.

After a few minutes I finally arrived at my boarding house, I just say goodbye and say thank you to Ryan who has taken me for a walk.

" Ryan thanks a lot well already want to take me for a walk, you carefully go home do not cry continue to watch out for puffiness of your eyes" I said while joking .

" Yes, thank you for accompanying me. Dah "answered Ryan while closing the windshield .

The next day I had resumed my school activities, and again with Ryan's ignorance early in the morning he had surprised me at the door of the class.

" Dorr.... Good morning, how last night the dream met me ga ", said Ryan in a joking tone and chuckling.

" Abaghfirullah early in the morning has made me surprised, if I hang how ? Idih males so I meet you in a dream, meet you directly aja I stress "my word while walking leave Ryan .

Starting that day Ryan was trying to get close to me, taking my sympathies, so that I wouldn't give back to Ryan.

" Don't know what the people in your class said you forgot you were the star in this class, different from just an ordinary woman I don't want to be" I said as I chased Ryan away .

" Yes, I've been sitting behind you, holding the kid sitting here and not coming in" Ryan said, sitting in the back seat.

Ryan was really sitting behind me, so I couldn't turn or look back because I was lazy to look at Ryan's super cute face .

The break bell rang me and Dini as usual never to the cafeteria, we always spent time in class reading books while snacking on snacks we bought before leaving for school. Suddenly Ryan came to bring me food and drinks that he deliberately bought in the cafeteria for me because Ryan knew that I rarely went to the cafeteria .

" Ndah ni food and drink for you, you should also eat not just snack where full " Ryan offers .

" Don't thank me for being full anyway, the song is that you are growing so good with me" I refused.

" Now we were good with me, so I have to be good with you" Ryan said.

" Din you move to the back gih read the book I want to chat just as beautiful an important problem" Ryan told Dini.

Dini also immediately obeyed Ryan's will and Ryan just sat on the bench Early because he was afraid I was kicked out again like this morning.

" Ndah dong already read the book we chat first you are not tired of what learning continues" asked Ryan .

" Ryan if you want to disturb me mending you who sit behind me deh "my word with my face judes.

" Well, there's something I want to say" Ryan said.

" Do you want to say what "I answered.

" Later after school take me to Gramedia yu yu you want ga, there are books that I have to buy but it's not good if you want to yes I invite" asked Ryan.

" The same here and there" I said.

" All I want to do is buy you food for my thanks yesterday, you can win me over" Ryan replied.

" Yaudah, I'll say yes" I said.

I haven't spoken to Dini yet, she immediately allowed me to accompany Ryan to Gramedia.

" Yes, you will go and Ryan is okay, I can go home alone" said Dini .

" But Din ......" I haven't had time to talk to Dini directly cut it.

" It's okay. You also just buy school equipment that has run out" said Dini.