Friends Towards Heaven
Don't Bother me
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فَاطِرُ ٱلسَّمَٰوَٰتِ وَٱلْأَرْضِ ۚ جَعَلَ لَكُم مِّنْ أَنفُسِكُمْ أَزْوَٰجًا وَمِنَ ٱلْأَنْعَٰمِ أَزْوَٰجًا ۖ يَذْرَؤُكُمْ فِيهِ ۚ لَيْسَ كَمِثْلِهِۦ شَىْءٌ ۖ وَهُوَ ٱلسَّمِيعُ ٱلْبَصِيرُ
(He) Creator of the heavens and the earth. He made for you from your own kind of mates and from the kind of cattle pairs (puppa), made by Him you breed in that way. There is nothing like Him, and He is the All-Hearer and All-Seeing.
(Quran Surat Asy-Shura Verse 11)
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Fathan pov's.
Ever since abi closed the phone because dawn had come in, I felt a little relieved but still a little scared.
Relieved that Aisyah did not answer the proposal because she preferred to think about the answer first.
Afraid that after a month was over, Aisyah decided to welcome the proposal.
God knows what is best.
I had a lecture this morning.
After showering and cleaning the room, I went to my cupboard in the kitchen. I was surprised when Hanum seemed to be putting something on the closet that was deliberately not locked.
"What are you looking for hanum?"
He's aghast.
"Eh, oooh. Zikris. Who do I think."
She's nervous
"Are you the one who always put food in different food with my other kelem?"
I often get a different meal than the others.
Once twice I thought it was natural.
But I have often found my food to be better than others.
I don't protest and prefer to be quiet. I know why my food is always different.
"Umm.. why zikri?"
He asked back.
"It's okay, I just wonder why you always do good to me, always watch my eating."
I spoke without looking at him. He answered questions from me long ago
"I did it with sincerity."
The answer did not satisfy my heart. On what basis? I don't think I'm doing any good to her father who requires her to do this
"What is hanum based on? Now I want to ask. You like me?"
I'm to the point.
I can't stand hanum's attitude anymore.
Well it's good, but I don't like any woman who's not who to me to do this to me.
I'm not used to it.
Hanum.
I realized I was raising my voice towards women,
I'm sorry too.
"Hanum forgive me. I really had no intention of yelling at you. I'm just confused because of your attitude."
My opponent just smiled casually.
"No why zikri. I really like you."
Speech passed.
"Hanum."
I prevented it. He turned around with his smile.
"Don't buy me any more food."
I abandoned.
Hanum pov's.
This morning I put food back in the zikri's food cabinet.
It was customary for me to prepare a special menu and put it in her closet before she left for college.
I'm so happy to do it.
Especially after moving house, I am now one house with zikri and with some other friends who got scholarships like us too.
Every morning I would come to the kitchen early and put food that I sometimes buy and sometimes also make special for zikri.
Like this morning, I made chicken porridge for zikri.
Only for two portions is for me and for zikri.
"What are you doing on my skin, Hanum?"
A voice coming from behind me managed to make me a little surprised.
I recognize this baritone voice, though,
It's like a zikri.
"Eh, ooo zikri. Who do I think."
I'm actually afraid of being caught like this. But as much as possible I try to stay calm.
"Are you the one who always put in different foods with my other kelem?"
I was shocked to find myself frightened by the zikri question that seemed to be skinning me at this moment.
"Umm, why zikri?"
I'd rather ask him back. What's wrong with my food? I hope she likes my cooking.
"It's okay, I'm just wondering why you're doing good to me and always watching my food."
"That's because I like you zikri. I'm amazed by your godliness, I want to be your life companion. Do you not understand my feelings and all my concern for you zikri?"
I can only answer in my heart.
"I did it with sincerity."
I smiled bitterly as I remembered who I was not for Zikri.
"But on what basis is hanum? Do you like me?"
I'm shocked.
Trying to relax
You're right zikri. On what basis do I do it.
I'm not who you are. Do you know you also have a woman who has been enthroned in your heart.
About zikri, why are you yelling at me? I'm just trying to get into the twists and turns of your life.
Looking for every opportunity that when available I won't let go.
You know zikri? Harboring the taste for many years is not easy and will not be able to be done by careless zikri women.
It's a heart that loves you in silence and today you're even snapping at it.
About liking me to love you since High School have you not noticed, my zikri?
"Hanum forgive me. I didn't mean to yell at you. I'm just confused because of your attitude."
You really don't need to be confused zikri.
You're smart and I think you'll understand why I'm doing this to you.
I tried to show a relaxed smile so that the interlocutor I admired thought that I was a strong woman.
I thought, I would be seduced by the demons if I was still here facing the handsome face of the zikri.
I walked away from the zikri
"What's wrong, I really like you."
I'm elapsed.
Actually my heart is stubbornly saying this. But this time I won't harbor that sense anymore zikri.
As much as possible I'll get you.
At the very least, when we graduated and returned to Indonesia, I was already your fiancee.
A few steps later, he called me again
"Hanum"
I turned around and tried to pull her with my best smile.
"Don't buy me any more food."
It was like breaking a flower of love that had just bloomed in my heart.
It'sit's okay.
I'm not giving up zikri.
As much as possible I will make you submit to all my abilities.
Most importantly, this time I will not hold what I should have from the past.
After all, there will be no other women who are hurt because of my actions. After all, from the beginning of school until now, you have never brought or been close to one woman.
That means, you are mine zikri.
So stop trying to avoid all the attention, including the food I give you every day.
I muttered in my heart as I entered the room to prepare for college this morning.
I'll watch you while at my zikri campus.
