Cross Wedding
Ambu
This is where I was stranded.precisely after the departure of my grandmother.The next morning Abah took me to the house of ambu....a magnificent house with a very wide courtyard .the cold stare of ambue still felt in the recesses of my heart like a sharp piercing.
"titip axa ambu.please take care of him like ambu caring for other ambiguous grandchildren"
"hmmmmm.." short but scared me.
again I was raised by my grandmother....Where was my mother who gave birth to me??wh why?wh why?wh why? maybe I did something wrong to Mom so she wouldn't take care of me.
"axa...from now on stay the same ambu yes son. axa good child right. axa dear abakan?" I know you're feeling tight and sad when you hold me warm. Long time I'm in your arms.
"keep on being a beautiful, intelligent and righteous child." kissed my cheeks with affection.
Currently I have entered the level of MTS (equivalent to Junior High), not because I am stupid yes enter private school but because the State school is far away, understand in the village.
just three months into MTS, Abah and her family moved to Cianjur to the house of ambu and her five small children of course I joined, Mother, Mother yes Mother the figure I never knew and I saw her face now the figure is so real in front of me and will stay with me, afraid.....yes, I was afraid to make a mistake until my mother left me again, as long as we were with my mother never greeted me, but I am happy because now I am like a whole family.
But unfortunately only a few weeks of my pleasure ended, Abah returned to the lap of the khalik..again...and again I live in the lives of my loved ones. I saw the mother repeatedly fainted, and again, does that mean mom to me? it only took seven days to see the loyalty of mother and dear mother to my sisters yes seven days because on the seventh day the mother went to leave us all without telling anyone where she was going. oh cruel mother is that your heart to us??
Abah to heaven Mother left us, in the beginning of the bitter drama in my life, the ambiguous attitude changed to me more cruel than just cold, the six of us should not eat in the same kitchen, he said, I have to make money to eat my sisters, if helping me in his business is not going to be paid I have to find money elsewhere, imagine I am a twelve-year-old with five sisters, he said, my first sister was nine years old, rafi seven years old, muti five years old, rima two years old and sibungsu alif one year.
"if you want to feed your sister, you have to work, if you don't work they won't eat, Don't be lazy, remember work"
