THE SAD JOURNEY OF LOVE
LOYALTY OF A HUSBAND

an example of the patience and loyalty of a husband to his wife that is worthy of being an example for all of us.

A small rented house in the sub-district of Wonokromo Surabaya, which contains a bedroom and a mini kitchen, bears witness to the beauty of this husband and wife, Rofi and Tini.

Simplicity has become their daily picture. Rofi, from Surabaya, works as a contract worker for a building contractor company in his home city, and Tini, his wife, is an innocent woman from the city of Reog, Ponorogo, Indonesia, who works as a meatball seller in front of their rented house.

Rofi is a thin, quiet and unpretentious type of man who almost every day always took the time to pray congregation at the mosque near his home.

While Tini, a woman who is a bit fat, likes to joke but still unpretentious like her husband. In their daily lives, disputes are rarely found in their households, so the neighbors consider them as a harmonious couple.

Almost ten years have been the journey of the household Rofi and Tini, but unfortunately not a child whom God has entrusted to them. Restless Tini felt, especially if she saw her husband often carrying small children, whether his nephew or his neighbor's children. Her small heart grieves when she feels she has not been able to give offspring to her husband from her own womb.

But Tini is not a weak and crybaby woman, although her physical condition deteriorates due to illness and not as beautiful as women in general, but she is a strong and sincere woman. Hard when trials like this come to him and sincere when allowing her husband to remarry with other women in order to get offspring from his own flesh and blood.

But behind the firm and sincere that he tried to instill in his mind, there was a weeping cry that slashed in his soul, the cry of a woman. Like other women, he actually does not want to be combined in his life. But what can be done, reality makes him have to accept this situation.

Another case with Rofi, Rofi is not a man like most. Like his wife, he was not a weak man who was easily tempted to persuade other women despite having received permission from his wife to marry.

He is a patient and loyal man. But as a normal man, of course, the desire to have a child of his own flesh and blood as a comfort for himself when tired of approaching, but he denied his desire far to keep his wife's feelings.

Long time ago the fret struck Tini's heart. Fret even more when Rofi, the man he loved, got a job for a long time in the city of Sorong, Papua. A city far from where he lives now, Surabaya. Especially for a small person like him, a plane ticket to Papua would be an expensive item to get.

A year passed since the departure of her husband to Sorong, not infrequently Tini's heart felt a very longing. Especially since the first leave until now, not even though her husband came home to visit her.

Just by phone, the voice of Rofi who was handsome like a mighty man from across there who was able to dampen his longing even if only for a moment. It's not every day, only at certain moments her husband calls her.

When then the longing comes again, a sense of restlessness and sadness haunts him. Her husband is remarried without her knowledge.

And upset if her husband refused to return to Java because he had a new family there with a beautiful wife and a cute child. But he kept trying hard and sincere with whatever happened. Only the sweet prayers of soul tranquilizers can he offer just to calm his restless heart.

Lately, Rofi, her husband, has not called her. But he kept calm. He remembered a number of dialogues that had occurred between them before Rofi left for Sorong, Papua.

The dialogue of a wife who is saddened by being left out of town by her husband for a long time, and the dialogue of a wife who reluctantly allows her husband to remarry another woman. But there is one dialogue that will always be remembered and remembered by him, a wise answer from Rofi to the question addressed to him that is enough to make Tini's heart calm, he said,

If God would have given us a child, it would have been very easy for Him. But if God does not want a child for us, there may be a secret of God behind it that we will not be easy to understand because of the limitations of our science, man.

When the time comes, the child will be present even if we do not want him to be present, and on the contrary, the child will not be present even if we want him to be present. It is therefore the full prerogative of God that has been recorded by Him in Lauhul Mahfudz.

God knows what is best for us now. Children are trust, children are care, and children are responsibility. Maybe God thinks we are not yet able and not ready to carry the trust so that God delays it for us.

Had God sent a child today, perhaps you would have been too busy taking care of our child until you could no longer take care of me, your husband, so that I would have been neglected and jealous of our child. Or maybe I still don't deserve to be a father because God thinks I can't take care of our child because of the limitations I have.

Darling, perhaps Allah wants to make us like the Prophet Zakariyya who with his patience was given to him a good son even though he was very old. Or perhaps Allah does not want to make us as the Prophet Noah gave a son but disbelievers disobey Allah, his Lord, even though his father was a prophet for the people of his time. God knows what is best for us.

Honey, I know you have a lot of flaws. But I should not let your shortcomings be a disgrace to you. I am the most beautiful clothes for you and you are the most beautiful clothes for me, the clothes to cover all the shortcomings that exist in me and you.

No matter how many expensive and beautiful clothes I could buy and wear, but there was only one best outfit attached to my body, and that outfit was you.

Other clothes may fade in time, other clothes may fade in time, but you, are clothes that will never fade and wear out forever, for you are the best garment of my life that God has offered me. Do I need to look for other clothes? Which I can't get as good and beautiful clothes as you?

If I were you and I had you remarry just because I couldn't give you a child, how naive I would have been to waste you. Unimaginable to me how much pain I felt seeing you making love to other people who became my honey.

I can't even imagine seeing you smiling happily when my heart breaks like the earth. So is it with me. I don't want to feel like I saw you crying because I couldn't stand the pain of my heart.

And do not want me to smile on the inner pain you feel. You are mine and I am yours the only one in your life that no one will ever replace. You were made for me and I was made for you.

Now you calm down, baby, don't be sad anymore. God willing I will keep this love for you always."

It.tit..tit..tit.....

Shaking the sound of a short message from Tini's cell phone shocked the silence of the night. While opening the short message he just received, he took a picture frame Rofi, her husband, and held her tightly in the warm embrace. A short message was read :

"Dear well there, I'll always miss you here. I love u.. from Rofi, your husband."