So Many Times
FORTY-ONE
...To the world, maybe you're just someone...
...But to me, you are my world...
...~ Dareel Aldari ~...
...♡♡♡ ...
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Alana POVs
"Bi, aunty was horrified yesterday that I was the same dareel bullshit? What does aunt think?" Ask my aunt. We are both in the back yard.
"Auntie listens to all non. Aunty can't defend non or master, because according to aunt between the two of you there's a point and there's a harm." Auntie.
"I mean bi?" Ask me again, I don't understand what aunt meant. "Gini. now aunt asks, in the heart of non sure non alana very much want to have a happy family. Surely non alana want to live a household life perfectly, don't you think?"
"Non. aunty understands, non alana is afraid that marriage will end tragically. But not all marriages are like that, it's a marriage where two people are bound by a sacred promise. Marriage is not just non-alana and lord dareel, it includes everyone around you." I listened to every sentence that aunt explained to me.
"Indeed in a relationship there must be obstacles and distractions. But try not to remember again what are the obstacles that come to the same non alana lord dareel, see now you two are able to face all that." Aunt rubbed my shoulder.
"Auntie tau non, how scared is non alana. But if auntie can be honest, lord dareel is very different from a solar lord. This aunt was also once a young non, aunty could see how a man if it had focused his world on one woman."
"And aunty could see that dareel sir was such a man. Every dareel master looks at you, his gaze is so adoring that even aunty never sees a dareel master stop smiling while beside non." Suddenly I was dying to hug Dareel.
"Non.. besides, there's this kid in the belly of the non. Non also has to think about him too. Aunty has known non alana for a long time, aunty believes non will definitely make the right decision." Auntie talk
I nodded thinking about what the aunt explained. It's true, Dareel has proven that he has completely changed. I smiled again and looked at my aunt.
"Thank you, aunt." I hugged this woman in front of me. We were so close, even though auntie was very talkative but aunt always gave me her best advice.
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It has been almost two days since Dareel was busy with his work on campus and took care of some wedding files. Everything is a dareel set up, even I'm not allowed to think about anything. Dareel said, my job is only to prepare to become Lady Dareel Alfarizi.
I smiled thinking that, ah yes these two days my nausea is not as severe as the previous days. Every morning Dareel always calls me and then my phone, I put it on my stomach which is still flat. Somehow it makes me relax, maybe baby really likes the sound of his papa.
And during these two days anyway, I deliberately contacted all my friends who had married. I asked a few of their views on marriage. And all of their answers were very positive, making me even more confident in my decision.
Now I'm in front of a psychiatrist's house, Clarissa Amora. Since my mother's departure seven years ago, I have experienced depression. How not at the age of 17 years I was faced with such conditions.
I was the first to see her body hanging by a rope around her neck. Even I tried to break the rope, but I couldn't. I could only scream and cry under your feet. At that time I was very scared and felt guilty for not being able to help my mother.
My mother's departure traumatized me greatly. And before that too, papa always hurt us. Even after his departure, Papa remained the same. Then, Clarissa here's a psychiatrist who helped me to eliminate all my traumas and fears.
Everything I told Clarissa, for almost six months of that incident she helped me to calm down. Until now we still often chat, talk about all our activities.
I closed my eyes and adjusted my breathing, remembering all those memories made my body go limp. I immediately got down the car and walked towards Clarissa's door.
Ting tung
"Good, brother. I'm fine, brother how are you? We last met three years ago, didn't we?" Yes, I called him big brother, because we were eleven years old.
"I'm fine, al. Yeah, well, three years ago we last met. If it's not wrong then you have a business trip to Denmark and I'm again honeymoon with my husband, is it not?" We both started talking and telling her everything.
I told Clarissa everything, from the beginning of the arrival of the dareel to what I felt until now. And I reveal everything about my worries about my marriage. Clarissa listened to everything I told her.
"Tell me how you feel after telling me everything?" Clarissa asked me. "Lega, I think I've shared my story with the right people. Brother who has always helped me and removed my fear." Answer me.
"Alright, right now I will say that you are addressing this correctly. Before you consulted me, you had asked more experienced people about marriage. And surely you have considered it right."
"Now I ask you? How bad is the definition of marriage from your point of view?" Clarissa asked. "I thought that all marriages were the same, because what I saw was how broken my family was. I've always thought this way, afraid that one day my marriage will be the same as my father's and mother's, and eventually my children will feel what I feel." I answered Clarissa's question based on my point of view at the time.
"But..." Clarissa said slowly, staring at me. "But now, after I had gone through the days with Dareel and witnessed how his interaction with uncle Arnold made my heart very warm. Dareel was uncle arnold's nephew but he loved Dareel and vice versa. If uncles and nieces can be that sincere, then I think that both parents and children can love more sincerely." I said to clarissa.
Clarissa smiled warmly at me. "Right, al, that's what I meant. One example of a broken family does not mean that all families have bad endings as well. For me, at this young age of yours you are so mature to understand. And I'm sure Dareel did, you guys made it through."
"Make your parents' home life a lesson so you don't get caught up in bad relationships. Your mother is a great woman, I know her very well. It's just too painful to accept all that reality." Clarissa's words made me feel even more stupid because I was wrong in defining a marriage.
"You're great too, alana, even great. But you and your mom are different. You are able to always successfully solve all problems and the people around you are very supportive." Clarissa rubbed my shoulder.
"Dareel... After I heard all about the dareel from you, I'm sure the dareel is a great man who is able to make you fall in love with him again. I'm even more grateful that Dareel is always there beside you, although he's also one of the causes of your pain. But he's completely changed, he's using that opportunity really well." Clarissa said smilingly patting my hand.
"Sister.thank you. I am always grateful to be surrounded by good people. You always help me, thank you." I hugged Clarissa. "Eh, are you crying?" Clarissa let go of my embrace maybe she felt my back shake.
"I'll learn a lot from you. I'll try and prove that I'm capable of being a good wife and mother." I wiped my tears. "I believe you can be a good wife and mother. Even very well, alana." Clarissa hugged me again.
"Ah yes... would you like me to give you a primbon book?" Clarissa looked at me seriously. "Primbon? What book is that, brother?" Ask me confused. "Books on marriage, how to satisfy husband and-" I quickly hit Clarissa's arm.
I was completely wrong all along and now I'm getting more and more convinced to start a new life with Dareel. Yeah, I'm ready to live a life with Dareel, build a household with our very cute kids.
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After four more hours together Clarissa talked about everything, joked together and remembered the memories of three years ago when we met in Denmark. I decided to go home, but I only realized when I entered the car that Dareel sent me a lot of messages.
Tumben once a dareel sent this much message, usually he immediately called.
Dareel & Dareel
Al, where are you?
Still at clarissa's?
Do not go home first, please stop by the lala daycare at kiki. I forgot to take them, I'll drop by your house.
Thank you, dear 💋
Remember, don't go home
The darling? Why when Dareel calls me baby, it feels like ludicrous. And yes.. aren't lala and kiki supposed to be picked up tomorrow? Ah you. I immediately started the car and headed for the lala and kiki daycare.
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...TBC...
Morning guys, how are you guys? It's been a week or so, sorry manteman. Really more activities and lately also the mood is a bit less good 🥲
Thank you to those of you who still want to follow this story, I hope we can both give the best yaa 🥰
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