So Many Times
TWENTY SEVEN
...Definition of loneliness :...
...When you have so much to tell, no ear is willing to listen...
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Ethan POVs
"Damn it," I haven't stopped swearing since I walked out of that man's room. Dareel looks messed up like me, he also looks like he's looking for alana. He also doesn't seem to lie about alana's whereabouts, I'm more sure only nattali knows where alana is.
Did Alana really leave me? Did she choose to end our friendship instead of accepting me to be her lover? Is it because I'm being selfish and keeping it quiet?
I had snapped at him and made him cry, was that why Alana was disappointed in me and chose to leave? What if Alana never comes back and never forgives me.
I saw the watch in my hand, at 22:30 now. Two hours ago I was in this bar, I don't know how many glasses of alcohol I drank. Since a month ago I searched where alana went, even I used my power to look for alana but the results were nil.
I feel more guilty, why am I so selfish and hurt Alana. And since last month I always visit this place, I hope that by drinking I can forget a little bit of my guilt but can not, this makes me miss alana even more.
"Sorry alana, sorry." I said softly massaging the base of the nose. "Bro, this time you've been drinking too much, where your car keys let me drive." With a bit of dizziness I turned to the source of this sound, "Gue is still breezy here," I said to tenders at this bar that was quite close to me.
I open the gallery on my phone, like this every day if I miss Alana, I'll see the photos. I stared at some of the photos we took four years ago, and we barely had any good photos.
Allow me to say, just candid photos, silly expeditions even without expression. I laughed softly, and suddenly my tears came out. How could I be more concerned with my feelings than this friendship, no, Alana and Nattali consider me like their older brother, we are family
I swiped aside, the photo showed Alana and Nattali who were going to bike at the time and brazenly pointed the middle finger at me who was taking pictures of the two of them.
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I slide back to the side to see the other photo, ah this photo is my god, look how innocent alana's face at that time. Nattali and I are only one year different from the younger Alana, but look at this photo of her like a little sister being hugged by her older sister. So sweet of my best friend, sorry to have made trouble in our friendship. ...
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Ah, here's a picture three years ago the day before I left for America. I still remember alana when it sulked to me and finally with the help of nattali alana wanted to talk to me again, adorable once not.
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Alana, wherever you are right now, I hope you're okay. But please come back, by God I will fix everything, I will not force you to accept me, I promise.
As I felt it was getting late, I stood up and would go home even though my head was a little dizzy from drinking too much. "Hi, do we want to go? I've seen you all alone, maybe I want to go." Saying sexy lady beside me.
I let go of this woman's hand that was twitching on ki's arm without even trying her question. I continued walking without paying any heed to these two women who kept following me.
"We can both get you anywhere and don't have to pay, free for you." The woman in the red dress said this knee-length. "By the way, we are the most famous loh here we rarely bargain free gini." The green dress woman who had been struggling from earlier chimed in.
Gosh... This makes me more dizzy, "Go,****," I said slowly but can still be heard by these two cheap women. "Damn it" said one of the women and left.
I walked back a little jolting because my eyes blurred the effects of drinking too much, I was still conscious and not drunk just this was very dizzy.
When I reached the parking lot I did not go straight to my car, I sat in a chair not far from my car. To get rid of this dizziness it is better that I sit for a while, it is also not good to drive in this state.
From a distance I saw a young girl walking with her mobile phone in her ear and I noticed she was nagging, funny expression, I chuckled.
I stared at the lagit, the collision of stars up there looked brighter and very much, very beautiful. But suddenly the can was thrown in my head, I reflexively stood up and took this can.
Damn, it hurts my forehead. "WOY, WHO THREW THIS SHIT." Shouted me but there was no one here.***, I threw this can carelessly, annoyingly.
"Oh, geez, sorry om. I'm sorry," said the girl I saw earlier, ah right my guess she was the girl who nagged earlier. "You threw the can?" asked me flatly, putting my hand in my pants pocket.
"Throwing? Oh, my God, I didn't throw it on purpose, um. I was surprised and accidentally the can was thrown, I mean. ah like that." I saw this girl talking and looked at me scared.
If I were to guess it might be about sixteen or seventeen. Wait... did he call me 'om'? You kid, do I look that old, huh? I am not even twenty-six years old.
"Then?" Answer me briefly. "What?" God, this kid asked me back. "What's drunk?" Her question slowly looked at me scared. I just kept staring at him, "It's like he's drunk, what a scary god in his face, how is this." His words were very slow but I could still hear, even very clear.
"Let me conclude, first you throw me with this can, second you call me 'om', and third you say my face is scary, is that it?" Ask me to take one step forward in front of this boy.
"I'm sorry, for the first time I'm really sorry, I didn't mean it, really. For the second, am I wrong? I mean, you seem older than me and it's polite to call you 'om'? Or should I call you 'father'?" Shit, this girl's a lot of talk, so boy.
"And the third one, sorry because I was too honest but I was really scared to see your face. Please forgive me, o'm." The girl stretched out her hand in front of me, but I did not welcome her.
"How old are you?" I asked this boy who sighed because I could not take his hand. "Nineteen years, um." He put both his hands into the white hoodie he was wearing.
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...TBC...
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