So Many Times
THIRTY-ONE
...It's not that I don't want to be tied down by marriage, but I'm so scared because I've felt the pain of being a victim of a broken family and I don't want to feel it a second time. ...
...~ Alana Lovata ~ ...
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Dareel POVs
"They're very funny" said Alana, and we're both at the dinner table. After breakfast we saw the video of lala and kiki that uncle sent for me.
"You're funnier" I said staring at Alana who didn't care about me, and I never got tired of looking at this pretty face.
"Dareel look at this, iih lala more and more puffed up, jeez kiki also gurgled," Alana said and laughed loudly. I rubbed alana's cheek, "You're more gaunt," I said, kissing her cheek, very soft.
"If we are already in Indonesia, yuk take lala with kiki to go for a walk. We're like a happy family, aaahh must be exciting." Gosh... Happy family? With those two bad cats? Alana, that's right.
"How about we get married and make a real happy family? Why is lala the same as kiki as our child? We can make real children, get ten of my children ready." I looked at Alana who was now staring at me sharply.
"Yes, yeah, three is enough." My words still tease alana. "No way," replied Alana briefly still focus on watching the video. "What do you want, have a child, what has a husband?" I asked Alana.
Alana looked at me for a moment and then looked back at the cell phone, "No marriage, no marriage" said alana very slowly but still I could hear. "What?" Ask me to doubt. "You answer that? Hey - baby look at me.. Why?" I turned Alana's body to face me.
"What the hell? Marriage is not just making children doang, dareel. We're too young to talk about marriage." Alana turned off the video and spoke seriously to me.
"Al, marriage is not determined by how old we are. If we are ready in any way and we are able to commit we can get married, why not?" I said slowly holding alana's hand.
"You're ready but I'm not, reel. Im too scared for that," Alana took off my hand and threw away her face. "What are you afraid of?" Ask me a little pressing question on Alana.
"You know, seeing my parents marriage break down, made me afraid to start a family. I can't shadow it, it's so scary." Really, I didn't think Alana had such thoughts.
Yeah, I know how devastated Alana's family and her parents' marriage was. The problem must be in the heart and memory of alana, but that does not mean all marriages have the same fate.
As I explained this to Alana, she looked like she was holding back a cry. Damn, why did I talk about this when we just met. "I... ." I said but was immediately cut off by alana.
"Darrel, please.. Can we not talk about marriage for now? I mean, we're just gonna fix this relationship. Don't we still have a lot of time?" Said Alana slowly staring at me softly.
"Sure, whatever makes you comfortable is best, al." I pulled alana into my arms and rubbed her back, she must have remembered about her mother and father.
"You likey?" Alana looked up, I nodded. Alana's face turned red and she hugged me again. "I'll wear it every day" said Alana, 'God is adorable.
Day
"Well, dareel..." Alana gasps with her mouth open, not staying silent I****** those lips and speeding up my movements.
"Brear..." Really, when alana called my name made me even more wild. "call my name again, you are so sexy." I pressed two hands alana up with my one hand and ******* chest alana which looks very challenging.
"Alana, is this too rude?" Ask me when I think my movements are too fast. Alana shook her head, "No, I like it," said alana grabbing my face, and kissing my sensual lips.
"Are you tired?" I asked Alana who closed her eyes after the release of the two of us. Alana nodded, then I rubbed the head of alana lying on my chest.
"I'll take a shower first." I pulled Alana's hand as she was about to stand up. "We go on," I said again to kiss Alana's face, "Dareel, wait, no." Alana laughed amusedly because of me
tickled his neck.
"That's why don't you lure me, I won't do it half-center," I said, piercing Alana's body. "I'll do it until morning" I said again opening alana's thighs.
"Dareel, are you crazy, stop being stupid." Alana laughs at my hair. "You, Al. You drive me crazy" I said, kissing alana's wet lips.
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I stood leaning against the window and looked at Alana who was now asleep, very visible from the look on her face that she was exhausted by my actions, God.
I smiled in remembrance of our improving relationship and began to have clarity. For God's sake, after this I won't let go of the alana again.
However, suddenly alana's remark earlier this afternoon made ki's smile fade away. 'Seeing my parents' marriage is falling apart, scaring me to start a family'.
Those words are still spinning in my brain, this is not the fault of alana, even here alana is the victim. Alana thinks she can't build a family because of her fear, she's afraid of having a broken family for the second time.
From the age of seventeen alana witnessed how slowly the family she was so proud of became destroyed. Which began with the affair of his father until the death of his mother by suicide.
I walked over to the deeper alana on the bed, slowly sitting beside the alana and justifying the blanket that covered her innocent body.
It is not easy through it all, very strong alana can survive up to this point. However, it was just that the fear was still in his mind, the fear of building a family.
Heem, alana cleared her throat and moved slowly in her sleep. "Sleep again" I said gently rubbing alana's head and slowly I lay down beside her.
I won't force you, whatever makes you happy and comfortable then do it. I love you Alana loves you so much, I said in my heart.
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