Missing You Is Opium
The Part 29

The alarm rings, indicating it's 5 a.m. Last night we spent time at the homestay, Papa decided we should stay at a homestay. There are 3 rooms and 1 family room.

Nando's still sleeping with his oma opa. Finally I decided to take a shower and immediately went out to enjoy the morning air. I put on my jacket and made jokes. I looked at my phone and checked some whatsap messages. One of them is Roy. There is some interesting info to read. I read slowly until someone surprised me. When I look "again Adam,"

"Udah seger early in the morning" he said.

"Yes, I'm sleeping" I replied, putting my phone in my jacket pocket.

We walked in tandem.

"Van, can you ask me something?"

"Ask for 'Mas. Santoy,"

Adam pulled my hand, rolling me toward the long chair on the side of the road.

"Sit down," he ordered.

I sat without many words.

"Van, what, after the divorce, do you want to marry me?"

"Who wants a divorce, Mas?" my spoken.

" after what happened, Van?"

" Vania doesn't know, Mas. But can divorce solve the problem?. I don't know why Brother Umar left and chose another. There must be a reason, and that could be me. I'm not good at serving my husband" my tears came.

I don't know why the desire dihati want to embrace Mas Adam. And I don't give a shit. I hugged her. I felt Adam was shocked by my actions. But I don't care. Honestly I miss, miss this warm hug. I miss this peace. Can Adam please me? I was scared and could not judge.

Adam put my arms together, he stroked the end of my veil. I buried my face in his chest. Warmth is soul.

Adam really let me shed tears and everything that gripped my chest without many words. After a few minutes, he raised my head and kissed my forehead.

" My dear to you remains the same, Van. You keep filling the heart niche,"

I was silent, unable to give a reply. This man in front of me has been waiting for me for too long. This man in front of me had been expecting me for too long. Am I worthy? Am I worthy?

I'm splitting a hug.

I saw her kiss on the forehead. I ran away. I think the hard wall in my heart really collapsed.

"Adam, you're a man who from a long time ago was able to comfort me. Is my happiness destined to be with you?"

I leaned against a shady tree. Closing my eyes trying to think of the incident just now. What is this feeling?

I remembered my phone, reopened Roy's messages. According to the doctor where Umar checked he was exposed to Impotent effects of illegal drugs.

I am so confused by this fact. So Brother Umar went away with such sadness. Who is the man who is not ashamed if he can no longer satisfy his wife? I feel guilty. I wasn't there when she felt disappointed in the chest.

I saw pictures of Umar with Thalita. They are happy now Roy said.

"How could a man who could have a child, get impotent Roy?"reply me on whatsap.

"Because of the use of stimulant drugs"

' I don't understand '

"Stimulants are drugs that raise the level of alertness in a short span of time. Stimulants usually increase side effects by increasing their effectiveness, and the greater variety is often misused into drugs that are illegal or used without a prescription. Other examples of known stimulants are ephedrine, amphetamines, cocaine, methylphenidate, MDMA, and modafinil. Stimulants are commonly referred to in American slang as "upper".Potentially abused stimulants are closely monitored in America and other legal systems. Some of these may be available legally only by prescription (e.g., methamphetamine, trade name Desoxyn, amphetamine salt mixture, trade name Adderall, dexamphetamine, etc, trade name Dexedrine) or prohibited (eg methcatinone).

"A complicated discussion! A kind of stimulant drug as well as? " Vania replied.

"Yes, that kind of thing, too. I suspect you often make him take strong drugs," Roy sent a chat with emot 🤪.

I read it briefly and did not reply. The feeling I never asked for anything to Brother Umar. Why would he take drugs like that?

***

Vania lowered her head, resting her knees. I'm confused about God. If I defend Brother Umar, what do I get? But what about Nando. Isn't that little boy still need a father figure. There's no way I'm getting married any time soon. What people comment later. All the filthy stuff in the brain .

***

Adam just looked at Vania from a distance, smiling at her disinclined behavior.

"Duh Van, make more love," Adam decided to return to the homestay. Letting Vania go to war with her feelings.

#missing you is an opium