Missing You Is Opium
Part 12's
****Umar
Seeing from a distance his wife who was playing with her little son.She looked motherly once when with Nando.. I used to chase after him made him fall in love even though he often rejected me. She's already mine why my heart just feels so ordinary. Was it when I chased him that I was just testing myself? How far will this woman run from my pursuit?
Sorry sister Vania, really I have sinned.make you long to just be together.Today our baby was a toddler, her funny behavior did not slightly tweet my heart.thanks for your patience, thank you for your service to educate my son..but honey why my heart feels dead, I caught you talking to Adam.I didn't think you were still in love with each other, I know you're this way because you're lonely. But I'm sorry my man's soul has been shaken.Let me go from all this Vania.
I feel unworthy to be a man, I rarely touch you not because it is no longer dear but I am ashamed because my body is no longer manly. I know it's hard for you, but I'm ashamed to tell you.My habit of taking drugs used to have a big effect on me now.I know you must help me if you know all this, but unfortunately my dignity is at stake as a real man..
Forgive brother Van, I love you and Vernando, but you have to go carry yourself, I'm sorry that you ran away from reality.
I left the certificate of land and house, with the password pin and a memo.
"Vania, take good care of yourself, take care of our child with love, I know you are a great woman.you must be strong through all this. Brother has to leave, maybe not come back"
Greetings from your husband,UMAR .
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Umar left when Vania and Nando fell asleep.He only brought a little clothes, he had everything prepared.He will stay at a remote town while curing his illness.This is a tough decision, leaving his wife without a talaq verdict. I can't turn into Vania, she's a good wife, she's decided to leave Adam and want to ride a warm mahligai with me..
Umar took the train, he left all the assets for Vania.Hopefully Vania and Nando will not lack anything until at least Vania can work or whatever he can do.Olshopnya already developed certainly Vania can pass everything..I'm certain.
"I'm sorry Van" said Umar lirih.Shadowed back how sweet Vania time akad with a tight white kebaya.She really captivated.Tears of your pain at night first, the eyes of the pain of the first night,Smile your twinkle when you know you are pregnant with my son.Your sincere eyes bear pain when my son is born.. "God, why are you testing me this way? Why are you making my maleness not work? And why just now? When Vania and I needed each other" there was no feeling of any tears dripping.
Umar discards all his phone numbers, disables all his social media accounts.He really wants to leave without a trace left behind. I don't know if it's healing or not, which I know by not sharing with Vania, I won't be depressed when she teases me with a naughty kiss..
Umar daydreamed long until it did not feel the train was already in the destination city.Surge him down and drive a taxi to get to the location. Umar stays at an alternative treatment for impotence men. "Argh can you say this is impotence? Wasn't I a real man? Even I have a child" Umar's inner frustration.
"Wa"alaikumussalam"
"I Umar sir, who yesterday consulted via phone"
"Oh,iya nak.Bapak has prepared a place for you to stay, let's take between"
Umar followed the old man, while looking around.Not many of these places, there are only a few men approximate age of 30 like me."what a disease they also suffered the same" aargh how sad our fate" again Umar grumbled.
Rumayan also traveled from the front to Umar's room. "Son, this is your room.the front room is full so I put you in the back room, do you mind?" Ask the old man
"No matter what, sir, it's quiet here too"
"Alright then, you rest first, then let the father deliver you food"
"Thank you, sir" replied Umar
They immediately pack up and take a shower. This room is small but very neat.. Duh again the memory of the distant glare to Vania"what are you Van. Did you know I wasn't home? Nando sorryin dad"
Umar soaked himself in the bathroom and spent his time lingering under the shower."It's over" Umar..
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