Halalku Waiting
The Part 16

At exactly four in the morning I woke up, I saw keyle and Aila were still fast asleep. Then I rushed to the bathroom with a little teetering for ablution and then did the evening prayer. I'm used to getting up for the night prayer. Because that's where I always miss him.

"Assalamualaikum warahmatullah.."my greeting at the end of the night prayer by allowing my face to right and left, then holding my hand up to ask Allah to give all the flavors that still exist for him.

"Allah is merciful, all-loving, you are all-powerful over all nature, you know what is best for me and what is not good for me, O God, help me to accept all these decisions, help me to make them clear, help me not to think about myself anymore, help me to accept the destiny you give me, o Allah, Rahman, O Rahim, I sit down and beg before you, with all your power, to help you to accept him as a slave husband, if this is the way of the servant....open your heart, you are the one who throws the hearts of men, so I beg you to strengthen me with strength and with Your power.

And for Arfan, I beg you to keep him, O Allah, may he be happy there and can get a better person than me...may the ideals which he desires be fulfilled O Allah by Your permission.She asked _Your God, please grant the prayer of the servant O Allah...

Aamiin.ya Rabbal....

After the prayer I woke up my two friends.

"Key, Ai.wake up.it's morning"

Silence, no answer.

"Key...Ai, let's get up..

I patted the faces of the two so that they could wake up from that deep sleep.

"Emm..it's morning, Fa.." said Ai, rubbing her face.

"Yes.ayo quickly wake up, ready and there will be a moment later at dawn until you know..."

"Hoamm...is azan the Fa? Ask keyle.

"Not key.ayo there clean hunt clean..."

They rushed to the bathroom in turn. While waiting for dawn to come I took the time to read the Qur'an. Until dawn came and we did the dawn prayer together.

"Fa what are your legs? It's mengingan, right?

"Alhamdulillah Ai, although still a little pain seh, but it's okay ko, I'll be strong..." I try to strengthen myself even though I am fragile.

"Haha, you are, say yourself strong, but in fact often nangisss.."kek keyle.

I just smiled at the words of key, keyle was right, I kept trying hard but in fact my tears always broke in front of them.

I am thankful that God gave me a friend like them. I hope we will always be together until Jannah_His....Aamin_batinyu.

"Oo ya Fa, have you opened a group yet? Ask Aila who is still busy with her meeting.

I who was still cleaning the prayer equipment also turned to Aila.

"No Ai, what's the news? Ask wonder.

"Today we have started to be active, you know.."

"Oh my God, this Monday? Means my marriage ended with Fathan dong? My reflexes.

They also nodded at my words.

"Kok just said it now sehh..." Tanyaku.

"Sorry Fa, we think you already know this news.eh it's not yet." answered key.

In the middle of the fun we were talking suddenly...

Chequek...

I heard the door open, we turned to the door and there came Abi and Ummiku. I just remembered that this morning they wanted to pick me up to take me home.

"Ee, there's a key with Ai here, why haven't you gone home? Ask Ummi.

"Hehe, Ummi.emang deliberately Ummi, want to nemenin Syifa here.iya right Ai? Ask Aila for the key.

"Yes Ummi, sir Syifa there is nothing to keep, yes we have been the guardians.." chuckles Aila.

"You guys, thank you for taking care of Ummi's son..."

They also say Ummi's words.

"Let's go home, baby..."

I who heard Ummi's words just nodded.

"You go home with Ummi.."

"Em, don't be Ummi, you'll have to take nicotine..."

"Eh you guys, do not take care of ko, Ummi seneng even.didn't bi? Ask Abi.

"Yes, we do not feel bothered ko ko ko.." Abi said.

They looked at each other, not knowing what they were thinking.

"Anu Abi, we don't mean to refuse, but there's something to take care of this morning. Yes, Ai." asked key to Aila.

"Ah.i-iya right Ummi..." Aila said nervously.

I who saw their behavior thought, there must be something they kept from me. But I don't know, I can't be prejudiced against them.

"Well, if that's your will, we're not forcing..."Ummi final.

"If so we go home first Fa, Ummi, Abi. assalamualaikum" then they greet Ummi before leaving the place.

We also answered their greetings. Then I led them to the front door of the room, I looked at them until their backs were not visible from the hospital corridor just thanked God, because God had given them their best friend.

After finishing cleaning the white room, we immediately went to the house.

On the way I just kept quiet without flinching anymore. Now I'm really confused. Soon the marriage will happen. Indeed, it is my request to continue this marriage, otherwise all preparations are continued only in vain. Even though it's crowded I think but I don't want to disappoint them.

Every now and then I look beside the glass, I see people have not been so busy using this road.

Sepi?!.iya deserted this road like a lonely heart without any more lights like before.

Tests..

The clear water came out again by itself, without a second thought I immediately deleted it, so that no one would see me when I was crying.

Long enough on our way home, I saw people were filled with my family, I also did not know if the family came, yesterday he was home no one came, but at this time, really crowded.

'Maybe since last night they came, but ko can be at the same time.kan not possible, au ahh dizzy I think of it_innerku.

"Syifaaa....

I saw my niece come running and hugging me.

"Ee, heart pound auntyy, later fall..

"Hehe, because Ara misses auntyy..."

I just smiled at her who was so happy.

"Fa come on boy, the fairy is waiting in your room.let Ummi anter yaa.."

I just nodded at Ummi's words.

"Ara, wait here yeah, aunty wants to go to the room first..."

"Ah aunty was just this minute..." Strokes.

"Later aunty to...

Not yet able to continue my word, until Aunt Yola cut off my conversation with Ara.

"Ara come on, son, we're going to the kitchen.ya already there geh bring his syifa.." said Aunt Yola.

"Eh Aunt...

Hugging his body directly, he returned my embrace.

"Eh, Aunt Syifa longs very much for Auntie." I said.

"Tante also miss ko, yes already there hunted, the fairy has been waiting since...."

And I paid him a favor and then went straight to my room.

I was long ago covered by Risa's mother. Before he had introduced himself to me, so I knew his name. She was a good perias, look now, I can't believe that the one in the mirror is me. I used to dream that this was a very happy marriage for me, but today I don't feel that happiness coming to me. Although seen from the face I try to be happy with this marriage, but actually I am not like that, I am sick, rather my heart is sick.

"Ehh neng, why cry? Ning don't cry later makeup fade lhoo..." Her speech.

I who heard his words immediately felt my chip and immediately looked at the mirror reflection turned the water dripping again. Why is it God? I'm not strong! I always cry! I am so fragile now!.

"I don't papa ko mbak.this is just a cry of happiness..." I lied, I tried to smile at him even though it felt bitter.

Of happiness? 

What did I say just now?

I'm not happy with all this!

My heart is in revolt now...

He wanted to get away with all this but I didn't want to break all the trust of the people I love....

I can only cry in silence now. Without anyone knowing that I am fragile!

'I must be strong, I cannot cry anymore, Come I must rise! Do not let this slump create an unwanted atmosphere.iya I should be able to_monologku.

"The spirit of the Fa, we will have ko for you, you do not be sad anymore." said Aila softly.

Aila and Key have been in my room since a few minutes ago, they accompanied me by Raisa's mother.

"Thank you Ai, Key.you are always there for Syifa.."my voice then I hugged them and they returned my arms.

"Bismillah Fa, you can definitely.oke.." Key encouraged me.

"Yes....Bismilbornrahmanirrahim..."

Saying bitter.

"Oo yes Fa, we go out first yes, want to find Zahra because." said key to me.

"Tumben you're looking for Zahra, what's up.?manya curious.

Aila and Keyle looked at each other, not knowing what they were thinking.

"Hmm, isn't there anything about the key? Ask Aila on the key. I who feel confused by the behavior of my two friends just nodded resignedly agree to his words.

"Yes we have left first yaa, assalamualaikum Syifa.." he said and I replied waalaikumsalam. They left me alone in my room.

Henan...

There's no one in this room, just me and loneliness. I really can't accept this situation. I don't know what I'm going to be like, I hope this is the best way for you for me God.

"Assalamualaikum mbak.maa shaa Allah is very beautiful today.but the red eyes of mbak, mbak hbis nangis yaa..." Just ask Anna who suddenly came to my room.

"Oh Allah, Anna.when did it come? Ko didn't say...." I'm shocked.

"Newly mbak, it's okay, right? Ask again.

"Yes, it's okay..." Answer lies. I'm sorry Anna, even if I told you you would never understand my inner_.

For some reason when I looked at Anna my eyes wanted to look at the door. When I looked at the door, my eyes were breaking. I was really surprised.

"Arypan...."

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