Halalku Waiting
The Part 13

"where is Syifa son." asked Umm Rahma to me. 

"Ummi, calm Ummi" said Abi Syifa.

"He's in Ummi, the doctor said he's fine just plain tired"

"Alhamdulillah" 

"Ummi, Syifa why is it like this?

I saw the face of Umminya Syifa, there was a stroke of sadness on her face, I could not see it like that.

"Son this, read it..." Giving up a book.

"What is Ummi? I asked in wonder, I was really surprised by the book given by Ummi, I was just asking the question but why this book? What does it_inku.

"Read it, son, Ummi also does not believe all this happened to daughter Ummi." he replied.

"Can I bring it home? My toot.

"Please son, but you don't tell Syifa that her diary is in your hands.." 

"Yes Ummi.."

"Yes already then you go home first of course now you are still busy..

"What's wrong with Ummi, I'm here..."

"You have come home, let Syifa Abi be the same Ummi who takes care of you." Abi Syifa said.

"Well Abi, then I go home first, later if my work is done I will come back here again.."

"Yes, son..."

"Abiabase, Ummi....

"Waalaikum...

Then I went home with a diary of a Syifa, I was surprised, what it contained ya_batinku.

After arriving home I also saw Ummi and Abi were sitting casually in front of the television.

"Why are you home, son? Have you done the office work? Ask Ummi.

"Yet Ummi.

"To be so lethargic is Fathan? Wh why? Ask Abiku.

Then I walked gontai towards the place where Abi and Ummi were chatting.

"Syifa Ummi, Syifa...

"Why Syifa, son? Ask Ummi I'm worried.

"He's in the hospital..."

"O Allah..why? 

"I don't know either, just when Fathan again at the office arrived Fathan's phone rang and tertara no Syifa there then Fathan picked up and turned out to be a man and he said that Syifa fainted in the middle of the road in a mess, his feet were not wearing Ummi sandals and his feet were bleeding.uh Ummi Fathan can not see it like this.."

"Keep why you didn't tell us, son.."

"Sorry Ummi, Fathan told his parents.."lirihku.

"What is this, son? The picture of a woman, who has it? Ask Ummi wonder.

"Emm,, this is Syifa, this is Ummi's diary, Umm Rahma gave it...

"For what?"

"Ummi told me to read it through Ummi, maybe here there is an answer..."

"What answer? Ask Abi wonder.

"An answer to all the questions that always arise in the mind of Fathan Abi.."

The two parents looked at each other and knitted their eyebrows together, a sign they did not understand what their son said.

"Yes you are in the room now and clean yourself up, so that soon.."

"Yes Ummi, if that's Fathan up first..."

Then I went to my room, and cleaned myself up, after I finished cleaning myself a short break to relieve my fatigue today.

"Allahu Rabbi, may I be weary today, so be God...

Tok tok...

I heard the door of my room being knocked over by someone, and it turned out to be Nisa.

"Abang!! Spate down! Ummi said we should eat first....

"Yes, you go first on deck, and then you come on.."

"OKAY.."

I immediately rushed to the dining table, Abi said that my marriage with Syifa tomorrow should not be postponed.

"Fathan, the Abi Syifa called, and he kept saying, tomorrow's wedding doesn't have to be postponed." said Abi.

"Laa, ko so Abi, Syifa is still sick you know, it's better to postpone it first, let him heal first, later if it's healed then we will marry..."

"Abi said so, too, but Syifa's Abi said it was Syifa's own request, he didn't want to mess up all the events..." Say Abi again.

"Making a mess how Abi.again health is important..."

"Hmm, good is Abi..."

"Oo yes Ummi later we look at Syifa yaa..." Nisa said, I see she is very enthusiastic about visiting her future wife.

"Let's love we will look there, will Abi.." asked Ummi to Abi.

"I can't wait to see Syifa.." he said.

Silence.no more opening the voice, all that is heard is the sound of the clang of a spoon.

After I finished eating, I went to my room.

"Yes Ummi, I went to the room first." I said and passed to my room.

When I arrived at the room, my eyes were fixed on a book depicting princes on the cover, I was quite curious about the contents of a diary that had Syifa given Ummi Rahma last afternoon. I looked at the book carefully, I smiled occasionally at the person who owned the book and brought a shirt by the window. When I opened the cover there was a heart-word expression as well as the date.

^^^Jakarta, 23-03-2015^^^

This is a special book about my longing for you. You know! I really couldn't bear the news of your departure back then!! you left me with all the memories you gave me right then and there, on that day from 02-01-2014 you told me that you wanted to pursue your dreams, my tears broke when I heard the news, and the most painful thing is that I can no longer communicate with you, which makes me very claustrophobic!

I beg you to come, I do not know how many books to express all these words, it may be 5 or 6 books, I do not count them, because if I look at the book, I felt like you were going to be in front of me.

I only hope to God, that you will always be there in the best care, and always healthy. May the ideals that you dream of quickly come true, I can only pray for you...

Congratulations to Arfan! I hope you don't forget me if God wills us to meet again....Aamiins. 

I could not feel my tears dripping as I read such heartbreaking words. 

The arfan?!

Who her? What is your past Syifa?_inner.

I didn't want to be so nervous about those words, and I went on to open the next page.

^^^Jakarta 26-03-2015^^^^

O Arfan, how are you there, may always be in the protection of Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala. Aami...

Today I wanted to tell you a lot of things but I thought again, What's in it? if I tell you many things, you are not here either, I hope to God to bring me to you again, so that I can tell you all about them.

Heh! do not let me tell you, to ask me news you never once.hiks hiks hyks, I am so sad! Don't you remember me anymore? I have been longing for this I keep, instead of decreasing but instead increasing, increasing, and increasing!!

I've been trying to throw all that away, I've been trying to throw away a taste I shouldn't have for someone who isn't my mahram. I'm sorry Arfan! I really can't afford to throw everything away. Those memories are always ringing in my mind....

Please come back.I miss you!! what a miss I can't bear anymore, if I miss what I think is a disease, then I've been in the final distadiom.

That's what Syifa said for 'he' he was Arfan, the figure of someone he missed for so long.

I don't feel my tears dripping on their own without asking. I don't have to read this book, but I have to be able to read through it so I know what's going on with him, and his past, so I know a little bit of his story, even though it was not him who told but a diary of a Syifa.

And I continued with the story of his day to wait for the figure of an Arfan to come back in his life, but until this page that reads 25-05-2017, he never came to see Syifa for once.

What a very complicated romance for me, whether I become a barrier between you and her Syifa_inku.

Keep reading the next story and I can't read all these tears keep dripping reading those heartbreaking sentences, I really can't stand it!!

I closed the book again, my eyes could no longer read the next story, I was not strong!! it felt as if the tightness that Syifa felt, as if I would be in his position.

My tears remember all the stories of his love with someone named Arfan.

I guess I've made her feel even more the pain that so stifled her heart. Why don't you tell me Syifa, if you had told me everything, this marriage would never have happened_I muttered to myself, I was frustrated thinking about all this.

"BRANCH!! HURRY DOWN!!!

I heard the cry of Nisa who was so blaring that it sounded, but the boy shouted seh_lirihku.

"YES BAWEL!! My yelling.

Before descending I also cleaned my face a little swollen from crying reading Syifa's diary. When I finished, I rushed down. And meet Nisa who is sitting casually in front of the television while watching her favorite movie.

"What's the deck? Shouts screams tell Brother to come down anyway..." I sat next to him and put my head on the sofa.

"That's.Abi said it out later we want to look at Syifa..."

"Oohh."I replied, somehow my mood now drops dramatically if I hear the name Syifa.

"Kok ohh doang? not very happy Neh Abang met mbak Syifa.." 

"Not unhappy but you're in a bad mood!! I said bad mood to Nisa.

Nisa who saw him was just astonished, he did not usually see his brother like this.

"What should? Ask her. His hand was stuck to his brother's head to make sure that his brother was not sick.

"Well healthy Nisa!!"

'But not with my heart deck! Pain's'

"Not usually kek gini, usually always happy if you hear the name mbak Syifa...."

I didn't answer his words, I don't know why today it feels like he has no spirit.

"It's good then, yes, Abang is ready to be ready for the mosque, Abi said he wanted the mosque with Abang pas this asar prayer." he said again.

"Yes already, then you go up again yes up, want to be ready..."

Nisa also nodded her head in assent to my words. And I immediately prepared to pray in the mosque with Abi.

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