Halalku Waiting
Part 12's
The next day...
I was alone in my room thinking about tomorrow's event. I don't know what tomorrow will be like. I was really confused by the circumstances.
"Oh my God, what should I do now? I don't want to disappoint the people who love me especially to Ummiku and Abi, but I can't lie to my own feelings, this feeling is still there for him and.....I'm sorry I haven't been able to take it all, help me to get rid of all those memories.."lirihku, without me noticing, the clear water came back to drip by itself.
"Oh Allah I am not strong.Tomorrow is the day when I will be the wife of people, what a burden of mind that is very heavy for me.."I again cried and cried, crying, everyone doesn't know what's on my mind. I really can't stand all this, 'should I cancel this marriage!.' my inner self.
Astagfirulhalazim apos...
Quickly I said Istighfar, and threw away all those bad thoughts.
Drrt..
I saw my phone vibrate. And stuck on the screen the name of a friend of mine who I haven't been communicating with lately, yeah, she's Anna.
Assalamualaikum Anna's...
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Alhamdulillah, fine. You how?
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Alhamdullah....
Suddenly I remembered something, had I not invited him to come to my inner marriage.
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Ahh, yes what is it?..
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It's okay, ko,
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Tomorrow then?
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Eemm, may I, but tomorrow at home many guests...are you okay?
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Em,, so gini, I forgot about you....
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Emm, you don't get mad, yeah, I just forgot to. This is sudden for me too.
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This Sunday..me...a..mu..mu.mu.kana.kah..." Nervous saying.
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Excuse me...
I could no longer say the next word, the clear water came out again.
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I was betrothed to Abi Anna.
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All right, come later.I hope you come on Sunday....
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Okay, waalaikumsalam....
After I hung up the phone, I ran to the room with tears that I couldn't stop, and it might take a long time, really!!! All this is stifling!!
Ummi came and approached me. I quickly turned my face away and wiped my tears, so that Ummi did not think about my situation, I did not want to make her worry.
"Laahhh, it turns out that this is Ummi's son.."
"Eh..iya Ummi, when did Ummi come here? My toot.
"Udah from earlier, Ummi called Ummi's son and also Ummi ketok door no one nyahut.eh Ummi puter to the handle of the door was not locked, it was not locked, and when Ummi enters the room you are not in the room Ummi try to find here , and it turns out that this beautiful Ummi child is here anyway son." explained Ummi me.
"Hehe... Ummi can do it..." My chuckles.
"eeh yes...Ummi what is it here? Ask again.
"Emang Ummi can't go to his own son's room?? Ummi asked me back.
"Ee, not Gito Syifa means..
"Yes, Ummi knows ko nak, Ummi is here just want the name.." cut Ummi.
"You want what Ummi is, just ask..." I dare not look at those soothing irises.
"Son Ummi see you rarely go out of the room a few days, and when you go out of the room Ummi see your eyes are always puffy? Ask Ummi.
"Emm.annu Ummi... That..'oh it's hard to say it, it's so nervous.'my inner.
"Anu why? Ask Ummi again with a curious face.
"Anu Ummi.it.(my words were nervous)
"No if there is a problem you can tell to Ummi or to Abi, if Syifa is silent this will not make the problem so complete.." explained Ummi.
I can no longer hold back my tears, now the clear details come back out quickly, Ummi who saw my condition like this immediately embraced me. Ummi's embrace calms my soul.
"What's your son? Ask worried.
"Ummi.hiks...
"Kok nangis nduk, what's wrong? Same story Ummi...." Cut ummi on the side of my broken cry.
"Ummi..what is Ummi.hiks hiks..baha...hiks hyks.... happy with...hiks hyks..... this marriage..hiks hyks?? I asked Ummi while I was still crying in his arms.
Then he loosened his arms and looked at my eyeballs, I looked back at those soothing eyeballs with a faint smile.
"Son...ko said that?? How ummi is not happy, surely Ummi is very happy if this little daughter of Ummi will bear the status of a wife later." he explained while wiping away my tears that are increasingly shed.
I could only look at Ummi's face. Ummi wouldn't understand if I talked to him in a convoluted way, I want to feel like I'm being honest about everything that's made me a little crowded these days.
"Active.... Syifa loved Ummi.." I said while hugging him again.
"Yes dear, Ummi also loves Syifa..." Ummi.
"Hmmm, tomorrow is your wedding, son, it does not feel that little princess Ummi has asked, and tomorrow will be a wife....Are you happy with this marriage, son?? Ask Ummi again.
I who heard Ummi's question immediately loosened my arms, and looked at Ummi's face, I saw a look of happiness on his face, I who saw it was powerless to tell Ummi everything. If I tell you all, Ummi will be disappointed in me. I undo the intention to tell everything, let this be my responsibility, it's okay. I'd be sincere if that was the destiny I had to live. Cuddle back Ummi tightly, for my soul to calm down a little.
"Well if there is a problem tell Ummi, Ummi is ready to listen to your story, son.if it makes the burden of your mind decreases..." Pinta Ummi's.
Hearing Ummi's words it feels like my tears can't be contained anymore. Now it spills again in front of my Ummi.
"Ummi.hiks hiks..why Abi..hiks hiks...men.hiks hyks....match...Syifa.
I just kept quiet and didn't answer Ummi's question, not that I didn't want to answer his question. Now I can only cry in her arms.
"Son...
"Ummi..hiks hiks..i can't.hiks hyks....hiks...hix...hiks hiks....this match..." Pinal.
"Why son?tomorrow is your happy day, right? And Syifa has also received a proposal from Fathan, right?? Ummi asked gently while rubbing my back which is still shaking from my cries.
I just cried and cried.I don't know what to answer now. My tongue was too weak to speak a word.
"Not try to accept it, yes, this is the destiny of God that has been outlined for Syifa.so Syifa should not be like this..."
Right now I really can't stand the tightness, and I walk to my closet to pick up a book, and that book is my diary, I thought for a moment.
'perhaps with this book if I give it to Ummi and give it a chance to read it will be calmer for me...'
Then I handed the book to Ummi, I let him read it to the end, because my tongue is now very difficult to get the words out.
"What'sthis?
"Read it Ummi..hiks hiks..."
Then I ran out of my room, I no longer paid attention to Ummi calling me and I kept running and came out of the house with a very bitter cry, now I don't know where to go, and now I don't know where to, I continued running without using footwear, at this time I no longer felt the pain that felt so painful on my leg. The people I went through were astonished, sometimes they greeted me, but I ignored them.
Verily, Allah, it is difficult for me to lose my inner_in between my tears.
Bruck..
Accidentally my body collided with someone, and made me fall, I did not dare to look at it with this state, I tried to stand alone, but nil my legs can no longer stand and run.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it"
An apology sounded in my ear from his mouth, and his voice was like a man.
A male?
O God who is this, I fear_into me.
"Not to be afraid...
Those words I heard from his mouth, did he know that I was afraid of him?
Suddenly my vision felt blurry and for a second I was unconscious again.
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Kinggg!! Kinggg!
I heard my phone ring and then I saw who called her this afternoon. And it looks like the writing on it says 'Syifa'
Why did Syifa call?_inner.
Assalamualaikum Syifa, what's wrong?
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Huh huh? Who are you then?and why Syifa's phone is in your hands...
I can't believe a man who called me on Syifa's phone, there's a lot of disappointment that I feel, but for now let me hold on, I better not think badly of him_my inner self
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Yes, I am the future husband, what is it?
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Astagfirullah...
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All right I'm there...
My phone closed and immediately rushed to the hospital, really at this time my feelings are very worried, I also do not care anymore with the file files that mess in my work. Same with the employee who greeted me. They were amazed to see me running in a hurry. That's not all that important to me!
O Allah I beg you to save me.
When I arrived at the hospital I immediately asked the nurse, after the nurse found Syifa's name and she told me that she was in room no 23. I also ran and headed to the room where Syifa was being treated. And found a young caller who told me that Syifa was in the hospital.
"Where's Syifa? Where's she?? Ask me to worry.
"He's inside the mas...
"O Allah Shifa, what are you? Arrgghhh.
"Sorry sir, don't yell here, the patient's eyes are disturbed later..." Said a nurse passing by at this time.
"Sorry, forgive my friend.say a young man of my age.
"Well then excuse me sir" said the nurse again.
"Mas it okay? Ask the young man.
"Yes I'm fine." I said softly.
"Then excuse me, because I hunted." he said again.
"Yes, thank you for helping my future wife..."
"Yes the same mas, and this is the phone..."
"Waalaikum...
With a shaky hand I took the cell phone in the hands of the man who had helped his future wife.
And he passed until his back was not seen by my eyes.
Ummie...
Yes I have to call Ummi, surely he doesn't know about this.
Assalamualaikum Umm....
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Syifa Ummi's... Syifa....
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Syifa is in the hospital....
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Yes Ummi, Fathan wait...
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Waalaikum...
After I closed the phone, I went to kemushalla in this hospital. I just remember when I was here I forgot to pray yet zhuhur, then I wudhu and continue praying, may I get peace of heart in prayer.
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