Between Two Love
Episode 07's.
" yeeeee we passed..."
" horeeee we pass."
There was a cry from the happy students.
"Rey..your grades are great, you want to go where "
"i don't know I An still confused want to go to university but if you see my family's condition now is not possible" my class
"i have an idea, you're on a student duty track Rey "Ana replied
"can it be An?" ask me while sad
"optimistic Rey you can do it" Ana encouraged me.
Suddenly from a distance seemed a stranger to me.
" Rey, there's something I want to say to you" Riko said
" what's brother?"
Ana slowly leaves us both and Riko's brother sits next to me
"Rey I'm sad"
"sad why brother?"
" i have to go with my mom to go to college abroad"
I was spontaneously shocked to hear it, but I tried to harbor my anxiety.
"was very happy to hear him" I pretended to hide my sadness
" what's happy?"
" yes, your brother has got the best university there" I said
" what the hell are you, Rey ? don't you worry about me at all?"
" for the best sake, brother, I'm sincere" while stemming my tears
He took my hand to calm me down.
" you don't forget me Rey, even if we don't see you again" Pinta Riko
" i also hope you can succeed without me here Rey, success is always for you" said Riko who even makes me sad.
I don't know what I feel right now. I feel lost without him. Whether I love her or not, I still don't understand the true meaning of love.
" your kudoain leg was successful there ya "splattered my tears wet my cheeks.
I could no longer hold back my tears. He whom I considered a friend who had always accompanied me had now left me. I thought he was the one who would always take care of me. But I'm wrong he left me far, far away.
He started to leave me by hugging me. I don't know if it's the last hug or I don't know if my heart is so fucked up. Sad very sad, I want to scream loudly. I'd love to hold you back from leaving me. But....
"hiks hyks hyx "
" Rey you're okay, right?" Ana came to me
I immediately hugged Ana and poured out my heart. Ana is my only friend. Ana's trying to make me calmer.
"it's Rey, you have to be strong" he whispered
" cup cup dear "Anna stroked my hair
I'm still leaning on Ana's shoulder
" go home yuk Rey" asked Ana
I walked and walked along the road with him, all the way I was just busy with tears that never stopped.
" duhhhhh if gini how can I let you Rey, yes we have gone to the hill first yes who knows there you can be a bit quiet" Ana pulled my hand and took me to a hill near the school.
As usual I was there laying my body in the grass. I looked at the flying dandelion I came up to him and plucked one . My tears started to flow because every time I saw the dandelion I remembered Riko's sister.
Will this really be a memory? God why so fast.
Ana who from a distance let me in my sorrow.
"Rey isn't sad yet? tired Rey is waiting for you to cry!" yell Ana
I just kept quiet and ignored it.
" Rey wants to try this out, let's hurry up "
not long ago Ana spoke of heavy rain. I took shelter in the same place I was with him. Oh God please forget my memory. I want to forget him, please help me.
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I went straight to my room in a mess.
"Rey tumben you go straight to sleep?" ask mom to come up to me
" Reyna's tired of Mom taking a break" I replied, covering my face, intending that she wouldn't know that I was crying.
" loh hey look at mommy, are you crying?" it turns out that my mother saw and knew.
I fell silent
"the same story Rey's mother what happened?"
"i'm fine ma'am" I replied covering up
" what does this have to do with Riko?"
" no ma'am"
" mother told me not to be friends with men let alone dating, but finally got to see. Anybody you?"
" no Ma'am "
Mother hugged me tightly to calm me down, she said,
"you are the only child, I don't want you to cry. You should now focus on your college first huh"
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1 year later
I was selected at one of the leading Indonesian universities with a student duty track. I really try to make my dream come true. Anyone is still loyal to me, he is just different majors. The only difference is that I'm not a little girl anymore. I am now more sociable and have many friends .
I have changed everything from behavior, appearance and to a more mature person. It's just that in love affairs I always lose. Maybe I still can't open the door of my heart for another guy. Maybe it was a little trauma, too. The fear of losing is the biggest reason that keeps me from closing my heart.
