Between Two Love
Episode 19's.
Day after day I've been together with Mom. The Father who left us made us strong souls. I don't know since then I started thinking about my life. My life is too long alone. My life is only spent on my own struggles. All the dreams I dreamed of have been realized. It's just that I'm not young anymore will think about how my life will be going forward. I can't be bothered with past events. I was determined to open my heart to someone. I don't know even though this heart isn't wide open but I'll always try to forget about him. He is now calm in nature. He who is not approved by God is with me.
My tears kept dripping until I finally broke my daydream. I want to rise from everything. I hope I can get through this time.
"Rey, it's time to go to bed, son" said Mother behind the door
" yes ma'am" I said with a soft look
I lay my body on the bed. I close my eyes trying to forget all the misfortunes that come and go. My eyes cannot lie to my heart. My heart is still in the light of what happened back then. I don't know when I can forget it.
The night was too long until the clock had shown at half 12. While my eyes still can't be closed. I saw my phone I tried to chat Rudi. My chats were sent and answered.
' how not to sleep Rey what else think rey?'
I haven't had time to reply to the chat he's been calling me.
" can't sleep Rud, I mostly think?" say
" let's tell Rey maybe I can give you a solution"
" what story am I also confused Rud, confused by my gini-gini life"
" what the hell does Rey mean?"
" that's why you're not the same as me who is not clear gini"
" your basics are unclear" Rud replied
" you want to live how you have everything" said Rudi
" all I don't have is one Rud, I don't have love" I replied
" is your heart dead, Rey?"
" how is it so hard?"
" how do I fare?"
" what fate?"
" if your heart is dead I can't go in a little bit"
" if only I knew how" I replied with tears.
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The next day I woke up. Rudi who has a stand bye in my house is waiting for me. I'm getting ready to leave immediately.
" haduuuhhhhh we are late now how is today there is a morning meeting" I said while going here and there cleaning my luggage
" yes let's spout dong Rey" said Rudi while helping me carry my default book
Then we get to the car and go very fast.
" muruannnnn cepet dikit dong" I said while looking at my watch
" patient Rey we also have to be careful" said Rudi while driving fast
We finally got to the right time. This meeting was led by a very skilled senior.
I looked at him carefully.
I saw Rudi who saw me I also smiled at him. He also made a very sweet smile. We are not focused on their explanation. We who are engrossed in ourselves even become a laughing stock when questions are thrown at me and I can't answer them.
" sorry sir" I said with a smile
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" Rud, you see they're so compatible, don't you?"
Rudi nodded not answering
" Next week they get married" I said, looking envious of him
" our trs when?" rudi said, which surprised me
" basic you" I tried to ignore him
After arriving at the house Rudi stopped by my house. I saw that she was familiar with my mother. Seeing this, I began to think about my selfishness. She had been with me for a long time and she was willing to keep her feelings for me. How cruel I was to her I never thought about her sincere feelings for me.
Not long after, he said goodbye to go home. My mother sat beside me
" Rey, don't you have any taste for Rudi, son?"
" don't know Mom"
" imagine what you could do if he was with another woman? your age is ripe for a household, son. Do not let people who have sacrificed a lot for you even wasted"
I thought for a moment what if Rudi was looking for another woman. While I lost her, it felt like there would be something missing if I had to lose her. Maybe I'm starting to love him now. I don't think I can afford to lose him.
I opened Ana's wedding invitations and I saw their photos. It feels like in my little heart I want to be like this too. I want to feel complete happiness. God, when will I feel true love.
Mom broke my daydream
" Rey try to call Rudi not to be late" said Mother
" yes ma'am but I'm ashamed to have to express my feelings, I'm a girl"
" now the prestige" said Mother while leaving me.
I was just holding my phone, I didn't dare call her. Not as usual I have no hesitation at all now so stubbornly want to call him. Suddenly he called me first in a hurry I picked up
" hello Rey, I'm at home and I forgot that the books for tomorrow's material are left behind in your house" he said in a hurry
" how could Rud?" while heading to the living room looking for the book
" may you please not come here? I'm going back but there's Rey's guest"
" i i. i.ya "my answer is stammering
I went straight to her house to bring her the book. Soon I arrived at his house. Knock on the door and I see no guests at all. He lied to me uhh so upset I lied to him. I entered room after room I saw all empty nobody. I went to his room and saw that he was working on a job.
" fucking liar says there's a guest, where is it ? deserted?" I said while throwing the book
" if you are not lied to, you will not come here" he said with a cry
" here and here see me again watching a really romantic movie"
" uhhhhh I think again seriously ngerjain duty, ehhh even watch a movie" I said as I headed to his laptop
He who daritadi noticed me immediately pulled my hand.
" sorry sorry" he said, kissing my hand
My heart is pounding I don't know it's not what it used to be. I was awkward when my face turned red. He pulled my hair until my cheeks looked blushing.
" Rey, you're okay, right? how come your face is flushed?"
well I got caught, Ihhh very embarrassed it feels . I just shook my head. I tried to turn my face away and he pulled my chin towards her. I did not dare to look at his face.
" Rey, look at me, Rey, what's wrong with you?"
