When the Heart is Tired
Change Blood

In the morning I immediately asked my sister-in-law.

" last breakfast we leave yes" I asked

Actually it's hard to swallow rice because it remembers my son's condition. But I have to be strong to be healthy in order to encourage my child.

" yes breakfast first yes, it was dawn already on the phone if the operation was successful" comforted my sister-in-law.

yes, at dawn my husband called to inform me that the operation was going well. There is a little relief but still it still feels tight in the chest.

" heart on the road take Honda slowly" said Mak and my in-laws.

" yes, Mom" replied the sister-in-law

My mother will soon also come home to be picked up by my brother.

Arriving at the hospital my husband was waiting in the parking lot I immediately hugged my husband.

" patience ma, mama must be strong keep health for good" said my husband while rubbing my back.

" let's look at you" I asked impatiently

" yes come" answered my husband

We walked straight into the third floor of the room where my son was being cared for.

Arriving in the room we have to wear special clothes to visit patients so that the virus does not come in he said. My sister was waiting outside because only the baby's parents could look inside.

" buk don't forget to wear the clothes" said the nurse.

" yes buk" I answered

after I finished wearing my clothes, I went straight to the incubator where my son was. I cried again it was not strong to see my baby's feet on the infusion until the surgery so do not move and harm so his feet in the support in the tie of gauze. My son's body is getting thinner his skin is wrinkled.

I really can't see it. I can only cry I can't say anymore. For about thirty minutes I just kept watching my son. Finally we went out of the room before leaving the nurse gave a message later at ten in order to come back to the room because there is something to be conveyed by the doctor. O Allah, what else is this my mind has guessed where.

We sat in the park drinking. I just sat there thinking about what the doctor wanted to say.

" deck eating cake do not dream much istighfar deck" said my husband

I just nodded weakly. And take a piece of cake from inside a crackle bag. It is hard to swallow food. It all felt bitter.Test my tears came back dripping.

" well, don't be so tired, mama don't cry anymore" persuaded my husband

I wiped my tears and tried to be okay. I inhale the air inside and let go slowly. I repeat a few times until a little lighten the tightness in the chest.

Almost ten o'clock we went back to the room according to the message from the nurse. My husband knocked on the door and opened it.

" excuse me sir" said my husband as we shook hands

" please sit down, father" said the doctor

" well" asked the doctor

" Alhamdullillah be healthy sir" I replied

" yes, the mother must be healthy spirit so that the baby is also excited, because the baby mother can feel that her mother is also sad" said the doctor again

" yes sir" I replied

" this is buk sir, after we examined and we checked Labor's baby mother was exposed to the blood virus. So you have to replace the new blood because the old blood is dirty." explained the doctor

I immediately went back. I can't imagine a baby that small his blood has to be changed.

" it looks like we need about five tubes of blood to replace all the blood. Hopefully this way the baby's mother is healthy quickly" said the doctor

" oh yes sir what blood type and when does this blood need?" ask my husband

I just listened to them talk because I couldn't make any more sounds it felt like it was stuck in my throat.

" the blood type of the father of A+ is musty and if possible today there is already yes sir, it just so happens that the tool is also there and no one is wearing so once there is blood we can immediately take action" said the doctor

" well sir, we will try to make today there is already blood" said my husband again

" well sir, maybe it's just that while I want to tell my father and mother later if there are important things we must say" said the doctor

" oh yes sir usually if the bloodstained person every month should routinely add more blood, so whether our child will be like that too" asked me voice

" not mother because the mother's child does not lack blood only the blood is exposed to the virus so it must be replaced with new blood" explained the doctor again

" oh like that sir thank you sir for the explanation" said my husband

We finally got out of the room and met my sister-in-law. We tried to contact our brother to ask for a blood donor. All of our brothers came straight to the hospital for a blood check. There is one that can be donated and suitable that is my biological brother.sister next to the husband blood type o so can not. While my brother next to my blood type is a lot of A+ but because all women are advised to look for men.

finally we contacted PMI and asked for help for a blood donor. Thank God that helped a lot. For my brother there is already one tube and four remaining tubes from PMI volunteers.

I am grateful that so many people have helped us and supported us.

That day, everything was taken to Labor for blood. And my son can be handled quickly.

After twenty days Alhamdullillah my son could drink a little milk. The situation is getting better. today's infusion has been released, other tools are also attached to the body of my baby has been released all.

The nurse advised me to learn to breastfeed. I was enthusiastic about doing it too. Although the beginning was a bit difficult but slowly finally my child can drink breast milk directly. After these new days I can hold and hug my son. I am so grateful.

every time I visit I have to breastfeed right away, usually if I am again at home breast milk is put in a bottle after being pumped to be taken to the hospital even though a little it is the most effective medicine said the nurse.

Alhamdullillah after being treated twenty-five days finally my son today can be brought home. His body became thin due to long fasting and pain. I am hearty in carrying. Before I go home I thank the doctor to all the nurses who have taken good care of my child so that it can be healthy again.

Today feels so happy. My son still has to take medication and check regularly to the hospital. The nurse also advised to always give ASI so as to recover quickly.

We got home in my brother's car. At home too all the brothers are happy to hear my son is healthy and can be brought home.Many have been waiting for us at home.I am always grateful to have a family that loves each other and please help.