THE TEARS OF CLARA
"leave home"
Mas Rio was furious when he found out that his son Nara knew his father had left with another woman besides his mother.
It even accuses me of teaching her children not to obey her father.
"i have never taught children to be that way, they have their own judgment" ...
"ohh...so you blame me?" rio's getting angry
"i'm not blaming you, I'm speaking the truth"...
Plakkk.
Aku menangis bukan menahan rasa sakit karena tamparan yang dilakukan mas Rio. Aku menangis karena menahan rasa sakit dalam hati dengan sikap suamiku yang tidak pernah menghargai aku sebagai istrinya dan selalu menyakiti aku fisik ataupun non fisik.
With a heart full of wounds, I also have patience that has limits. I left my husband and my children, and I was disappointed with my husband's attitude of never appreciating me.
Maybe it'll get better when I get out of the house.
Mas Rio did not throw me out but his attitude meant that he did not want me to stay with him anymore.
"hopefully you don't regret it" I said and I pulled the suitcase and walked away from home.
It was so heavy that my feet stepped up to leave the house, and there were too many memories that I could not possibly forget about the house I had been in for 8 years.
Mas Rio just kept silent not even caring about me and he let me go from home.
Nara and Niko ran up to me.
"mama where am I going"., Nara cried while Niko hugged me tightly so I wouldn't leave her.
"sad pardon mama..you guys are good as papa, have to obey papa, mama will not go long, mama will come back again" I cried and hugged my children
Mas Rio approached Nara and Niko and brought them inside the house, Nara and Niko were crying hysterically for me.
"lady.mama..mama.."...
But Still Rio brought them in regardless of the feelings of his children.
I thought with all my patience to face my husband's behavior I would get happiness and in the end I had to get hurt and the bitter reality I felt.
I had to leave the house and especially I had to leave my children who did not understand the circumstances that happened to their parents.
I fell down on my parents doorstep with my whole body soaked in rain.
Mom was shocked when the door opened and I was lying helpless in front of the door.
I cried and hugged my mother's lap after that I was unconscious.
"excuse me Clara ma'am, sir, I've been troubling you"...
Then I sat down on my bed, I saw my mother crying.
"what's wrong with you, son, how come it's like this?"my mother looked at me hoping her son would be okay.
"i left home I left my husband and children, I can't stand the Rio bu mas anymore, Rio mas already don't love me he loves other women and don't appreciate me as his wife, he said, he hurt me mom".
"how about your children they need you"...
"i know that, but Rio's mas forbid me to bring the kids with me"...
Mother hugged me giving me peace, she said,
"you who are patient, son, may there be a good way for you"...
"thank you, Amiin"...
I miss my children I miss wanting to hug them I miss wanting to play with them, it's been 1 week I left home
"Nara Niko mama kangen mama wants to see you guys" I whispered.
Mom embraces from behind
"come home, look at your children, do not raise your ego, kasian Nara and Niko they must need you"...
Maybe it's true what my mother said I should go home I should be strong for my children even if I give up but at least I don't leave my children.
I say goodbye to my parents to go home and see my children Nara and Niko, coming home does not mean I am back.
While heading home I saw Merry sitting in a garden chair like he was waiting for someone and when I was about to approach him suddenly I saw Mas Rio approaching him, my steps stopped and moved away from them so they wouldn't see me in that place either.
"you're evil because Rio you're selfish, I gave up on your wife so she wouldn't get hurt by me loving you, and why you should hurt her and go with another woman" Merry said
"that woman is the same, crying and admitting that she was hurt, it's your own fault why you left me " Rio said
"i'm leaving you because I don't want to be the third person in your House, but Rio don't ever give zholim to your wife, she's a good wife and also a good mother to your children"...
Then Merry left Rio mas.
I thought Merry was the third person to break my house I was wrong. Merry was a good woman who had wrongly loved my husband but she relented not to damage my household and not to want to hurt me. He was willing to leave Rio mas and try to forget it and it turns out that the man he forgot in his heart turned out to have another woman as well.
Not only am I the one who was hurt by Rio mas but Merry is also the victim of my husband's betrayal.
