THE TEARS OF CLARA
"My Little Princess"
"o Allah, O my Lord, I beg you, O God, heal my little daughter, I long for her cry, I miss her cry when Nara calls me mama, o Allah, but if You miss my little daughter more I am sincere, O Allah, I cannot bear to see my daughter endure pain, I leave everything to YOU, O Allah.Mn"....
My phone rang there was an incoming call from Merry and asked me to come back soon.
I ran and saw Mother Father and Mother-in-law even Merry and Sindi all crying.
I went to their Mothers and Fathers and hugged me and said that I should be sincere and patient.
I let go of Mom and Dad's arms after I heard Mas Rio crying hysterically in the room where Nara was being treated.
I ran over to Nara who was being mourned by Rio.
"Naraaa....Naraaaaa maapin papa" cried Mas Rio calling while hugging his daughter whose body was covered in white cloth.
"Naraa" called me softly and I tried to open the cloth that covered her face.
I looked at the face of my little girl who was no longer breathing.
And I tried to be sincere with the passing of my son Nara but my tears continued to flow so much that I was not even conscious.
I woke up from my fainting I saw Mom and Dad and Niko sitting on Merry's lap.
"mother Nara?"...
"yes son, you are patient yes.nara's body is being handled soon will be taken home" said the mother
All men will return to their origin before God the Creator.
When I tried to be patient, Strong and sincere with what was happening in my life, the husband who left me with another woman. And now my daughter is leaving me out of this world forever. Though all this time my children are my strength in facing all my dilemmas.
I hugged my little prince Niko who was crying for her brother's name when Nara's body was buried.
The sound of the adhan being sung by Rio in front of Nara's body for the last time made me not believe that it was my daughter who left us.
My tears kept dripping off my son's departure.
My parents and in-laws are always by my side, comforting me, strengthening me, and always calming me so that I don't fall unconscious again even though this chest feels tight.
Niko's cry stopped because of Merry's amusement, even at a glance I saw Niko being comforted by Merry's niece Sally, and trying to comfort Niko who lost her brother so badly.
"mama's prayer will always be there for you, son, may you be there with God who loves you more Amiin.."
The flowers are scattered on the grave Annara A'idhah bint Rio Hermawan even Shinta his girlfriend mas Rio also sprinkled flowers on his grave Nara.
"i'm so sorry, mba?" said Shinta after finishing sprinkling flowers on top of Nara's grave and walked over to Mas Rio.
"you are patient" said Sindi and hugged me
"thank you, Sindi, you have helped me a lot"...
"sama, I went home first yes, Niko aunt drug come home first" said Sindi and kissed Niko's cheek
Sindi helped me a lot when Nara was still in the hospital and Nara died, she was busy taking care of everything.
"ma, ka Nara is already in heaven huh ?" ask Niko
"my dear, ka Nara is already in heaven, Niko always doain ka Nara ya" said me and embrace Niko.
Right now I have to be sincere with the passing of my little Princess, because I still have my little prince Niko who I will take good care of who will be my strength.
I have to rise from my sadness even though I am still in mourning I have to be strong for Niko.
Her class teacher, Ms. Irma, comes home to persuade Niko to go to school again but Niko still does not want to go to school.
"i will try to persuade again, maybe Niko is still sad mom, for her brother died"...
"iya ma, but don't be too forced, afraid to disturb his pisikis" said his homeroom teacher Niko
"yes ma'am, thank you"...
I have let go of my daughter but with her Niko seems like she feels very lost even lately Niko has been quiet a lot.
I tried to persuade her that Niko could get excited again even though there was no kaka beside her.
Taking out books that Niko likes, so that her heart is moved again and misses her school but still Niko does not care.
"we eat ice cream yuk" take me to Niko
Niko was still silent and did not care about my invitation
" Niko does not want an ice crim tomb?.. long ago we did not eat ice criim"...
"yes ma, I want to" Niko smiled
"ok, we're getting ready and saying goodbye to grandparents"...
Before Niko and I went out to eat ice crim at the place we used to eat together when Nara was around, first I invite Niko to stop by Nara's grave and invite Niko to pray for her brother in front of her tomb.
Niko was crying in front of her sister's grave.
"sister Nara Niko kangen same kaka, but said mama kaka was happy with God, now I want to eat ice crim same mama where we used to eat, it's okay, brother, if you don't come" said Niko and my tears dripped reminding me of the incident before Nara was hit by a car, at that time we will eat ice crim after school.
"mama, don't be sad anymore yes, ka Nara is happy, with God, I promise I will continue to pray for ka Nara and I will go to school again so that ka Nara is happy" said Niko hugged me.
"yes baby, you promise me that you will continue to go to school for Nara's sake so that you are smart"...
Niko nodded her head and smiled and then helped me sprinkle flowers on Nara's grave.
I smiled happily seeing my little prince was already happy and excited again.
Niko was so happy to devour ice crim, the taste of paforitnya chocolate.
"below dear, later if less can be added again" I said while wiping his face blepotan.
"iya ma" he said then devoured the ice cream until it ran out.
"want to add more ice crimnya?"...
Niko shook her head because she felt full eating her ice crim, then she pulled out her hand towards me because her hand was sticky.
"ok, we wash our hands so that they don't stick anymore"...
I took Niko to the toilet to clean her hands because it was sticky.
"thank you mama" said Niko smiling
"same baby, let's go home "...
Happiness is simple but very meaningful when we see our children smiling happily without any burden.
and learn to be sincere with what is happening in this life.
