THE TEARS OF CLARA
" Beautiful to me? "
Tonight I try to be beautiful and to look attractive in front of my future husband and future in-laws.
The dress that Andrey gave me was matching my skin tone, and I really liked the dress that Andrey gave me this afternoon, before she came home and got ready to propose.
Andrey wanted to give me a dress and ask me to wear it later.
Maybe when she was late to pick me up at Niko's school, it turned out that she was busy looking for a dress that suited me.
I really like this dress over and over x I look in the mirror and look at my own reflection wearing a beautiful dress and I smile at my own reflection.
"mama is beautiful" said Niko innocently aware of me who turned out Niko was beside me watching her mother who was smiling herself.
"Niko is also handsome "I replied while tidying up her white shirt worn by Niko.
tock, tock, tock
the door's sound is knocked
"come in" I replied
"Clara you're tidying up" mother asked, opening half the door to my room.
"mum, Niko is also tidy" I replied
"in a moment the guests will come you get ready, Niko too (smiling at Niko)" said Mother
"yes Ma'am"
Tonight I feel happy and the fear that haunts me seems to just disappear. Tears of sadness will be slightly lost and tears of happiness will be picked up for me and my son.
All the guests from the Andrey family have arrived.
"beautiful" whispered Andrey
I was a little embarrassed when Andrey whispered in my ear.
"thank you for the dress I like" I smiled sweetly at her.
When two families agree and have already talked about the date and day of the wedding.
I just kept quiet and waited for the best decision of the two families that brought me and Andrey together.
" Clara how do you agree that you two are married in the month of tomorrow" Andrey's mother told me in a daydream
"yes aunt "though I think too soon
"don't call a aunt again, from now on you have to call mama, to get used to it" said Andrey
I just smiled, nodding my head to say to your mother Andrey.
Andrey kept looking at me until it made me a little uncomfortable and embarrassed too. Because it's not usual for Andrey to look at me like that.
"you don't like it when I look at you" Andrey said
I smiled at him and gave him the glass of water he asked for.
"thank you" Andrey said back and immediately drank it
"you're beautiful and I'm enchanted by your beauty" Andrey's mommy made me laugh amusedly in my heart
" i'm a widow, fascinated by widows" I replied flatly
"as you speak like that, you will never be a widow again because you will soon be my wife" Andrey replied confidently
"mama" called Niko over to us who were both
"Niko" sat on my lap
"Niko did not want to ask, beautiful mom?" andrey asked me to make me look
"beautiful.even beautiful" answered Niko innocently making my cheeks become pink.
"Niko can do it" I said pinching Niko's cheek because of anxiety.
The unforgettable dinner became a very beautiful moment when I saw both my parents were so happy and so was Niko who was so familiar with Andrey.
I am happy to see them all happy.
And even happier I will change the status of a widow to a wife.
"I want to always see you smile like this" Andrey said before she returned home
Always ringing in my mind when Andrey wants me to smile.
" my love will never change anything and anyway, I sincerely love you because I believe God has determined you will be my soul mate" andrey said back until finally he came home with his parents leaving a drop of meaningful love and great hope.
"i will love you as much as you love me" my heart whispered
I'm like a dream, a real dream that will be beautiful in time hopefully...
This morning I started with a smile of happiness.
"morning ma" said Niko who immediately sat down and ate bread with chocolate barley.
"morning dear" I replied and gave her a glass of milk "his milk is drunk yes"
Niko nodded her head and drank her milk.
I smiled at her and felt happy when my son drank his milk to the end.
"Alhamdulillah.." I said.
This morning Mother and Father did not take breakfast because early in the morning they went to Bandung to meet the family there. And to talk about my marriage to Andrey and at the same time invite the family there to come to Jakarta.
"Same mother you can call, do not bother there" said I hope my Parents can cancel his departure.
"yes it's okay, Father and Mother have long never met the father's sister there, yes all friends" said the Father tidying up his clothes.
"Ma, Grandma and Grandpa where don't you have breakfast?" Tanya Niko finished her breakfast
"Grandmother and Grandpa were going to Bandung to meet my grandfather's brother who was hummed" I said
" Old yes go, trus Niko play the same who if there is no grandfather and Grandma" whined Niko with his sweet mouth.
"not long ko, tomorrow or the day after tomorrow also go home, and Niko can play with mama" I said
After losing her older sister Nara, Niko plays more with her Grandpa and Grandma and has started to forget about Nara's departure.
The sound of the car stopped right in front of the house, with the sound of footsteps that are no stranger I heard when Rio ex-husband came to the house on the grounds of wanting to meet his son Niko.
Before the Rio mas enter and meet Niko who will make Niko afraid.
I'm trying to get in the way.
"i'm not forbidding you not to see Niko, but Niko doesn't want to see you right now" I said, blocking her from entering the house.
"what's your right" Rio said a little harshly and tried to push me away, so that I could get out of the door.
"i beg you, don't force Niko, I don't want Niko to be scared" I asked Rio to stay away.
"Niko is papa..."Shouted Rio calling Niko
I kept trying to prevent Rio from entering the house.
Not long after Rio called Niko, Niko finally came out and met her papa
I fell silent and let Niko see her papa.
I know my little boy's heart actually misses his papa
