Night In Istanbul
The Shape of My Heart

That night Tina and Intan spent the night at Diana's house. They both slept in the living room. Loaded carpet with pillows and bolsters, it was enough to make his two friends sleep soundly.

As usual, Diana who always woke up in the third of the night while it was still awake by itself. Although he felt his whole body hurt, especially in the cheeks, he was still trying to get up.

He slowly moved Indra's position so as not to wake up. Indra almost opened her eyes when Diana stood up from the sofa. Immediately Diana kissed her forehead and stroked her head so that Indra would fall back asleep.

As if Indra had fallen asleep again, Diana headed for the prayer room. He took ablution and used mukena.

He could not wait to meet his Lord. Enough of Diana to stand up. But he did it anyway because he realized there was nothing more he could do than tell the Creator.

Just now *t*akbiratul Ihram, her heart was already in pain considering the events of yesterday. Sweet memories when with her husband crossed her mind. But Diana is trying to stay focused.

Verse by verse his prayer reading sounded softly slowly out of his mouth. Four rakaat he did and ended with greetings. There was no need to wait for Diana to immediately raise both hands.

Maybe for some people Diana was a whiny woman. There was nothing she did all day but cry. Even when her husband accused her of cheating, not admitting her wrongdoing until beaten by her husband Diana could only respond with tears.

Diana was not as strong as the other women who were probably when injured back then could immediately get back up. He needs time to treat his own wounds.

When yesterday afternoon he had tried to be strong, but his efforts were destroyed instantly. Now he is fragile again. The marriage she dreamed of and the husband she wanted, was lost by the presence of a woman.

She has decided to sue Ryan for divorce. But in her deepest little heart, which woman would want to end her marriage unless death separated her? Isn't that the dream of all women? Moreover, there is a little Indra, the fruit of her love with Ryan.

Anxiety and confusion engulfed his heart. Now he seems to be rethinking what Ryan said last night. Maybe there's a point if when Diana wants to sue for divorce her husband is indeed in an emotional state.

Because Diana also had to think about Indra's condition. Not yet can be imagined by Diana how the fate of Indra as a child victim broken home. Maybe there is a lot of reality on the field of a single parent who fights for his baby. But he didn't want it to happen to Indra. He did not want Indra to experience things like her when she was a child who lost her father figure.

Although the case is clearly different. If Diana lost her father at the age of 2 because of her deceased father, then Indra would have to lose her father figure if they became divorced.

Indeed Ryan and Indra can still meet, but Diana's heart can not tolerate if her son is still in a relationship with Ryan. But after all Indra is his son. Ryan's blood is already part of Indra's body.

" o Allah, what should I do?"

" servants are no longer strong if they have to maintain this marriage. But I have no heart with Indra who will be a victim of divorce.hiks..."

" o God ask your guidance..."

" O Lord, God..."

" why did this do this to me?"

Regret enveloped Diana. Although Diana knew no one could answer her question, but those words were always thrown out from her mouth repeatedly.

Diana was still in a position of raising both of her hands. His head looked up. His voice was slow but could still be heard if he was crying. Because he was solemnly praying Diana until he did not realize that he was being observed by Tina and Intan.

The two could only see Diana from behind the door. Trenchyuh feeling can not be separated from the view of Tina and Intan to himself. Not long after they looked at each other.

"i was thinking of taking Diana out to the hospital around here." Tina opened the chat with a slight whisper.

"what's Tin for?"

"did you know that the visa came outwe could imprison Ryan? Because it's evidence of the KDRT."

"oh, that's right too."

" i'll talk to Ana later. I hope he agrees."

"yes, I can't wait to see Ryan get in the cell."

" although maybe the process to imprison Ryan is not easy because we're foreign nationals here, but there's no harm in trying first, right?"

Intan interfered to hear Tina's statement. His eyes twinkled slightly as if he wished he could soon teach Ryan a lesson.

Daytime in Istanbul Turkey is much longer. At three o'clock more than thirty-five minutes have entered the dawn prayer schedule.

The three friends performed the congregational dawn prayer. Tina and Intan did not tell Diana that they had actually woken up. Diana knew that by dawn they were ready for prayer.

The morning prayers they had done. Diana seemed to still feel at home on top of her alphabet. Understanding that her best friend still needs time to be alone, Tina and Intan leave Diana both back with her God.

" An, we're going to the kitchen first."

Diana replied with a nod of her head.

Not long after Tina and Intan went to the kitchen, Indra who had woken up approached her mother.

His face that used to be cheerful and smiling cheerfully is now only silent and his eyes still look cute even though there is no drowsiness.

Seeing her son lying on Diana's lap, making his broken heart not formed now slightly improved. The presence of children is sometimes able to be a medicine for parents.

Many times Diana recited the mantra in her heart that she must be strong. He should be able to get through this for the sake of his son Indra.

Even so, she still looks confused between continuing a divorce lawsuit to her husband or maintaining her marriage for the sake of Indra.

(I think right now I need some advice)

" An food runs out, I want to shop around here first." Intan's revelation made Diana slightly disperse her daydream.

Diana immediately looked at Intan. Although his eyes were still puffy, now despite the slight smile on his face. Diana nodded.

" Dear Indra would not go with Aunt Intan? We're buying yuk groceries!" Intan intends to invite Indra so that she returns cheerful as before. Maybe by taking a walk for a while, Indra can slightly forget the incident he saw last night.

" you want to come with Auntie Intan, baby?"

" come with yuk Indra! Indra will want anything Auntie buyin deh." Intan begins to persuade Indra.

Indra who usually answered cheerfully, now can only respond weakly. His face was still sad. He got up from Diana's lap and walked towards Intan.

Before going out Intan helped change Indra's clothes. It didn't take long, they immediately prepared to come out. Greetings are said as a sign. Now only Tina and Diana were inside the house.

Diana cleared her face and went towards the living room. She turned on the TV but Diana looked dreamy with a blank look. Warm tears are flowing again.

Tina who saw such conditions, immediately left her job making tea in the kitchen. And rushed straight to the living room. She patted Diana's shoulder to wake up from her daydream.

"Na, Istighfar Na..."

Diana was back in consciousness. But he just sighed and looked like a person in a daze.

" i'm fine Tin." Diana tried to regain her consciousness.

" you drink tea first Na..."

Tina offered him a still-warm glass of tea which he brought from the kitchen.

Even though Diana's consciousness had returned, the fact that her heart was already broken could not be denied.

He had repeatedly since yesterday tried to be strong yet fragile again. Intend to rise but fall again.

Tina could only stroke Diana's back so that her consciousness would not fall back asleep.

" astaghfirullah.." istighfar Diana sounded in a soft but clear voice. He sometimes drank the tea Tina brought.

" Na.don't daydream."

Diana turned to her best friend with a very pitiful face. His eyes are already glazed. His nose was red and his cheeks were wet with tears.

It seems that without needing to say anything, just silence without doing anything Diana will immediately cry.

" Anah, how about a cut on your face we go to the hospital around here?"

" the result of his visa could be evidence that Ryan did the KDRT and it could drag him to be thrown in jail..."

Uncompleted with Tina's words, Diana cried hysterically. His already thin body now looked even more pity than before.

Who would leave his best friend with unstable emotions at this time? Diana's psychology was deeply disturbed. Compared to thinking about a visa seems to help restore Diana's mental health is more important for now.

On the one hand Intan who with Indra is buying food ingredients in minimarket around still looking for some food ingredients lined in the storefront.

Minimarket that Intan and Indra came to is about twenty-five meters from Diana's house. Distance close enough to be reached by foot.

During the trip and in the minimarket Intan many times invite Indra to chat. But from then on Indra's response was just silent and nodding. Her cheerful face and carefree laughter now truly seemed to have been erased on her chubby face. Where'd the jolly boy go now?

While choosing food, Intan for a second did not release the hand of Indra. His eyes were so observant to see the line of food on display.

Considered to have had enough shopping, Intan immediately headed for the cashier. He walked slowly to the rhythm of Indra's steps. While guiding Indra himself was surprised by the figure of a man who was very similar to Ryan.

The silhouette of her face from the side and height was very similar to Diana's husband. Intan squinted his eyes in order to see more clearly. He followed slowly as the man left. He wanted to make sure what he saw was Ryan.

Unfortunately a figure similar to Ryan has come out of the minimarket. While Intan is trapped in the cashier queue.

But not the name Intan if the curiosity can not be fulfilled. He gave up his cashier queue. While holding Indra he put the groceries below, then he went for a while towards the man out.

Indra who was still carried, can only resign with his head attached to his shoulders back to the direction of Intan's view.

Intan did not believe what he was seeing at the moment. As expected the man was indeed Ryan and he was with his affair Sinta!

Intan was about to run and already from last night he wanted to vent his anger towards the two of them. But his steps were held back when he realized that he was carrying Indra. The boy was still limp in his arms. There is no way Indra will have to go into shock a second time, seeing her father along with her affair.

Intan immediately returned to the minimarket and continued to pay for his purchases. He was grateful Indra did not see the brash man with the woman who seized the man's husband.

Finished shopping Intan walked towards Diana's house. In the course of his mind can not be separated from the figure of Ryan and Sinta.

(Bad. Maybe Ryan was still laughing with his affair)

(That his wife and son from last night did not stop crying)

(Rather than going home, she's gone with her affair!)

(Boy has no brain!)

(If I didn't bring Indra I'd go after those two people)

(A.h..shial. Why can't I always beat them up!)

(But wait, if they both look around here does that mean Sinta's somewhere nearby?)

(I also saw that they were eating not far from here)

(I have to go home immediately and tell Diana and Tina!)

While holding Indra and carrying Intan's groceries accelerated his pace. Although he had to sweat a lot he did not reduce his speed in the slightest. He could not wait to tell me what he saw. He was hoping that the two people who cheated on him could be caught soon.

Soon enough, Intan was at the door of Diana's house. He called Tina to help him open the door from the inside because both of his hands were already full by Indra and the groceries were unable to reach the doorknob.

" Tina Assalamualaikum please open the door."

" Wa'alaikumsalam's. Oh yes, Intan."

Cklek.

The door opened and Intan rushed in. Tina swiftly helped carry the groceries from Intan's left hand.

" why do you look so rushed?"

Instead of answering Tina's question, Intan held her mouth with her index finger to ask in a soft voice because Indra was asleep. Little Indra whose body was still tired from crying last night turned out during the trip he fell asleep.

Intan moved Indra's body from her embrace slowly. He was about to put Indra on the sofa.

" huft.. although I was in a hurry, thankfully Indra did not wake up."

" where does he want Tin?" His eyes immediately looked to the entire living room but he did not find Diana's figure there.

" Anna's in the room, she's resting Tan again."

Hearing Diana's position in her room on the second floor made Intan quickly leave the living room.

Intrigued by the thing that made Intan rush, Tina held back for a moment from Intan's steps by holding her hand.

"what's up Tan? Try telling me first."

"Ryan Tina's.. Ryan!" Intan's breathing is still unstable.

" what's with him?"

" i saw Ryan with Shinta at the convenience store where I was shopping!"

" and you know? They can still laugh without guilt."

" Astagfirullah..." Tina can only be privileged to hear Ryan's condition is still fine even though it has given birth and inner wounds to his Wife.

" i want to tell Diana immediately."

" it's not right now Tan if you want to tell Diana."

" what's wrong with Tin?"

" just when you and Indra went shopping, Diana did turn on the TV. But he was daydreaming and suddenly crying. His gaze was empty.."

"then when I mentioned Ryan's name he immediately cried hysterically. And it happened over and over again..."

"i haven't even finished talking about the visum against the wound.."

"the mentality is currently very shaken and unstable. His emotions are easy to overflow and easy to change..."

"i'm afraid the news you brought will add to his psychological state which can get worse..."

" O God, that's Ryan! His son and wife are already like this he can still have fun with his love!"

"sstttt. Indra will wake up."

"huft..if I hadn't brought Indra, I'd have taught Sinta a lesson."

"ah bad. Why do I always lose that moment!"

"Tan, you said you saw them at the minimarket around here?"

"yes Tina."

"you also said you saw them eating around here, right?"

" well, that's him that I want to talk about as well as you. I so guess what Sinta do not-don't it live near here huh?"

" it could be. because if Sinta doesn't live near here and it's far away you can't see Ryan who even until now he hasn't come home but is still wandering around here."

"yes, obviously, because Ryan must have run away to his place of love, right?!"

"we need to find out where Sinta lives. Being near here might not be difficult."

"we'll tell Diana when she's in really good shape."

Intan nodded in agreement with Tina's opinion. Because the most important thing now is that the mental condition of both Diana and Indra improved again.