Night In Istanbul
A Mother's Feelings

Diana arrived at the campus at eight local time. In order not to be a concern back Diana rushed down from the bus.

After getting off the bus he looked confused. Where will he get a place while waiting for his friends. There was no way he would go straight to class or to a cafeteria that was definitely crowded.

His move was to a mosque located not far from the campus. The mosque is about two meters away. Diana was quite on foot.

The mosque is quite large in the surrounding area with a gold-plated dome. There is also a tower for prayer calls. Walls with dominant green paint make it look cool to visit. Coupled with calligraphy carvings and Asmaul Husna make the mosque look more luxurious even though simple.

(If I wait for them in the mosque it might be better)

Diana walked over by lowering her gaze back so that her eyes would not be in the spotlight for the people around. According to him, waiting at the mosque at this hour is likely not crowded because it is still far away to enter the Dhuhur prayer time.

Diana was already inside the courtyard of the mosque when she was about to continue to step towards the mosque prayer section for women, the sound of greetings from someone stopped her steps for a moment.

"Assynoltom..."

Feeling impossible not to answer the greeting by reflex he answered the greeting and raised his head.

"Va'alaikumsalam warahmatullahi..."

Adskhan Professor was already standing in front of him with glasses and clothes that are usually neat. It looks like he just got out of the mosque.

(Duh, why did you even meet Professor Adskhan here?)

"Yi misin?" (Are you okay?)

Professor's gaze seemed unwilling to escape Diana's face, especially her eyes which are currently the center of attention.

"Ben iyiyim Prof." (i'm fine Prof)

"Eminsons? Gzlerin creamyze ve brown terlicin." (You sure? Your eyes are red and you sweat a lot)

"cop, iyiyim. Affedersiniz Prof's. Wassalam.." (Yes, I'm fine. Excuse me, Prof. Wassalam)

"Oh evette...Wa'alaikumsalam." (Oh yes... Wa'alaikumsalam)

Diana immediately leaves Professor Adskhan who still seems unsure of Diana's answer that she is fine.

Once inside the mosque Diana rested for a moment his body. He sat down with his feet out. Precisely guessed if this time and jam this mosque is not too crowded. Especially in the special prayer section of women who only have Diana alone.

Diana picks up the phone in her bag and immediately calls Intan and Tina to inform her that she is already at the mosque near her campus.

While waiting for the message to be answered by Tina and Intan, Diana did not want to just sit down. He took the initiative to take ablution water to perform four rakaat Dhuha prayers.

In times of destruction like this it seems to have become a fit for every human being to give up all business to Him.

About thirty minutes Diana was already inside the mosque seen the figure of Tina and Intan who immediately approached Diana.

It was on the faces of the two of them if they were very worried about seeing Diana's condition especially with puffy and red eyes.

Diana's swollen and red eyes are like telling what happened last night. A very sensitive diamond did not need to wait for Diana to tell a story. Now her cheeks are flooded with tears.

Tina who did not expect to see the condition of her friend was actually also no longer able to hold back her tears. But he had to be strong because if they all cried who would strengthen Diana?

The two of them did not urge Diana to tell a story immediately. They waited until Diana herself was ready to tell everything.

Without needing to say Diana took out her cellphone and showed evidence of a screenshot she took last night from her husband's HP. Diana shows Tina and Intan what are the contents of the message and the picture emblazoned on Mas Ryan's photo with the woman.

"What you saw was true Tan. It was Mas Ryan with Sinta's mother.."

"For months it turned out that they had been in contact..."

"And all that time I've been deceived and lied to like a child.."

A bitter smile and blank look was visible from Diana's face as she said all that. Diana continued to tell me everything that happened last night.

The atmosphere of the mosque that was not so crowded is now colored by the sounds of Intan and Diana. Tina who was trying hard in front of her best friend could only cover up her sadness by hugging Diana.

They both did not expect if her husband Diana could act that far until adultery to impregnate Mbak Sinta.

Many times Istighfar heard from Tina and Intan's mouth. The two of them seemed to be able to feel exactly if in Diana's position.

"Why....Why is this happening to me?"

"What was my fault with Mas Ryan until he could do something like this?"

Diana knew that even if she asked like that, her two best friends would never be able to answer her. Even so that question was what was ringing in Diana's head at this moment.

A grey atmosphere enveloped the three of them. They hugged each other. Slurping each other's backs. Tina and Intan continued to try to calm and strengthen Diana.

"What about Indra Na?" Tina asked while wiping away Diana's tears.

"Indra still doesn't know anything. I left him with Mas Ryan after I finished making breakfast..."

"So you went straight to campus without Ana's breakfast?"

"I have absolutely no appetite. My tongue is bitter..."

"Ana, you should eat Na. You must be strong. Remember you have Indra Na.."

Diana was speechless at Tina's persuasion. It's true, whatever happens and in any case he has to be strong. Because there is a small hero who becomes a solver of the heart.

"I bought you some food Na.." Intan.

"Yes Tan. Thanks..."

Intan hurried off to buy breakfast. Tina and Diana are there. Tina unceasingly stroked Diana's back.

Tina's eyes were now fixed on the bag that Diana was carrying. It looked heavy as if it was filled with college books.

"Diana are you seriously going to class today?"

"Yes Tina yesterday, I didn't go in.."

"After all, maybe if I go to class I can forget this pain a little bit. "

"Diana I'm sorry, but if I think that when you're like this the first thing you need is probably not to forget the pain....."

"At a time like this you have to clear everything up. You have to express sadness, disappointment, anger, annoyance. You have to override Na...."

"I-I have to blow it all up?"

"Yes Na. You must not distract all that feeling. You can't hold that feeling. But you blow it all away until the taste is not left in your heart..."

"After you've exhausted all that feeling you can think clearly Na..."

Diana looked at her friend's face with gratitude.

"Yes, I will do your advice. Thank you, Tina.."

Because the distance of the campus to the mosque is so close Intan does not require a long time to buy breakfast in the canteen. He bought Borek meat for Diana.

"It's Na, you eat ya." Intan handed Borek over while panting. He seemed half-runs for fear that his best friend was starving.

"Thank you Tan. You don't have to run..."

"Yes, we are both Na.."

"Tina, Intan I think it's past the class hours we started. You're 15 minutes late. It's time for you to take classes, right?"

"The two of us will stay here until you've felt better Diana.."

"No.. You guys better get back to class. I don't want to just because of this you guys don't go to class.."

"I'll be fine. I'm not going anywhere. I'll wait for you at lunch break here.."

Diana continues to try to convince her two best friends that she is okay. But Tina and Intan looked at each other with their eyes as if hesitant to leave Diana alone.

"As if you're in class. I wouldn't be able to vaporize all these flavors if there were any of you..."

"Huf..... All right we'll be back in class but you promise me Na will let you know if anything happens."

"Yes Tina, I promise."

"We went to class. Assalamualaikum.."

"Wa'alaikumsalam warahmatullahi's.."

The figures of Tina and Intan immediately disappeared from Diana's sight. Now he's back alone.

After a few steps Tina and Intan left Diana alone and made sure it was far enough away, Tina's tears that had been resistant since then had just flowed.

Tina immediately squatted down while crying. He still could not believe what happened to his best friend. Intan who panicked to see Tina like that immediately looked for a quiet place to take Tina there.

"you're weird, anyway. Why are weeping now?"

"if the three of us cry there, who will strengthen Diana?"

"Diana why did all this happen to him? Why is a husband like that?

Now Tina is crying all over the mosque.

"Dong Tina don't cry. I'll be crying again..." His eyes began to glaze over.

Now the two friends embrace each other and calm down.

On one side while Diana was still staring at the door Tina and Intan came out, the ringing of the phone coming in made her shocked.

(From Mom?)

Diana hesitated to pick up the phone from her mother. His phone was left ringing long enough. He was at a loss as to how he would answer with such a chaotic feeling.

He tried to take a deep breath. Set the tone of his speech and set his voice so as not to sound like crying.

"Hello Assalamualaikum Ma'am.."

"Vaalaikumsalam.. Ana how long was her phone picked up? Usually you pick up Na?"

"Hm..Ma'am, I-it's college hours.."

"Oh I'm sorry Mom didn't know. You go to college again? Mom shut it down?"

At times like this he misses his mother's voice and wants to hear her voice longer.

"Ng.no lecturer Ma'am. The lecturer is absent..."

"Oh so..?"

"Yes so we can still call Mom.."

"Oh thank goodness...How are you Na?These past few weeks have you rarely contacted me?"

"Thank God, ma'amin Diana, ma'am, ma'am rarely called Mom yesterday.."

"That's okay.. The important thing is that you and your family are healthy there.."

"Oh yes if you are again on campus means you can not talk to Indra, right?"

"Yes Bu and Diana are going to college until the night because they have to prepare for research and have started many tasks..."

"Oh yes you have entered a busy semester schedule of college huh Na?"

"Yes Mom. Oh yes Mom, Ana wants to ask.."

"Ask what Na?"

"Mother when I was alive, what was Dad's attitude toward you?"

"Kok suddenly asked like that Na?"

"there's nothing, Ana was just curious because Ana had completely forgotten about Dad's face. And Ana forgot how we became a whole family back then..."

"Oh.. Daddy's attitude towards mom, well your dad's not a romantic guy..."

"But father will do a variety of ways to support us yes in a halal way of course."

"Your father was very hardworking. It was a difficult time, until we only ate three people..."

"If it had been like that, your father would have said he had eaten outside so the food he brought or the food that Mom cooked we could have had three. Even though I know what your dad said was a lie, I'd be mad at you if you didn't eat because you thought about it.."

"Whose mother called again?"

Although faint but sound Andi brother from behind the phone.

"loh Brother Andi is at home, Mom? Not working today?"

"his son Andi, Cantika and his wife were sick again. So today don't go to work first."

"What is the pain of Ms Cantika and Ms Via?"

"because of Na's dengue fever. That's why you have to take care of the condition. You are far from your mother.."

"You should maintain a healthy eating routine. Moreover, you are now busy in college."

Diana was silent at her mother's words. He felt very guilty for lying when his mother was very worried about him . But on the other hand he also knew that now might not be the right time to tell his mother everything.

Diana would tell her mother if it was time. I don't know when that time will come. But anyway he will definitely tell everything to Andi's mother and sister.

"Ana's? The darling? Are you still there?"

"Oh yes, Miss Ana is still listening. Thanks for worrying about Ana.."

"do you say that, Na? It's natural that I must be worried about you. You live the furthest there..."

"Mom can't see you every day. Even if I miss you, I can only call and see you through the HP screen.."

"Mother can't hug you directly until you return to Indonesia.."

The crying Diana who had stopped earlier now spilled back. Although he tried to hold back by closing his mouth but his unwilling voice was heard behind his mother's phone.

"Why are you? You cry, huh?"

"Moe.... A-ana kangen's. Ana misses mom...."

"Oh, Mother's youngest child..."

"Mom misses you too, baby. Later back to Indonesia we spend time together, son.."

"Yes Mom. But ma'am, the lecturer has arrived. Ana's call closes first. Assalamualaikum..."

"Yes, dear Ana.. Wa'alaikumsalam.."

After hanging up the phone from her mother, Diana like to vent all the pain she experienced from last night coupled with the guilt of having to lie to her mother.

The pain and guilt was like putting such a heavy burden on his body that it was hard for him to sit up straight. She curled up in the corner and just cried while covering her face with both hands.