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Ziza and Gus Azmi's Wedding

Najwa arrived at his house around 20:00 WIB. Najwa was warmly welcomed by his beloved mother. Najwa's mother unceasingly kissed Najwa, as well as hugged him. Najwa's mother felt very upset with her son, but only two months ago Najwa vacation cottage. Najwa's mother was happy because Najwa looked more determined and patient to face the problem of cancelling his application.

Najwa's mother led Najwa into the house. The neatly arranged food that has been prepared for the Najwa application event. Najwa's heart rippled at the sight. Her tears cannot be stopped. Without a sound her tears dripped down her cheeks.

"Umi's glad you're really strong Najwa," thanks Najwa's mother.

"Najwa is strong because Abah and Umi always accompany Najwa. Thank you umi..," Najwa sungkem to her mother while crying.

"Pardon Najwa has been presumptuous to establish a relationship with Gus Azmi umi, forgive Najwa.", said honestly Najwa.

"It's okay, son, Abah and Umi used to know each other before we got married."

Najwa's mother did not really understand that in fact Najwa had 4 years of relationship with Gus Azmi. Abah Najwa is the one who has the heart to accept the honesty of his daughter. He was not at all angry when he found out that Najwa had been in a relationship with Gus Azmi for a long time. Abah Najwa even gave advice to be careful in a relationship, because when breaking up in the middle of the road it will get sicker.

Najwa assured his brother that they had done nothing against the rules. Najwa is still holy, and has never had any further contact with Gus Azmi. Najwa was honest that he had touched Najwa's hand. But that's just it, nothing more. Abah Najwa salutes the strong soul of Najwa who always takes care of him.

"It is not expected that you will be able to grow up so soon" praised Abah Najwa.

"If you've graduated don't worry about mate problems, surely Abah will look for the best for Abah's daughter." Abah Najwa.

Once again Najwa cried on the lap of his parents. Honestly Najwa still loves Gus Azmi very much. For Najwa it will be very difficult to forget him, especially too many memories that must be erased with Gus Azmi.

***

Today is the ijab qobul Gus Azmi event. The event was held at the home of Ziza Bojonegoro. The whole family was present at the event, except for Gus Azmi's older brother who had not been able to return home due to his sudden wedding.

Twice Gus Azmi repeated his qobul ijab because he was not focused. Repeatedly Gus Azmi took a deep breath because her heart had not yet fully accepted the marriage. In his shadow always seen the face of Najwa who cried because of it. Gus Azmi really could not stand the event, it felt like he wanted to run away from the event. Were it not for a letter from Najwa forcing him to accept the marriage, he chose to leave his family no matter what. Because his heart hurts too much to marry Ziza, which is not the goal of his life at all.

"It's ready Gus, if the third time still can't. It must be repeated on another day." Pejulu on Gus Azmi.

"Yes sir," Gus Azmi took another deep breath.

"Bismillah my son, strengthen your heart." The whisper of Abah Qomar to Gus Azmi.

Gus Azmi held his heart and his feelings said the ijab qobul. He imagines Najwa saying it, imagining Najwa being the one he married.

"Alhamdulillah.., legit!"

The witnesses all declared it legitimate.

Gus Azmi's tears could not be held back anymore. Najwa is the source of his power to pronounce the ijab qobul. But in reality he could not pronounce it for Najwa. But it was another woman he married.

Gus Azmi's heart was broken to be with Ziza. Actually, he still could not accept Najwa mengikhlaskan her with other women. But whatever the power, Najwa has chosen the purpose of his life. Gus Azmi can only carry out Najwa's wish for his life.

***

One week Najwa was home, his heart was calmer than yesterday. Finally Abah Najwa drove Najwa back to the cottage. Arriving at the cottage it turns out the wedding reception will be held. There will be a big event there, Abah Najwa tries to convince Najwa to remain patient and sincere. Najwa always tried to keep his message.

Upon entering the cottage Najwa's heart returned to pain. The time that Najwa had spent with Gus Azmi. But Najwa tried to convince his heart that Gus Azmi already belonged to someone else. He ignored Najwa. This was evident when Najwa asked her to refuse the marriage, but she continued to move forward regardless of Najwa's feelings in the slightest.

Eli and Mala greeted Najwa with a smile. They did not want Najwa to come back crying, remembering the memories with Gus Azmi.

"Alhamdulillah, you have returned Najwa!" Eli said gratefully.

"Yes El.., I'm gonna have to finish school." Honest Najwa.

"But later tonight," Eli hesitantly continued his words.

"It's okay..., tonight's her welcome with Ziza right? I already know," Najwa tried hard.

"Let's eat together, I happen to bring good food. Typical of my making is low..," said Najwa trying to cover up his sadness.

"Can you cook wa?" Eli asked mockingly.

"Have a son! If I make sambal I can already to. Gus Azmi just really likes my cooking..," Najwa unconsciously said a word that Najwa should not say.

"It's nothing...! Let's eat..," without feeling Najwa's tears come back. Najwa tries to hide from his friends because Najwa does not want to see them grieve over it.

That night there was a massive event in ndalem. All the students were asked to gather in the hall to enliven the wedding of Gus Azmi and Neng Ziza. Najwa refuses to go there for fear that his heart will not be able to see Gus Azmi alongside Ziza. Najwa accompanied Eli both in the room while Mala was asked by Ziza to accompany him in the ndalem.

Najwa burned all the letters and memories of Gus Azmi. One by one these memories burned at the eating of fire. Najwa's tears were unceasingly dripping feeling his heart breaking as his hopes and future were lost in an instant. Gus Azmi who from the beginning filled his days and became his motivation to become a better santri has now become the property of others. A week ago, he proposed to Ziza as his wife. It is still clear that Gus Azmi promised that he would marry Najwa. But all of that turned out to be just a joke. All that was left was his gold necklace, Najwa planned to return the necklace to him.

***

"Where are Najwa and Eli Mal?" Asked Ziza who was very beautiful with her makeup.

"Najwa was not feeling well, so Eli accompanied him." Bright Eli.

"I'm not pretty?" Ask Mala spirit.

"Beautiful.., very pretty...." Praise Mala.

Ziza looked so beautiful that night. But Mala felt Ziza was very evil for having taken Gus Azmi from Najwa. Ziza looks happy with her win. Mala also doubts about the truth of Ziza, whether it is true that Ziza is in a relationship with Gus Azmi. The evidence of the proximity of Najwa and Gus Azmi is clear. Even doubt between the two of them must be someone who deliberately lies.

"Why Mal? Don't daydream, let's smile! My best friend should be happy in my marriage." Temptation Ziza in her smile.

"I can't be happy if my best friend suffers." Ketus Mala who immediately left Ziza.

"Who is suffering? Mala...? Where the hell is that kid going?" Grousers Ziza.

The event went on very well. At 23.00 WIB the students have been asked to return to the cottage because it is late at night. Najwa who from earlier in the room can only daydream, while Eli was asleep because he was tired of cleaning all day preparing the event ndalem.

"Why haven't you slept wa?" Ask Mala who just returned from the show.

"Not sleepy, has the show finished?" Ask Najwa.

"Already, but it seems that Gus Azmi's guests are still many so the students are asked to return to the cottage, because it is late." Mala Bright.

"Let's sleep wa, already tonight. Tomorrow let's not get takzir when jama'ah shubuh." Invite Mala because she feels kasian with Najwa who is still dissolved in her sadness.

"Yes, you sleep first." Najwa tried to smile in front of Mala.

"Truly yes?.., do not sleep too late. It will hurt you if you keep doing this." Mala tried to advise.

"Ready!" Najwa tries to toughen up.

Mala did not have the heart to see Najwa who looked very sad. Without feeling her tears also dripped feeling the suffering of her best friend. Mala immediately turned around trying to cover up her sadness.

"I slept first wa,"

Mala instantly took the pillow and hugged her bolsters tightly. Mala was crying in silence.

***

In the tired Ndalem Ziza is directed by Raisya and Mala to Gus Azmi's room. Ziza really can't wait to enter her room. While at Ziza's house, Gus Azmi always sleeps outside. Not once did Gus Azmi enter Ziza's room. The Ziza family felt strange with Gus Azmi's attitude. But because they are still newlyweds they are not so dizzy with his strange attitude.

Ziza also felt strange about the change in attitude of Gus Azmi, even though all this time on the phone he was very attentive to Ziza. Almost every day they always greet each other, morning , noon , afternoon and even night. There is no time without hearing his voice. Very beautiful days for Ziza, but when they are legal to be a married couple why he changed 100%. Not once did Gus Azmi greet him, not even looking at Ziza. When Ziza approached, he always refused to even yell at her because he did not like Ziza's actions.

That night at Gus Azmi's residence, Ziza hopes to have her first beautiful night. Ziza imagined the moment she kissed and hugged him full of love and affection. Imagining this made Ziza ashamed of herself. Ziza was really happy with the marriage.

But it was past midnight that Gus Azmi did not enter the room. Ziza again disappointed him, should tonight he meet him and enjoy the beauty of their first night. But it was all just a false hope for Ziza. Because night after night passed still Gus Azmi never entered his room.

That day Najwa returned to duty in ndalem. When he accidentally crossed paths with Gus Azmi, he did not consider Najwa at all. But for Najwa, their business was not finished. There is no explanation from Gus Azmi why suddenly he had to marry Ziza. And why Najwa had forbidden him to agree with the marriage, he instead chose to go forward and forget Najwa just like that. Najwa's heart was back. Only sholawat is often spoken by Najwa when his heartache relapses.

With this incident Najwa also increasingly diligently read the Qur'an. Najwa recited the chanting of the holy verses of the Qur'an to treat his heartache. Najwa repeatedly chanted the same letter. Without realizing Najwa, he memorized one of the verses after another. Najwa knew very well every verse of the Qur'an that had alleviated his heartache. While chanting the Quran, his tears also could not stop flowing. The suffering inflicted by Gus Azmi was reported by Najwa through the chanting of holy verses that are often read.

"Allah..," Repeatedly Najwa also prayed to Prophet Muhammad.

During Fatkhul Muin's lesson, Gus Azmi continued to teach in Najwa's class. He seemed to be more silent and often reprimanded. But since the wedding Gus Azmi did not dare to ask Najwa to read or explain in front of the class. Najwa tried to divert his attention to the little Qur'an he always carried with him. Hearing his voice Najwa's heart was still in pain, to prevent tears from falling back, Najwa recited the holy verses of the Qur'an as he explained. Najwa chose to learn by himself as much as possible, because Gus Azmi even more hurt him if he noticed him.