MY WORLD YOUR WORLD
Cancellation of Proposal

Najwa listened carefully to Gus Azmi's story. Gus Azmi is a female idol wherever she is. Many beautiful women who try to get love including Bella. But Najwa wondered why he who was still young and innocent could attract his heart. Though according to him, Najwa is still very young and not so attractive in the eyes of men.

"I also wonder why you can easily get my attention? And all this time no one can melt my heart...?" Ask Gus Azmi.

"I myself also surprised Gus, even though I never asked for acquaintances let alone seek attention with njenengan. But the njenengan himself who has been captivated by me.." inner Najwa.

"Don't you use magic?" Gus Azmi Goda.

"Who uses magic...? it's yummy...!" Najwa protest not accepted.

Gus Azmi laughed at Najwa's funny behavior.

"What's so funny? I reiterate yes Gus, I never use the name magic, not like mbak Bella who flirt close to the njenengan. It was the genius himself who approached me...." Najwa Light.

"Yes-yes, I chose you. So do not turn away, wa..," said Gus Azmi.

"God willing.., but do not cheat!" Najwa said firmly.

"Are I having an easy face to cheat on?" Gus Azmi did not accept.

"Not so Gus, njenengan right who likes a lot. Later there will be more, by dumping me..., don't ya...?" pinta Najwa is honest.

"God willing, it's your smarts who have to keep us together." Gus Azmi did not want to lose.

"Please don't tell me I'm khiyanat geh Gus, sick...," Najwa honestly finally.

"I'm sorry about that, I'm going to meet ustadz Haqi soon...."

"For what?" Najwa's confused.

"To tell you the truth tow, I don't like my lover at the same tease keep on other men." Honest Gus Azmi.

"I also don't like to be teased continue the same Ustadz Haqi." Najwa said in his heart.

"Indeed is ready if our relationship is revealed among the students?"

"Ustadz Haqi is a trust, it is impossible to spread secrets!" Najwa only muttered in response to his testimony.

"Let's eat, I'm hungry." Gus Azmi began to take the food in front of him.

"You didn't eat Dinda?" Ask Gus Azmi.

"I fasted Gus," honestly Najwa.

"What fasting?" Gus Azmi is curious.

"Fasting repentance, because it has violated the limits of contact with the njenengan!" Celoteh Najwa.

Gus Azmi just chuckled amusedly.

"Yes, continue! But me yes, don't want to.." - Gus Azmi.

That day Najwa accompanied Gus Azmi to lunch. Najwa continued to look at him who was greedy eating the eggplant sambal he made.

"Is this a hungry person or is it good? How ravenous..," Najwa was astonished.

"Why Dinda? Wanna?" The Barid Gus Azmi.

"No..." Najwa shakes in refusal.

After finishing eating Gus Azmi asked Najwa to return to the cottage, once again he teased Najwa who was very inviting desire Gus Azmi to touch him.

"Let's hurry back wa," pinta Gus Azmi.

"Yes Gus,"

Najwa moved out of his chair but once again Gus Azmi clasped Najwa's hand. Najwa reflexes instantly refused. Gus Azmi just smiled in response to Najwa's attitude, without feeling offended by Najwa's rejection.

"Be careful, lest I pounce from behind." Gus Azmi Goda.

"Tu kan .., start again. Don't make me afraid of Gus, "inner Najwa.

As Gus Azmi began to stand up, Najwa rushed over but was too late. Gus Azmi was already blocking his way.

"I want to go back to Gus' cabin," Najwa bowed in fear that Gus Azmi had turned violent towards him.

"Wait a minute" Gus Azmi began to whine.

"Don't mess with Gus" Najwa threatened.

"But both of them, right?" Canda Gus Azmi's.

"Youngpam...!" Najwa reflex. Gus Azmi laughed amusedly.

"Let's get out of the way I want to go back."

Najwa tries to push Gus Azmi, but she forgets Gus Azmi is stronger than her. Najwa is in his trap.

"I want to marry you soon Dinda." The whisper of Gus Azmi excites Najwa.

Right beside Najwa's ears he whispered, as his body creeped and trembled feeling the sensation. Najwa was silent for a moment but when he realized directly Najwa pushed away Gus Azmi and left. Gus Azmi had gone mad that day, his love for Najwa had made him lose control. Especially last night Najwa who had begun to dare to touch his hand. So that he also began to dare to approach Najwa closer.

***

From that day forward Najwa again kept his distance from Gus Azmi. Because yesterday's incident has made Najwa kapok to be close to him. Najwa also feels Gus Azmi is also trying to keep his distance from him, but it doesn't matter. All for the good of both of them. Gus Azmi had entered the period of making the thesis, so he returned rarely accompanied Najwa. But because of his explanation, so Najwa had never thought anything about him. Especially the Bella thing.

Ustadz Haqi no longer seduced Najwa. Maybe Gus Azmi had explained everything to him, so he withdrew respectfully. Once he apologized to Najwa but Najwa did not respond too much and only answered as necessary his questions.

The days Najwa lived well, all went well Alhamdulillah. Najwa's achievements are increasing even though they cannot compete with Ziza. The busy Gus Azmi still occasionally accompanied Najwa.

"Najwa..., how was your school?" Gus Azmi asked while lying on the carpet.

Najwa was indeed at that time cleaning the living room picket.

"Alhamdulillah smoothly, secret njengan how Gus?" Ask Najwa back.

"Still saturated, that's why I've got you.." - Gus Azmi.

Najwa only muttered softly, as he did not know what a secret was so he could only keep quiet if Gus Azmi talked about the secret.

"Let's take the streets of Dinda" said Gus Azmi digressur.

"meaning? Genengan say what to Gus, if saturated then do not talk of origin dech!" Najwa said in his heart.

"Ashmi...! What are you talking tow? How complicated," Gus Azmi argued with himself.

"Vaaaaahhhh...! when is the end of my encryption, it's saturated with me." Gus Azmi's.

"Allah..," Gus Azmi finally closed his eyes and soon fell asleep.

Najwa can only smile at his strange lover. Sometimes he is scary sometimes funny sometimes also strange, really complete his attitude that makes Najwa more love.

***

It does not feel the time goes quickly, events after events that occur into a separate memory for every person in the world. Starting from khataman, mukhafadzoh, book correction to graduation for Tsanawiyah 3rd grade has gone smoothly. The description of Gus Azmi has also been clarified. He graduated with a pretty good grade.

2 Years have passed, now Najwa has class 2 Aliyah and Gus Azmi in addition to always accompany Najwa class he is also busy running his online business. Selling motorcycles and used cars, with the capital given by Abahya Gus Azmi to develop his business. Capital for marriage, that's what Gus Azmi always said to Najwa. Because soon Najwa will graduate from the madrassa and be ready to be hosted by him.

The monel necklace that Najwa always used was replaced with gold from his hard work. Initially Najwa refused his gift but Gus Azmi continued to force so that Najwa was forced to accept the gift.

Gus Azmi had asked Abah for permission to ask Najwa, with the help of his mother, Abah Qomar agreed with their relationship. Najwa was truly grateful to hear the news. Because they have been in a relationship for a long time and finally all agree. Now lives the Najwa family who do not know everything. Finally Gus Azmi asked Sulton who asked Najwa to Abah Najwa before his family visited to carry out a proposal. Abah Najwa was really surprised to hear the news, because he did not expect his son to be proposed by Kyai Qomar's son. He agreed that the proposal was full of happiness.

It has been set the date of 6 Dzulhijjah Gus Azmi family will visit Najwa house to carry out the proposal. But something delayed all that. Abah Ziza was very sick, Ziza was forced to go home because her brother was critical.

Arriving at the house Ziza cried to find her brother was lying weak in bed. Gus Azmi's family was asked to come immediately to Ziza's house. Since Abah Ziza was Gus Azmi's teacher, they immediately set out for Bojonegoro to Ziza's house.

Arriving there Ziza's brother immediately called Gus Azmi asking for a serious talk with him. Gus Azmi full ta'dzim sowan to him.

"Azmi...., you've known Ziza for a long time, right? Please take good care of Ziza" Abah Ziza said slowly.

"Well, surely Aunt Ziza will take care of me." Gus Azmi said sure.

"I know you're very close, you'd better open your relationship soon." Strictly Abah Ziza.

"I mean Abah? I don't understand..," asked Gus Azmi's inner.

"Ziza..," Call Abah to Ziza.

"Near here son," Ziza immediately kissed his brother's hand.

"Change.., Abah quickly healed yes...." Ziza sobbing.

"You like Gus Azmi, don't you? If you both like getting married soon..."

Abah Ziza's words felt like thunder in Gus Azmi's ears. How could Ziza be close to him if they had not been in a relationship for almost 3 years.

All preparations are ready, the family has also agreed to the request. Abah Qomar could not imagine how Najwa's family would feel if Gus Azmi played a trick on his daughter.

"Yes bah.., Ziza knows.., Gus Azmi has also promised to marry Ziza after Abah's graduation." Ziza explained in her tears.

"What lies are you talking about Ziza? I'm getting married to Najwa? Why are you saying that?" Ask Gus Azmi.

"Don't wait to graduate, Abah wants you to get married now.Abah wants to see your marriage son, before Abah leaves."

"Change.., do not say that.., well, Ziza will marry according to Abah's will..." Ziza dissolved in her tears.

Gus Azmi froze hearing Ziza's explanation to her Abah. He really did not understand what Ziza said. What about Najwa, the woman who has always been in the future. Gus Azmi was hit by a thousand problems because of Ziza's speech.

After that, they discussed Ziza and Gus Azmi's marriage as soon as possible. Because Abah Ziza's condition is already very bad. Finally they decided the wedding would be held on 7 Dzulhijjah. Ijab Sirri because there is no time if you have permission to KUA. Gus Azmi could not say a word to respond to the problem, he imagined Najwa's smile that would not long turn into a cry of blood because of the actions that Gus Azmi never did. Gus Azmi has never been in contact with Ziza since Najwa was jealous of their relationship. But why did the whole Ziza family say, he's been talking on the phone with Ziza all this time. Even Abah Ziza often receives his calls. Gus Azmi really did not understand.

***

Arrive at Jombang residence Gus Azmi. Abah Qomar was immediately enraged with Gus Azmi for acting foolishly toying with family relationships. Yai's mother tried to calm him down, but could not. Abah Qomar slapped Gus Azmi for his stupidity. Yai's mother cries to see her husband and son fighting a big fight over marriage problems.

"Change." Gus Azmi immediately bowed down at Abah Qomar's feet.

"Azmi really doesn't understand what happened actually, Azmi never had any relationship with aunt Ziza." Honest Gus Azmi in her tears.

"Then show me your responsibility to face this problem." Abah Qomar.

"Your time is only 3 days, explain everything! If there is no proof, marry Ziza! Najwa's family problems let Abah himself go there." Said Abah Qomar who went straight away.

"Ashimiii...!" Mother yai immediately hugged her son tightly while crying.

"I've never been in contact with Ziza umi at all." Said Gus Azmi.

"Have a son, maybe this is the way. There's no way in 3 days you can find the guy." Gus Azmi.

"What about Najwa Umi? Najwa will be devastated by this marriage, so will I continue to feel guilty for her."

"Let umi talk to Najwa, she'll understand Gus." Yai's mother tried to calm Gus Azmi down.

"I wouldn't have performed this marriage if Najwa hadn't agreed to it." Strictly Gus Azmi who then left his mother.

It turns out that outside of this room there was someone who eavesdropped on the conversation of Gus Azmi and his mother. He was the one who had all this time claimed to be Gus Azmi on Ziza. He has a close relationship with Ziza. He promised to marry Ziza in the name of Gus Azmi.

"Ashimiii...!" Rintih yai's mother.

He did not expect a beautiful wedding in front of his eyes turned into pain in an instant. The hopes of Gus Azmi and Najwa were crushed at the hands of Ziza.

***

That morning Najwa suddenly called mother yai to immediately sowan. Due to the haste of Azmi's gus giving necklace breaking, Najwa was really shocked. Because just last month he bought the necklace but why could break up. Without thinking long Najwa immediately save the necklace and immediately to ndalem meet the call of mother yai.

Arriving at ndalem Najwa immediately looking for a yai mother who turned out to be in the prayer room where he used to meditate.

Slowly Najwa approached, suddenly mother yai turned to him and immediately hugged Najwa tightly. His voice was hoarse, as if he had cried. And it turned out to be true, he was crying in front of Najwa.

"What's up, umi? Why is umi crying? What's the problem?" Najwa is confused why his future in-laws are crying when in 2 days they will propose to Najwa.

"You are patient, son." said mother yai at last.

"Why umi?" Najwa's confused.

"Azmi nak.., Azmiiii...." Yai's mother again dissolved in her tears.

"Why Gus Azmi? Is it okay, Umi?" Najwa continued to ask for fear that there was anything with him.

Mom tried to calm herself for a moment. He could not explain everything to Najwa, but he had to say it because his mother was afraid that Najwa had misunderstood Gus Azmi.

"Gus Azmi is getting married to Ziza.." Umi's voice was slow but clear in Najwa's ear.

It all feels like a dream. Najwa doesn't believe that. But her tears can't be blocked.

"Umi said what? Will he propose to me tomorrow?" Najwa tried to explain.

"Umi said honestly, son, Azmi will indeed marry Ziza on the 7th day." Light mom yai.

At once Najwa was limp and helpless. His heart was broken hearing that truth.

"Patience, son.., maybe you guys are not a match. Try to accept this fact...,"

Mother yai's advice felt like a knife slashing her heart. There were no words that Najwa could say at that time. Najwa only wanted to meet with Gus Azmi to hear his explanation about it.

"Azmi was gone from last night, Abah Qomar has not returned. Umi was really confused son..," Mother yai bowed before Najwa.

Najwa slowly went back and forth without saying a word to mother yai.

Maybe that's what Najwa can do, because he can't contain his crying. Najwa did not want to cry in front of his mother because it would certainly add to his mind if he knew his sadness.

Najwa ran towards the cottage directly into the bathroom and cried into tears. All of Najwa's clothes were wet with spray of water which Najwa deliberately opened. Najwa could not help but grieve, before long Najwa collapsed unconscious. Fortunately, there are people who are suspicious because the bathroom door is not opened when they queue to take a shower. Finally the bathroom door was broken and there was Najwa who was rolled weak and blue because of the cold. Instantly the entire hut was in an uproar because of the Najwa incident. They carried a royong carrying Najwa up to his room and immediately changed Najwa's clothes that were soaked.

They immediately enveloped Najwa and applied the oil all over Najwa. Najwa soon regained consciousness, many of whom thought Najwa had committed suicide. But no one expected the incident because of Najwa's failed proposal.

"Najwa...? You're conscious.." Eli looks panicked at Najwa's state of concern.

"Nobody hurts, right?" Eli asked attentively.

Eli was crying because of Najwa.

Najwa shook her head slowly.

"Why are you acting stupid! We're all worried about...!" Ketus Eli while wiping his tears.

There were many students who filled his room.

"I'm fine." Najwa said slowly.

"Let's all disband, let Najwa rest." Said the Ziha who took care of Najwa.

"Don't cry, I'm fine." Najwa tried to smile.

Eli and Mala hugged Najwa tightly. At once Najwa's cries spilled again. The pain rippled back in Najwa's heart.

"Don't do anything stupid, Najwa, we were so scared..." Mala said honestly.

Najwa just nodded slowly.

***

After all disbanded, room E-3 died. Then Eli and Mala asked what kind of problem Najwa was going through, because just yesterday Najwa said he would get a proposal from someone and Najwa looked very happy. Why did he change today.

"Tell us wa, don't be alone." Eli.

"My application was canceled El.., how can I tell my parents this matter." Honest Najwa.

"Where did you know the proposal was canceled?" Eli curious.

Because Najwa from yesterday didn't come out of the cabin at all.

"You know who's gonna propose to me?" Najwa said.

"Who?"

"Gus Azmi.., Azmi Muhammad son of Abah yai Qomar." Honest Najwa.

Eli was really shocked to hear Najwa's confession that he had never been seen in a relationship with Gus Azmi.

"Don't dream wa," Eli said in disbelief.

"I don't dream, he's the one who's gonna propose to me." Najwa insisted, his tears fell again.

"So all this time...?" Eli wondered.

"Yes, we've been in a relationship for 4 years. And it turns out that today all ran aground because she had to marry Ziza."

Eli was surprised by Najwa's explanation.

"Our roommates. Rania aziza's." Najwa's crying broke again because of it.

"What is the evidence that you bonded with Gus Azmi?" Eli did not easily believe Najwa's explanation.

"There is in the cupboard, all his letters and messages I keep neatly in the red folder." Nejwa explained, Eli immediately looked for the map.

Mala who heard their conversation could only be silently shocked by everything that happened.

Mala knew that Ziza was indeed close to Gus Azmi. In the past when they were still ibtidaiyah, Ziza was often invited out Gus Azmi. So was the time of Tsanawiyah and also Aliyah. Mala knew that during the holidays Gus Azmi always called Ziza. They do have a special relationship, Ziza also said so. But Mala did not understand why Gus Azmi would propose to Najwa. He has a bond with Ziza.

The curious Mala also saw and read all the letters she gave to Najwa. Mala was really confused as to exactly what was happening. Mala did not expect that Gus Azmi would wish Ziza or Najwa. Because Mala was also confused as to who was right. Mala chose silence and made no comment on Najwa's matter.