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The Loss of Last Hope

Eli read one by one letters from Gus Azmi. It is clear that he loves Najwa very much, but Eli did not understand why Gus Azmi switched to marry Ziza. The increasingly confused Mala could only agree to what they were saying.

"This is what wa?" A beautiful necklace in Eli's hand.

"That was his gift, but it was suddenly broken when I only had one month to wear it. Maybe it's a sign of our breakup." Najwa's words sounded heartbreaking.

"Najwa..., why have you been silent about all this? Why didn't you ever tell us?" Eli asked curiously.

"Would it be appropriate for a Gus to be in love with his manners while he has given the rule that we are forbidden to be in contact with men. I kept his good name El.., I never thought it would end this way...."

Najwa returned with tears.

"We promised we wouldn't tell anyone about this relationship.... I also agree.., maybe I'm stupid El has been presumptuous to accept his love. Many times I felt unworthy of him, but Gus Azmi always supported me and asked me to stay. Until mother Yai knew this, she had already approved of us from the beginning. Yai's mother's blessing made me stronger and stronger to hope for her." Honestly Najwa at length.

Najwa was already feeling devastated, so he told everything to his two friends to reduce the heartache that Najwa felt. Najwa did not know how his parents would feel if they were told about the cancellation of this proposal.

"But I never thought this would happen. After my parents accepted her proposal, she was going to marry Ziza. Crushed my heart El.., I couldn't bear to see my parents hurt. Tomorrow is our application, but all must be canceled because he will marry Ziza instead. Surely at home is ready, many families have been invited. How shameful my family El.... Just imagine that I can't afford it. Abah.., Umi.., I'm sorry Najwa has hurt your njenengan...." Najwa in her tears.

"Sudaaaahhhh Najwa.., don't make your heart more tormented." Mala tried to calm Najwa.

Mala himself could not bear to see Najwa who was slumped in grief.

"Make a letter to Gus Azmi wa, that's the only way to tell her how you feel." Eli tried to give me an idea.

"But he's not home, umi doesn't know where he's going either." Najwa Light.

"At least you've tried wa, although the letter was received after the wedding at least he knows that you never agreed he married Ziza." Firm Eli.

"Yes wa, the spirit! This is indeed the only way.., even if he ended up staying married to Ziza, you have already expressed your feelings to him." Mala also provided motivation to Najwa.

Finally, with the support of his two friends, Najwa began writing letters to Gus Azmi. Najwa hopes the letter will be read by him before the wedding.

For my future priest.

Azmi Muhammad's.

It feels like just yesterday I was very happy to hear that my njenengan family will visit home for our application event. This long wait has finally led to marriage. But today everything changed, the rainbow I expected suddenly turned into a heavy rain that never stopped. I heard that she is getting married to Ziza, my best friend.

Umi had already said that my proposal was canceled because she was going to marry Ziza. In an instant my world was shattered because of her. I would never blame the genengan for all this, I just hope the njenengan still looks at me. Did I mean nothing to slander all this time. Four years we've been in this relationship, but why did you so easily decide to marry Ziza. What wrong? What are my sins? Gus Azmi.., I need an explanation.

Honestly I would never agree let alone approve of a marriage with Ziza. It never will.

I want us to be together, this is not what I expected. Gus Azmi is only for Najwa. Not for another woman. For many years I have maintained this relationship, so I will not easily let go of the njengan for other women.

I'll never be sincere Gus. Please refuse this marriage, look at me here waiting for the njenengan. I wish I chose Gus, not someone else. I beg you very much, refuse this marriage. Look at Najwa Qumaira who has been loyal to accompany the njenengan for 4 years. Look at me Gus Azmi....

Greetings of love and love Dinda.

Najwa Qumaira's.

Please refuse this marriage.

I beg you very much.

Najwa entrusted the letter to ustadz Qosim because usually he was the bridge between Gus Azmi and Najwa. Najwa hoped the letter would be accepted by Gus Azmi. But apparently not, someone deliberately changed Najwa's letter. Najwa's letter was never received by Gus Azmi. But what Gus Azmi received was another letter that made Gus Azmi more tormented.

To Gus Azmi.

My lover.

I sincerely accept the fact that the njenengan will marry Ziza. I'm fine Gus, rest assured all is indeed the fate of our relationship. Marry Ziza. He loves you so much, you will surely be happy living with him.

Never again try to contact me or try to talk to me. I'll soon forget all these Gus flavors. I want to open a new chapter in my life. Try to understand Gus Azmi.

The Najwa Qumaira.

***

One day had passed, and Najwa did not receive an answer from Gus Azmi. But what Najwa knew when Gus Azmi got home he did not look at her at all let alone want to talk to Najwa. Najwa's heart was severely tormented by his attitude. Najwa's tears fell again lamenting his relationship that had been destroyed. That day was actually the day Gus Azmi proposed to Najwa. It is hoped that Najwa's family Gus Azmi will still visit his home to continue to carry out the proposal. But it didn't. Due to the proposal that should be delivered to the house of Najwa switch ushered to the house of Ziza.

"I will carry out this marriage umi," said Gus Azmi looks hopeless.

"Why Azmi?" yai's mother immediately approached her son.

"What about Najwa? Are you willing to let go of Najwa," asked the worried mother.

Gus Azmi delivers Najwa's letter to yai's mother. He was shocked to read the letter. Mother yai instantly twitched and finally fell unconscious. He was also disappointed with Najwa for giving up before the war.

That same day Abah Qomar who had received an answer Gus Azmi finally visited Najwa's house to cancel the proposal and apologize for embarrassing the Najwa family.

When Abah Qomar visited Najwa's house, Abah Najwa wondered why he was alone with his personal driver. It turned out that the good news they expected turned into bad news. Najwa's mother was really shocked to hear the cancellation of the proposal, to the point that she was unconscious from shock.

"Pardon my foolish son Abdullah" Abah Qomar said.

"It's okay, mate can't be forced." Abah Najwa tried to hear the news.

"Maybe this will be a lesson for our family to take better care of our daughter." Abah Najwa said sincerely.

"Once again I'm sorry, sir, I didn't expect anything to happen when we agreed to marry them." Honest Abah Qomar.

"Can I pick up my son bah? I cannot bear to see him grieving" Abah Najwa said with tears in her eyes.

"All right, Mr. Abdullah is the same as me. Let's get the driver back." Tawar Abah Qomar and Abah Najwa agreed.

Abah Najwa with his wife. Najwa's mother seemed devastated to receive the news.

"Bring Najwa back, umi wants to hug our son." The moaning of Najwa's mother in her tears.

"Yes Umi, today Abah will also pick up Najwa. Umi who is patient yes..," Abah Najwa also shed tears.

By evening Abah Qomar and Abah Najwa had reached the cottage. Abah Qomar immediately packed up because he was going to make a proposal to Ziza's house. Tomorrow is the wedding of Gus Azmi and Ziza.

Abah Najwa went straight to the office asking to call his son Najwa. Agitatedly Abah Najwa waited, from afar Abah Najwa saw the face of his son who I adorned with grief. Unlike usual the cheerful Najwa has turned into a moody Najwa. His eyes were swollen from crying. Abah Najwa could not bear to see his sad son.

"Let's go home first, calm your heart and your feelings." Tawar Abah Najwa's.

"Yes Abah...,"

Najwa who could not hold back her cries immediately hugged her Abah tightly. Najwa came back crying.

"I'm sorry Najwa Abah... Forgive me for making Abah and Umi ashamed" Najwa said.

"No son, Abah is not ashamed. Abah feels proud that Abah's son is getting stronger and more mature." Honest Abah Najwa.

"Change.., we go home now. Najwa wants to meet umi and the sisters." Honest Najwa.

"Yes, we're going home now. Umi's waiting at home." Terang Abah Najwa's.

Najwa had indeed brought a change of clothes for permission to go home that day. Because Najwa knows family is the most powerful medicine when we fall. Tomorrow is the wedding of Gus Azmi and Ziza, Najwa is afraid he is not strong to know it. Even though the event took place at the Ziza residence, the pain would definitely torment Najwa.

Abah Najwa was a strong and wise father. He was not at all angry with Najwa for lying about his relationship with Gus Azmi which had been established for quite a long time.

"I'm sorry for Najwa Abah" Najwa said once again, staring deeply at his face.

"It's okay son, as long as you're happy Abah will do everything." Abah Najwa hugged his son tightly.

Abah Najwa never thought his daughter would experience anything this heavy in her life. There were a lot of young men who wanted to challenge Najwa. But why would the young man whom Najwa had chosen even hurt her so far. Scratches of large stains have been imprinted on the life of his beloved daughter. Najwa is rejected by a Gus hut Miftahul Ulum. The news must have been widespread in his neighborhood.