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At 16:00 WIB they just returned to the cottage. Najwa has been quiet since the meeting. Ziza repeatedly asked Najwa to talk, but Najwa only said as necessary. Najwa's heart still hurts to remember the incident, about Ziza with Gus Azmi who was so close.

"Rest ya wa, you look tired." Ziza said as she returned to their room.

"Yes, I'm so tired." Honest Najwa. "The heart's tired of the body, it all feels heavy." he said in his heart.

"If you know this, I won't come with you." Added. Najwa immediately picked up the pillow and fell.

"Alhamdulillah.., it feels calm here...." Honest Najwa.

"Yes be calm! The children were all worshippers" Ziza said, but Najwa did not respond.

There was not long a call from Najwa to immediately go to ndalem.

"Yes, I'll be there soon." Najwa took his veil.

***

"Sleeping?" inner Najwa.

"Sir Raisya and Madam Mala, please prepare dinner!" Gus Azmi who came to Najwa.

"Why is there him again.., still upset I because of the incident earlier...." Najwa muttered in his heart.

That day Abah and Umi were traveling, so ndalem looked lonely. The priest was ustadz Qosim, because Gus Azmi had a promise to meet Ziza. Hoping to chat with Najwa, but it seems like everything is not like his wishful thinking. Najwa looked angry and upset because from the beginning to the end they did not speak a word at all. Only Ziza was engrossed in chatting with him, acting like a child while with him. Gus Azmi is also upset with Najwa's attitude, as he was willing to meet Ziza just because of Najwa. But the reality was different, Najwa did not react at all to him.

"Sit here...!" Gus Azmi asks Najwa to sit on the chair, but Najwa still does not respond.

"You want what he is? I'm still upset Gus, please don't force me." he murmured inwardly without looking at her in the slightest.

"Listen no, I said sit down!"he said a little snapping.

Najwa was a little surprised because only this first time Gus Azmi snapped him, there was pain implied due to his loud speech.

But Najwa kept trying to obey his orders.

"Take this.., write this sentence over and over again until you are conscious!" Gus Azmi gave two pieces of folio paper.

"I'm waiting here! and it should be finished today!" Gus Azmi sat at the end of the table in front of Najwa. Gus Azmi also placed a tissue next to Najwa, because he knew that Najwa had been holding back his tears. From the moment outside the cottage, Najwa's eyes looked watery and red.

"Why does he always force me? I can't stand all this.." Najwa started to spread his emotions.

_i love Azmi_

_i love Azmi_

_i miss Azmi_

Najwa was shocked by the words he had to write, as his heart rippled between pain and pain because once again Gus Azmi forced Najwa to write a word that Najwa did not want to remember.

"Let's write it fast!" force Gus Azmi because Najwa looks like he has not started writing.

"Well Gus," Najwa could only agree to Gus Azmi's resignation, and he began writing it.

Every word he wrote ripped Najwa's heart apart, the heart-shackling turmoil tearing him apart.

"Why? If he likes Ziza, why should I be the victim? I already like you, Gus, why would he use my heart just to get closer to Ziza." Najwa's tears had no power to shed.

"sickness...! I don't want to write these words anymore, but I can't. Why do you have Gus Azmi...! You hurt me!"

With tears in his eyes, Najwa continued to write.

"I want to stop with this love, I don't want to get hurt more by it. From the beginning I had suppressed my feelings for him, but why was I this stupid so easily accepting his love without thinking long...."

Gus Azmi could not bear to see Najwa crying, wanting to ask what was the burden of Najwa. But he could not, for at least Najwa would not look at him.

"Najwa.., you don't deserve him. You will not be equal to him, no matter how strong you think you will get the blessing of both parents. But, who are you? You are just a santri, who in fact santri who used him to get his love. Why are you stupid? There's no way a big Gus hut likes you, there's no way Najwa...! You must realize that!" firmly in the heart.

"Whatever you love him, he will leave you! It would hurt a lot if that happened, are you ready for Najwa? no, no girl is strong when she's trying to keep her heart but the guy's using her." Najwa stopped writing because her body was getting weaker because it was holding back emotions.

"Najwa..," Gus Azmi tries to call Najwa, but Najwa still does not answer.

Najwa's eyes were so swollen from crying. Najwa's eyes suddenly blurred and slightly blurred, then suddenly darkened. Najwa fainted, Gus Azmi was really shocked and scared. He approached Najwa.

"Mak Raisya! Madam Mala!" Gus Azmi immediately called mbak ndalem who was in the kitchen.

"Yes Gus," they immediately approached and were a little shocked to see Najwa pass out.

"Please get some oil and warm water!" Gus Azmi immediately carried Najwa to his room. Gus Azmi forgot who Najwa was, why he did not think clearly when he brought him into the room. There was still another room empty, why should his room be.

He only realized when Raisya and Mala hesitated to enter his room when he would give wind oil and warm water.

After putting Najwa to bed, Gus Azmi immediately tidied up the paper folio written by Najwa earlier, hoping that no one would suspect.

"Sorry Gus, this is the oil and the warm water." Raisya said hesitantly.

"Take it in!" gus Azmi's Order.

"But Gus," Raisya felt ashamed that he had to go into the men's room. Gus Azmi wakes up in a panic, and Najwa is taken to her room.

"Yes, just put it on the table." Gus Azmi finally said.

"Mak Raisya! wait outside the room yes, I do not want if there is slander." Honest Gus Azmi.

"Yes Gus," Raisya follows Gus Azmi.

After that Gus Azmi approached Najwa who was still unconscious. As much as possible Gus Azmi did not look at Najwa who was closed, but could not. Najwa is too attractive for her, her red lips and the fragrant fragrance of Najwa make Gus Azmi tempted.

"Astaghfiullah!" Gus Azmi tries to suppress his lust of looking at Najwa and begins to resuscitate him.

Najwa soon regained consciousness and opened his eyes. Najwa was shocked because when he opened his eyes, what was seen was the face of Gus Azmi.

"Azmi Gus? Why is he beside me? Am I dreaming? Where's this?" Najwa looked around.

"Room? Whose room? Why don't I know him? I was ...," Najwa tried to remember the last incident she had.

Raisya was outside the room waiting for them.

"Mbak Raisya? Where the hell is this?"Najwa is still confused, but Gus Azmi's voice resuscitates him.

"Ayow drink the water, let it be a little good," pinta Gus Azmi.

Najwa immediately woke up and realized, it was not a dream. Najwa was a little groggy because this was the first time that Najwa was so close to Gus Azmi. His whole body felt creepy because it was close to him.

"Let's have a drink" pinta Gus Azmi once again because Najwa looks still dazed.

"Yes Gus," Najwa received his water glass.

"If you are not feeling well rest, do not be forced to ndalem despite the order. Just tell me you're sick" Gus Azmi tried to advise Najwa.

"Yes Gus" said Najwa.

"If you've done it back to the cottage, I stay first..," Gus Azmi immediately went out of the room afraid there was a sneak peek because Najwa was so tempting for him.

Najwa nodded in response to his words. Raisya's mother immediately entered the room to meet Najwa.

"Najwa! You're okay, right?" whispered Raisya and Mala suddenly also followed him.

"It's okay, I was why tow?" ask Najwa confused.

"So we suddenly fainted, Gus Azmi carried you here." Light Raisya.

"What's up, Tow? How did everyone enter Gus Azmi's room?" Mala interrupted the conversation.

"Saturday...! That's you, nyelonong!" gerutu Raisya's.

"I fainted? He's the one who carried me? so this is in Gus Azmi's bed? Nooooo.kkk...! Ayow quickly exited Najwa, before you thought strangely." Say Najwa's heart and get out of bed.

"Come back! I'm better," asked Najwa.

"In the meantime, rarely can we enter his room..," Raisya is still researching around.

"Let's go, we'll get out." Najwa pulls out Raisya and Mala's hand.

"The next time I passed out next to Gus Azmi ah...! Let it lie in her room" joked Mala.

"Yeeeeeeee! Basic mode," Raisya did not accept.

"Come on, it's late afternoon. We will not eat low later" Najwa reminded.

"Ooo yes, come on! " They immediately returned to the cottage.

From a distance Gus Azmi still ascertained the state of Najwa, he was afraid that Najwa was still sick because of Ziza.

"I'm sorry Dinda, I didn't know that our meeting hurt you so much." muttered Gus Azmi.

"Vaaaaahhhh...! Why is she so seductive anyway? I'd go crazy if I remembered!" Gus Azmi complains, because it is still implied in his mind the beautiful face of Najwa who fell asleep on his bed.

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