LOVE ON THE HORIZON 2
I'm a coward, Rey...
I got up from my seat, though,
kuhampiri Rey who is still sobbing.kupeluk Rey's body.tangis Rey getting louder, harder,
his head was against my shoulder and his hands clenched to hit me
my chest.
“I'm sorry Rey.
I. I can't explain the details of my reasons, but I know your little heart knows.
why...” My whisper was in Rey's ear
“And even though we never talk
or reveal...your little heart also knows right? If I love you so much.
want to always be there beside you? But you're gonna let me be on the side
lain...so does not mean I made you Adrian....?” said Rey on the isak
lamentations
I didn't answer.
tight body Rey….
“I...i....I also love you.
Rey...I have long kept.I dare not say..but I know.I love you.
Rey...” finally came out as well said that word from my mouth.
Hearing her cry Rey grew
harder and tighter hugged me
“In life.I'm the ship that.
almost drowned Rey.I don't want you to drown with me, you deserve.
get better..from the journey of my life..about heart.
can't get or even force what we want.
that's enough for me...” I said it again in Rey's ear.
“Where do you know I'm happy?
You are selfish Adrian.you only hear what your heart says but are insensitive to.
listen to the hearts of others.People feel pain many times that you experienced in the past.
then, it makes you too afraid to reach let alone hold
your dreams...your desires...” Said Rey while staring intently at me.
“You choose to hurt yourself
keep everything in your heart.and think as long as the person you love.
happy.it is enough.but have you ever thought.
people you have loved...are they happy ? or what you
do it right for their happiness? Or just because of you
too scared and choose to give up?” Rey back to make me quiet with all
said.
“I'm sorry Rey.
I am a coward.I am too afraid to reach my wish and reach.
my dream...” Reply.
“But now you belong
Herman ...Rey..I have to accept the reality ...but at least you already know the contents.
my heart and also my reason..” I'm shriveled
“You're a man I admire
Adrian..you never saw me from the material side.
answer and always be optimistic and confident.
build your business and your life because I know your character is not easy.
surrender ... Now I will live life with Herman as a commitment
the commitment is not Adrian's love.
we..give us another chance in the future.
promise.do not be afraid to reach your desires and fulfill your desires.
your heart.before it is too late.and do not hear only your own words.
try to listen to the hearts of others you love..” Said Rey seraya
hugging me back.erat and shahdu……
Rey stepped away
leaving me who could only be fixated and staring at his back, if only he
it doesn't belong to anyone else yet, I must have run and hugged him.
it's too late because of my stupidity and my fear.
Hampa.kosong...
all I could describe on my day after, were my two pearls
Clara and Calista keep me trying to stand tall in the middle of the storm and
trying to get up to pass it .
Everything I love has been
go...all I want is gone.all regardless of my grasp.
itself..as if no more solar light that takes time.
the morning sun.and its red hue beguti seductive and beautiful.
the horizon there. Now all that is in front of me is darkness, a little light
the moon is all I can hope for, but even now the moon is covered in clouds,
I can only feel.trained with feet full of wounds….
My sepals are a little treated
with the win of my company's small tender for an exhibition project
organizer to Bali. Little by little, my company's financial problems
solved and improved.
After the exhibition was finished and
and Handoko came back first with the truck, I still have a day at
Bali because my flight schedule I ordered is tomorrow morning, on Monday,
because if I go back to Jakarta on Sunday, the ticket price is good
tall.
I spent time for
enjoying the city of Bali.but there I even remember every moment.
with Ririn here….All the women who loved me are alive
in the new story.slowly but surely ..all things about me already.
will definitely be forgotten.fuuuh.imagine everything makes my chest tight and.
the pain that I had been holding back for a long time felt.
Lost and lost one
one person I love, make my heart freeze, iceberg ever
melt back up and back fortify my heart….
I put my feet away
kuta Beach and headed back to the hotel where I was staying.
whatsapp message sign in…
“HALLO BOSS….AGAIN WHERE? DISTURB
GA NIH?” from Meihwa
“HAI….NO KOK ..I JUST GOT IT DONE
WORK IN BALI, PLAN TOMORROW MORNING I RETURN TO JAKARTA..”.
“OHHH NICE DONG….THE DAY AFTER I WANT TO
TO JAKARTA THERE IS AN INVITATION FROM BROTHER, WANT YES ACCOMPANY ME? I LESS UNDERSTAND
JAKARTA AREA, LATER I SEND THE INVITATION MAP.” Meihwa back to embalm
my message
“OK..” I'll answer briefly back
its message
I returned to Jakarta with
the plane at 6:00 am, about two hours I've arrived at Soeta airport and
immediately headed to Ita's parents' house to pick up Clara and Calista, I
miss me on them by taking them that afternoon the road to the mall.
plain my son is lonely and all my pain is gone for a moment.
After taking Clara and
Calista to the mall, I stopped by the house
mama and Asty, to see how they are doing. It just so happened that Hendra and his wife too
it's there, so Clara and Calista can play together
“Adrian..next month Asty want to.
posted by Suryansyah..” Mama said while playing with me and Hendra ,
his wife Tika and Asty
“Laki man and his family already know all the past
you Ty?” my mouth is with Asty
“So Brother….Surya was also
once a school with Asty.even when Asty married Hilman first, he,
he came to the reception..” replied my sister.
“Oh great if so.
Ka Adrian see your career has been good.you also have your own home.
mind if mom comes with you?” my word
“Ngga sister..biar mama join Asty.
continue...” reply
“Iya Ty.
with her daughter.kalo same sister.later mama tired, take care of the child.
son.financial brother is now not as good as you.
take care of the children, so mama can rest more..”.
“Iya sis..so brother Adrian ga.
mind right?” asty asked for my blessing
“Ya..kak Adrian even seneng.
already can mate again.sometimes people like the same strange perception of widow status.
rather than widower..kayak brother Adrian..” reply me while laughing.
“Well by yourself.when to marry.
again ?” Hendra started to get in the conversation
“Let's Dra later..Gw want to focus.
used to rebuild my business that had fallen..” My answer is relax
“But you still have to think yes
Adrian's? Poor Clara and Calista.he needs a mother.
papa mama Ita...so take care of your child's child..” Mama's say
“Iya ma...later after the effort
Adrian is improving again.Adrian will pikrikan about it.but Adrian also did not want.
origin search ya?” I said smabil smiled
That morning I went back to
Soekarno Hatta Airport, not to go on business but to fulfill
I promised to pick up Meihwa who came by plane at 10:00 am from
Belitung. I parked my car and rushed to the exit at Terminal 1
coming, I noticed one by one the passengers who came out, because
I saw it on the monitor of the plane that Meihwa was flying in had landed.
I saw a middle-aged woman with
high posture, waving towards me while smiling, with a dress without
her arms and skirt were red, Meihwa looked beautiful and invisible in age
who is 6-7 years above me.
“How are you..?” said Meihwa while
shake hand….
“Good...in your invitation.
send the show tomorrow, then today you stay where Mei?” repay me
“My plan is to stay
at home brother in cengkareng Adrian, continue to leave tomorrow together
they, I was going to ask you to accompany them, but it turns out they want it.
depart the same to the party..” Clearly Meihwa.
“Oh..ok..so we go to cengkareng.
now it? “ my word while entering Travel Bag Meihwa into the car.
“Now I want to rest
briefly Adrian..and chat with you.we k eke Hotel near here aja, later.
we can eat and snack at the Resto Hotel, it's been a long time no snorbol directly right?
Terajhir in Batam huh? You see in Cengkareng many little nephews
if you are there you can not rest, noisy and definitely ask to go out
jalan..night or tomorrow morning I bus apesan Taxi from the hotel to go to.
cengkareng...kalo there I have often” said Meihwa.
“OK...” My leg while out
parking area and to the nearest hotel from Soeta Airport
After booking the room and putting
the goods, Meihwa and I went down to the hotel restaurant for lunch and
chatter. We tell each other what happens in our lives, I
also tell me about the departure of Ita, also about Reyni.
jobs have always been communicating via Whatsapp to each other
be patient.
“Now in my brain only
raise my efforts and the children of Mei.” I said while eating my lunch.
“Ya Adrian..
long before you.since that old Bangka remarried with more.
young..I just focus on my business and raise children.
two families only live one who wants to go to college.” added Meihwa.
“Continue? Time in Batam
besides work means you meet dong same ex...what's his name? Sisca
yes?” he said while laughing
“Meet...before finally first.
when we met at the hotel that night in May.Cuma somehow.
reiterate to him that everything is the past.
lah..feeling guilty is bla bla bla...” Samil laughed a little.
“It is he.
later...kalo first it's called DP” said Meihwa again while we laughed
together
“I used to be close to a Chinese woman
like you, her name is Debby, she's just a citizen of Hong Kong.
he was when I was working.he's a buyer agent of my company.
you are good to talk and chat ..ceplas ceplos do not need to be stale especially
pretend..so anything is good to be told..” Mouthed
“Ya...I have been horrified.
where is he?” he said it again while lighting his cigarette, because we both
they finished eating their lunch
“Death may...Womb Cancer..”.
slowly say
“Ohhhh..so sorry to hear that..” says.
Meihwa
“It’s ok May..” Answer me
“Adrian..I only two days in.
Jakarta, later when I want to go home.can ya pick me up to Cengkareng and shuttle.
I'm going to the airport? I want us to chat again...can we?” meihwa
while calling the waiter to pay the bill.
“Bby dong.
delivery job huh? Understand now that I have to come down
back to the field..” I replied with a small laugh and lit my cigarette.
“Ok..
aja...it's number one...” Reply Meihwa with a smile
We stayed in the hotel lobby and
Meihwa took the elevator back to her room to rest
