It's Not Our Mistake #Princess Story 2
It's Not Just Me Who's Sad

"Where are we going?" I asked as I walked out the GOR to the parking lot, "You haven't eaten yet, have you?" ask Indra back, "We eat first yes" continued Indra while opening the car door for me and I reply with a smile sign of agreement. As the car queued out of the parking lot, I caught a glimpse of Andre, exiting the GOR with a puzzled look, "Why is he?" my mind asks, "Is he looking for me?" ask me again in the heart that suddenly makes me feel bad, feel guilty. "Hah" my long breath voice sounded Indra, "Why Non?" he asked, "You're good, right?" he asked again anxiously, Indra has always been anxious about my condition since the departure of Pongky. Her attitude was always heart-hearted to treat me, like a cracked flower vase. Sometimes it makes me uncomfortable nearby, especially if you remember the incident that night. Her desperate face, her annoyed yelling voice saw me torment myself by holding back the grief alone, which eventually made Indra decide to continue school abroad.

"You like this food" he said, pointing to the food menu at home, "Remember it" my god who made him smile. "You want a message, especially?" tanya was enthusiastic because I saw me eating greedily, somehow I felt so hungry that I forgot to keep the image. "Son, enough" I replied with a small laugh in embarrassment. "Come" asked Indra to immediately leave the restaurant, "There's a place you want to go?" he asked while in the car, "No" I replied slowly with a slight yawn resisting sleepiness, after eating a lot arrived until I became sleepy. "Okay, let's walk. Around the city" Indra reply and immediately run his car. "Hmm" my voice stretched and began to open my eyes, "Sore" said Indra who looked at me, "Oh" my little cry held in shame while covering my face with both hands, "I fell asleep huh?" I asked still with my hands on my face, slowly Indra pulled the hand that covered my face "I like to see you sleep" she replied gently as she tidied my hair. "I miss you so much that I feel empty of my life" he said, hearing that word my heart trembled, confused to behave.

"Rain" I said neutralizing the awkward situation in the car, "Yes" Indra replied with a smile looking up at the windshield of the car. "I also miss you Mbul" I said in my heart. "Would you like a cup of coffee before I take you to the dorm?" she asked with a pleading gaze, "Yes, good ideas" I smiled. "Well, I'm here recently" I said amazed by the atmosphere and the view of this coffee place, "I see on Instagram, again ngehits now" he replied while holding my hand to our table. "Saturday you came home?' ask her a few moments after our order arrived. "Papa is rarely home, I go home also free" I replied with a small smile while looking out the glass, the rain was getting heavier, the air was getting colder. Unconsciously my hands began to hold the arms to warm themselves, suddenly Indra stood up to open his jacket and put it on my body and sat on the side while embracing. "If I may, I want to forever embrace you" she said slowly, which made me feel uncomfortable. "I'm fine" I said as I tried to take off his jacket and embrace, but Indra held back by hugging me. "Quite Non, don't avoid me anymore", "I can't afford to live apart from you" he whispered as he hugged. I understand what Indra felt was very guilty, Indra know my condition with Pongky until when Pongky left for good, "Are you able to Mbul? Every time you see me you will see the shadow of Pongky" I said revealing what became strange in the heart every time I saw Indra began to express his feelings. "Don't look at Pongky's shadow, see him hugging you in the district parking lot during the election event, I can" he replied that made me surprised, as I remember Indra had come home when I refused to be escorted home that night. "Mbul" called me in shock as she held out a hug and looked at her face, "I'm not coming home, I'm just moving the parking lot" he replied. "I can Non, I can Put" he continued, "What I can't do when you close your eyes and your heart to see me", "That's why I chose to leave, but it makes me even more unable to live the day without you" she explained with teary eyes. Hearing and seeing Indra like that, my heart broke. It turns out that not only am I sad about the loss of Pongky, but the people around me are sad even to the point of falling to see me, including Papa who now prefers to be outside the house for months and Indra who chose to isolate himself away from me.

"Wanna stop by for a snack?" ask her on the way to the dormitory, "Gak ah, it's still raining" I replied. "Non, when do you want me to meet Ma Mami" she asked suddenly to surprise me, "What do you mean?" I asked back with an anxious tone, "I often tell about you to Mami, and Mami wants to know your ma" he replied casually. The relationship between my family and Indra family is not so good, but it does not mean hostile. Only Papa is less fond of Papinya Indra who is the majority owner of the garden warehousing in my city, so sometimes like to clash with farmers about the purchase price. While my father was one of the farmers, "We'll talk about it later" I said, switching the conversation.

Every now and then I see Indra from the steering wheel, "His face is charismatic, different from Pongky's. How to approach and treat me was different" my mind compared, "Argh" lamented slowly that Indra heard. "Why?" he asked as he stopped the car on the side of the road, "You remember Pongky?" it was her asking that shocked me, "What do you mean?" tanyaku ketus because he did not expect Indra to discuss Pongky. "You ask me if I can see you if there's a shadow of Pongky" he said seriously, "For that, I ask" he continued, "Because I know, you're trying to get the shadow of Pongky out of my eyes" clearly with confidence. For the first time I heard Indra's words, "What is this" my mind does not believe in seeing Indra at this time. "Sorry Non, I'm laughing. Sorry" he said to be clear which made me surprised was in vain. "Indra is still like this" I lamented in my heart. The car walked again to the dormitory, the atmosphere became quiet in the car. My gaze blankly looked at the road that was still drenched in rain, "How can I erase the shadow of Pongky?" my question is in my heart. This attitude of Indra even makes me more dilemma every time I look at him and my heart is more closed when spending time together. And eventually, he'll get hurt and fall again because of me. "Then me?" I was staring all the way. "Can you take me out of this situation?" ask me to plead from the deepest heart.