Diandra Dilemma
Break and Down

My body felt lighter when I woke up this morning. But damn, the clock is 08:09 wib, my God! Though today there was morning class, and I had bad luck, oh ghost!

Immediately I took a towel and rushed to take a shower even if it was just that.

Lucky my best friend Dena is ready to stand by in front of the boarding gate to pick me up. Ahh sweetie !

Fortunately, I was still able to catch up with time and was only 15 minutes late, and the luckier was that the lecturer who taught my morning class was not a killer lecturer, so Dena and I were still allowed to enter and take classes.

Two hours passed, and my morning class was well done.

"In, I'm first yeah. You bokap ask for a costume fittings for his wedding later.Why would you go home alone? Or do I want to take a taxi online?"

"Yes, if you go, I can take the angkot. I'm going to the bus first anyway ."

"Oh, okay if that's . First yes!"

"Yes, be careful!"

Dena and I separated, and as usual before going home had to fill the stomach first to the cafeteria before studying in the library, this morning did not have time to eat breakfast .

While waiting for food I also tried to take a cellphone in the bag, but the item I was looking for was not there. Holy hooch! did I leave it somewhere? Ah ****! I pat my eel because it was realized that my phone was left in the room this morning in a hurry because of waking up bad luck.

And without me realizing someone had called me many times and sent me a few messages there.

Just entering the entrance of the library, I came back to meet someone I knew. Yeah, he's the Tommy guy Tereliye novel . I don't know why every time I cross paths with him I always want to laugh, he's cheerful and always makes a crisp and weird joke, but it's enough to make me laugh and forget a little bit of my sadness about Juna, a mysterious man who knows where he is now.

Because I want to immediately return her Tereliye novel, inevitably I have to hitchhike home with her. After arriving at my boarding gate, I asked him to just wait in the car because my boarding house did not allow male friends to enter without permission.

"This is the book, thanks for being repotted and thanks for making the book." I said while giving a paper bag containing a novel and a small towel that I had borrowed.

"Oh yes, the same towel is also in the room already washed, thanks again."

"Hahaha, don't you mostly thank him? Okay, never mind." He answered while receiving the paper bag I gave him.

Tommy's car passed away.

Back to the room, I immediately looked for a cellphone that turned out to be completely dead because I forgot to charge it.

While waiting for my cell phone battery to fill I also cleaned my room that was messy because I could not clean this morning.

The clock shows at 3 pm, heavy rain fell right when I tried to turn on the phone that was fully charged.

50 Unanswered calls My own

5 My own messenger

My own: There is a business that I can clear up that I have to finish first

My own: I'm sorry that I still can't be the perfect person for you

My own: can I see you for a minute?

My own: Park near your kos, not long enough just a few minutes.

My own: Diandra princess, please trust me. I'm just saying, I love you .

The last message sent 20 minutes ago, I rushed out hoping Juna would still wait even though it was raining heavily. Oh my God, how could I not even pick up the phone one time, when it was clear how Juna tried to contact me since yesterday. The person I was most very much waiting for news of, even how could it be?!

I don't care about the heavy rain that soaked my body and the extreme cold because what I want now is to find time to meet him, the person I miss so much.

But nil, no matter how many times I roamed around the park no one saw the trunk of his nose. I did not feel my tears racing with the swift rain soaked the entire body that could not resist anger and disappointment.

No matter how hard I tried to call his name, there was not a single answer I got.

Whyyy?! Why does time seem to not allow me to meet him for a second, I just want to know how he is doing, why he has to disappear like swallowed by the earth like this! In my condition and in my heart that so desires it, Lord! My chest felt extremely tight, my body was limp as it collapsed and darkened!

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"Pity yes, young man where handsome again."

"Yes, where is the rain again profusely."

"But he said he was a hit-and-run victim."

"Hopefully congratulations, pity really."

Bandung, August 20, 2021, 15:20 AM.

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