Diandra Dilemma
New love

After a long stay in the village, now is the time to go back to Bandung City to continue my studies, because my childhood has ended . My mom and dad drove me to the terminal. And I didn't even say goodbye to Tommy, especially after the incident that day, we never saw each other again. I don't even know if he's back in Bandung yet.

Going back to the place where I met the pain, it scared me sometimes. But I can't just lose. There were many dreams I had to achieve there and throw away all that pain boldly. I just want to go back to the old Diandra before I know the word love. Diandra is a daughter who just wants to realize her Father and Mother's dream to become a medical scholar.

After a tiring journey, I was soon ready to return to greet tomorrow and return to being a student . Dena, my best friend already knows that I'm back, it's just that he's busy right now and I get it. But it feels like I missed not seeing him long enough .

After tidying up and cleaning up my room long enough I left me to put this tired body on the mattress and take the laptop.

Trying to complete some tasks stacked up from the lecturer .

After feeling quite tiring I close the laptop and put myself to sleep to prepare to restart my routine as a student tomorrow morning.

Being too tired, I forgot to set the alarm and misfortune! Damn it, Dena didn't pick me up because our class hours were different. After running far enough I did not find any public transportation that can take me quickly.Because of panic until it did not occur to me to order ojeg online. Suddenly a black sedan approached me slowly and opened the windshield. Turns out, Tommy . Well, the man I avoided a few days ago is my helper today. Inevitably I had to accept his invitation, otherwise I would have been very late and lost my morning class hours, let alone I had just entered after a few weeks off.

Along the way, only silence accompanied, both me and Tommy were both silent for a while. Until Tommy finally started asking me.

"Why don't you say back to Bandung, Di. We can be together." he said casually while staying focused on driving.

"Hmm, what a sudden coincidence. It's my time off from college." I replied slowly, looking at the view outside the car window.

Tommy only responded with a nod of understanding, before long we arrived at my campus .

"There's still a lot, Tom." I said briefly before getting out of his car .

"Yes, equally .. "he said hanging like there was something to say but heavy to say.

Finally I went down and rushed to run after time so as not to be late.

I also arrived in the classroom even though it was actually a few minutes late, but luckily the lecturer who taught had not arrived, so he could sigh calmly .

4 Hours passed, my lecture today was completed quite well , although there were some tasks that I had to revise . A few weeks off turned out to make the burden quite heavy because it had to catch up.

I walked to the campus cafeteria to fill my stomach as usual.

While waiting for my food order to arrive, someone patted me on the shoulder . And, well she's my best friend Dena. We also hugged to remove the kangen.

"Aaaah, Dena ... kangen tau!" I said while pinching his cheek.

"Hahaha .. same! Betewe, sorry ga sepet nengokin because you know yourself, my days are getting heavier since there is a witch at home." Said Dena while ordering food

"Eh, you're missing, Di?" ask me then .

" It is" I answered

"Oh yes, how during in the exciting village ga? I know how to play there. Especially the same cuisine Mother Lo , Di."

"Yes, I also ask you, he said where ya neng Dena who is beautiful and good, how never come here again. Haha ... " I tried to imitate mother's voice .

"Geez, hahaha ... Yes, I am beautiful and kind!" praise him to yourself.

Before long our order came, and we chatted while enjoying it.

"Oh yeah, he said Tommy nyusulin to the village huh?" Dena asked then while sipping her drink .

"Yes, he also started a business venture with my uncle, Den."

my reply made him choke in shock.

"Yes, Dena!" Answer is firm .

"Well, crazy anyway . The art of it, he chased Lo, Di. My two thumbs up, hahaha ... "

He said while holding both thumbs up

"Hush, what the hell, Den. He's trying to make money, so chase me anyway." I wonder.

"Accusingly, my best friend this one is really bego what pretend the hell you are son! He tuh, if the intention is only to find the cuan yes it can be a business here, anyway bokapnya business a lot here , why far the livestock business to Lembang, hayoo if not because Lo maemunah!"

"Yes, maybe let his business be different from his father, and also to be independent. Why should I because I tried?" tanyaku plain.

"Yes so that you can have an alesan to know Lo and the Lo family, Diandra. Anjir gregeget me hmmm if not my best friend already jebelin sambeli nih boy!" He said while cutting the meatballs with grigetan.

I just laughed at his behavior and thought for a moment, is it possible that Dena is right? Tommy gave money to uncle just because of me? But, come to think of it, Tommy is a good guy. It's just that my heart is still too sick and traumatized to open my heart again.

***

I just finished taking a shower and tried to dry my wet hair . Suddenly my phone rang .

Tommy calling ...

I took my phone and answered it.

"Can I see you for a second, Di? I'm in front of your boarding house" he said briefly on the phone.

And I opened the window of the room, sure enough that the car was parked in front of the gate.

"Yes, I can." I answered briefly and then turned off the phone and rushed to change clothes and combed hair, then rushed out .

When I met , I also invited him to walk to the park to be more free to chat .

"Sorry, Di. If I'm disturbing. But honestly I'm not calm, I have to talk this to you, somehow your response and answer God willing I'm ready ." He started the conversation .

"I love you, Diandra. More than anything, even if you refuse I don't care, which is clear you should know I'll never get tired of waiting until you can accept me."His words were filled with confidence while looking at me deeply.

Instantly my lips were twisted and speechless, my eyes sparkled with tears at Tommy's deep sincerity. But how can I hurt a good man like this God.

"I ... "I said hanging couldn't go on and just crying I couldn't stand it anymore.

"It's okay, Diandra. I don't mean you made Nerima me when your heart wasn't ready. I know, there's still a wound in your heart. But please allow me to be a bandage for your wound. We live this together - together so I can take care and happy you. I may not be able to promise to be the perfect man for you, but I can be sure that I will always be there for you and will never leave you." He said while wiping my tears slowly.

My heart rumbled like a great wave forcing me to swim against it , but my common sense seems to support accepting Tommy so that this heart forgets the wounds caused by people who may never come back again .

I could only answer with a nod of hesitation, but I was sure that Tommy was a good man who might be able to make me heal from that wound.

I may not have completely forgotten but with this new step of mine I wish Tommy was the man who was able to make me return to being the old Diandra princess , who is no longer sad and hurt because of the first love lost .

Tommy smiles happily and kisses me soft forehead . Her warm hug kept me calm for a moment, and now I have officially become her lover. The one trying to get out of the wound hole that I wanted to erase just from my memory and heart .

***

"That wound is forever a wound that never goes away unless I find the answer to why you left ."

Diandra.