Diandra Dilemma
Hi ! My own

After that fun incident, my days became more lively. How not?! The man who had always been a ghost in my view, finally really became a real figure that I knew a little clearly. Well, at least I know what his name is, what his job is, and where he's getting his education now. And it turns out that what makes me so happy is, because we're a college! No wonder if at that time, he had given his umbrella to me, because we actually often met but did not know each other and rarely cross paths. It turns out the saying is true, don't know then don't love!

Aunty Ira and Dena looked at me strangely, yes because since coming home from the cafe earlier I was unceasingly smiling to myself like a sambet . But , I also can't hide how happy this heart is.

"Den, your friend why the hell? Fear Aunty uh..."

aunt Ira whispers to Dena who is cool just playing her mobile phone .

"You know, time!" dena replied that she didn't care.

Out of curiosity, Aunt Ira came up to me and asked.

"Diandra I love, realize yes son' don't like a smile - smile yourself, serem know!" Aunt Ira patted me on the shoulder to wake up my delusion.

"Eh, what a gap, Tan .." I replied to the gaze , it turned out that I had been noticed, O Lord!

"Hmmm.. yauda, don't dream a lot well, if there's any story just the same Auntie ."

"Yes, my dear aunt."

Aunt Ira left me to do her other work.

Suddenly, my phone rang an incoming message. My happiness broke even more when I found out that the person I was imagining was actually sending me a short message but was able to make my heart explode.

'Hallo, this is Juna. Save ya's'

"Aarghhhhh ... !!!" I spontaneously screamed in excitement and made the person in the store shocked not play.

"Jeez, Diandra!" bent Dena shocked .

"Oops, sorry." I regained control of this heart and tried to calm down. Huf ...

Arjuna officer Mahendra, the name that is ringing in my brain right now . The name I kept in my memory with the username "my own"

I don't know that even though his name is quite gallant and good, I just wanted to know him as someone special and I decided to name him a little unique and different. Hopefully not only my own, you will be able to be mine, arrghhh ....

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One month passed, almost every day I spent just waiting for a reply to chat from him even though it was just say hi or tell the simple things we went through today.

My life was almost 50% changed drastically, from the quiet, now I smile more often and greet people - people I go through and meet. It feels my way of life is more colorful and beautiful, especially when hearing his voice even if only through a telephone connection. Because we were both busy with work and college classes, we rarely met , only if occasionally I deliberately studied at the cafe where I worked with my high school friends iamm.

Sometimes , I'm weird myself with this self . Am I really in love? Or just awe? I don't know, which obviously this is the first time I know, what it's like for someone to be present and be a life booster after Dad and Mom .

Even so, Juna is still a mysterious figure to me . There's not much I know about him, like, who's his dad? Her mom? his brother? is he an only child? There's not much I ask about it, because as long as he doesn't tell me, even if I don't want to ask, afraid that he'll feel that I'm too boring .

And vice versa, the things he talked about never offended about who my family was? What do Mom and Dad do? Am I an only child?

Well, maybe we just feel comfortable enough to just talk about something more fun than an interview about family .

I am happy and comfortable, but does Juna feel the same way?

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"Emang Lo sure, same my own Lo that, Di?"

asked Dena when I told Juna about my feelings.

"Gatau, who is obviously happy if he is listening to his voice, read his chat, let alone meet his person, hehehe ..."

"Don't, yeah! Love can make people crazy!"

"Hush, I'm not crazy, Dena! Just .." I said hanging because I was confused looking for the right vocabulary to describe my feelings for Juna.

"It's just crazy!" Dena connected my words with her sewot style.

I could only smile in shame hearing that my best friend was upset by my drastically changed attitude, even so Dena was happy if I was happy, it's just that he can't think of me not trying to figure out how Juna really is and whether my love is clapping one hand? I feel we have the same feeling seen from how he intensely replied to my chat with fast response and gave an explanation if it was busy.

But, I don't care . For me, as long as the Juna I knew was a wonderful man who was intensely giving attention to me for that long, I didn't care who he was.

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My own calling ....

"Can I see you for a second? Somebody wants me to be obrolin, Diandra." said the man across the phone

Without a second thought, I also agreed.

Five minutes passed, my hands were sweating cold and nervous, and almost every second I looked at the clock on my phone because I felt unsettled.

We did meet often, but for the first time Juna invited me to meet at the cafe where he worked as well as the place where I first knew his name, get acquainted and ended up until now.

Looking from afar, a dashing man in a casual suit came up to me, well he was the one who made me nervous since then. Handsome face with his shady smile. Argosh ...

"Sorry, it's been a while?" His greeting came up to me and sat right in front of me.

"However, "I hesitated because I was too nervous.

"Diandra princess, "her heavy voice called out my full name for the first time .

"Y-yeah, "my answer was shocked .

"I love you."

One sentence that can make me freeze and all the feelings in me burst unbecoming. Like a dream that became real, to make my lips moody unable to speak and just cry because it was too happy. If only time could stop, I want to stay in this second this minute this hour and this time, forever.

12 May 2020

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