Becoming Like My Mother
There's Progress

"Hehe's sorry El,.." Said Melati grimacing.

"Emang you ate that much earlier, how do you also help me eat. Here's a.." Give up one of his food packs.

"Emm, how is El. I eat here." Melati who is still hungry just accept the gift of Elisha.

"Thanks yes.." Continue before putting the food in.

While Elisha just nodded in response, the food he chewed was still full in his mouth. They don't talk until their food is gone.

"Eh, by the way loe why from this morning just moody?" Elisha cleaned the garbage he had collected into plastic.

"Well, I also want to explain to your room. But males if grilled. I'm in a really bad mood.." Melati said sadly.

Elisha who saw it was not so good. He just switched their conversation.

"I threw this away first." He showed plastic in his hand.

Melati smiled, "Yes El,.." Actually Melati also knew that Elisha was avoiding her because he felt awkward.

Elisha just left from the front of Melati. He went out. Had hesitated when he wanted to enter his classroom, but luckily the entrance bell rang, so he could eliminate the awkwardness between them with Melati. He is not the kind of person who apologizes often. So there you have it, he would give something a gift as an apology without saying sorry.

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Presented a romantic scene between Dad and Mom, she continued, Melati was really furious. How not, he just came home from school tired of his mind.

Where the father was lying whose head he put on Mina's thigh. And once in a while they were joking around in that living room.

Melati was silent and deliberately stomped her feet past the couple. Ikhsan who saw her immediately got up and called her daughter.

"Son't you home yet?" He asked me a question that received no response from the princess. Melati continued walking to her room without caring about her father.

Ikhsan let out a long sigh, then Mina the wife stroked her shoulders gently. He put on his most beautiful smile. Ikhsan became a little relieved and returned the smile of the wife. He also grasped the hand that was on his shoulder and kissed it briefly.

Alif who also just arrived also saw the whereabouts of Father and Mother, he continued. He smiled faintly and kissed the backs of the couple's hands. Then he walked to his room.

Melati threw her rough body onto her bed. He also let out a rough breath, looking blankly at the ceiling of his room. Long enough he was pensive, his mind was also somehow going where. Always moving around.

Shadow after shadow instantly flashed in his mind. About how he was together with the Mother, then suddenly jumped to the place where his Father introduced the stepmother, back to the Mother again. Just keep going around, her tears don't drip. Maybe there was too much he had put out. He's just tired of all this. Just the calm he wanted right now. Slowly he began to close his eyes and just fell asleep.

In this week, Melati became a more reserved person. At school and at home, his friends and brother who tried to invite him to talk were not responded to by Melati at all. Only occasionally he shook his head to hear questions or greetings spoken by people around him.

I don't know what Melati is feeling. He is a man without a soul. The body is indeed very intact not scuffed at all. Sometimes he thinks about what he is living for now. But he never thought of ending his life.

But there is something different now that he feels. He even closed his eyes because he was so enjoying the current state, and made people look strangely at him. Slowly he opened his eyes again and focused on listening to the chant of the Adhan echoed by a Muadzin.

He turned his feet towards the source of the sound. Actually, he was on his way home after buying some equipment himself in a minimarket.

On the way he so enjoyed the calmness in his heart. His smile was perfect. Instantly he thought, after the events that he had experienced in his life made him forget the Almighty.

She kept complaining, kept feeling sick, feeling claustrophobic, feeling alone. But there is a best place for him to pour out all his heart. But his heart continued to be covered by his own ego. Always think that no one loves him anymore. Everyone who stayed away from him. He himself did not open his eyes wide.

He stood for a moment until in front of a building where people worshiped. Many people entered the mosque in front of him. Seeing the multitude of people who closed the aurat, while he. Her mother always asked her for that.

Instantly his tears trickled because until his mother died, he was still unable to fulfill his request. What is the difficulty of closing the aurat, what is he waiting for, the readiness of the heart?, Will the angel of life be waiting for him ready first so?.

I don't know, maybe Melati still feels prestige to her friends who are mostly not closing her aura. A little fear of being abandoned by her friends. Because it is remembering this time his friends who make him still able to smile

But why if this is the case, is it not when he died alone. Family, property even his friends will not be willing to accompany him. Only our deeds and deeds will determine the fate of what life is after.

His daydream stopped when someone patted his shoulder.

"Why are you still here?, Hayuk or enter.." Invite a middle-aged woman with her Sundanese accent. Either new people who moved or indeed have settled in this capital for a long time.

"Emm, i.iya Ma'am.." Melati nodded politely, and rewinded her steps to allow the woman who may have been four-headed to enter the Mosque.

The woman smiled, then preceded Melati. While Melati first go to the ablution. Actually, he felt insecure with the people around him. Because so far only he who still has not wrapped his hair with hijab. Some even look at him cynically. But he doesn't care about it. The first time he did not want to be for someone else. He wants to face his God.

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For the first time after the incident his father who brought Mina to his house took off. Melati came to her family who were sitting in the dining room for dinner.

To be clear, it made everyone who was there shocked. Because every day he was always persuaded by his brother Alif did not want to until Alif himself was tired of persuading and inviting him.

But today, what's up with Melati. Ikhsan who saw it was also very surprised and astonished to look at Melati. But looking at the aura of Melati's uncharacteristic face that always looked at her cynically and hated now turned flat. Ikhsan slightly pulled the corner of his lips. Although he did not see the smile on his daughter's face, at least now there was progress. His daughter no longer looked at him cynically. There was no look at that hateful face anymore.

"Darken.." Call him very soft.