Becoming Like My Mother
CHAPTER 54
My mind drifted to my first child. Is this all karma because I was so cruel to him. I'm getting worse, most likely if I say everything Mas Fahmi will divorce me.
No, don't let that happen. To be honest, all the facilities that Mas Fahmi has given me have made me comfortable. And I don't want to lose it all. And I have loved Mas Fahmi too.
I'm trying to make sense so this marriage doesn't end. Until when Mas Fahmi had an accident and was in a coma for half a year, I thought about bragging about my pregnancy. I confessed to my in-laws that I had been pregnant for three months.
My in-laws were so happy to hear I was pregnant, but because of the circumstances that made them have to take care of their son so both parents Mas Fahmi did not pay too much attention to the development of my fake fetus.
That means, like accompanying me to check my womb and caressing my stomach. I also struggled to find a fake distended stomach so that my two in-laws did not suspect.
Fortunately, when the time when pregnant women gave birth to my husband was still unconscious. Not that I'm happy to see her lying weak, it's just that I don't want to be divorced by her.
I deliberately chose to stay with both of my parents on the eve of birth. My in-laws certainly agreed because they knew that their own good son could not take care of me.
I'm working with the doctor to shut up about this. At first he didn't want to, but because I kept begging him until he helped me.
I heard from some sisters who said that there was a child who was also newborn, but his mother left him after giving birth. And they also do not know the family of the mother, because indeed during his life he lived a kara.
Of course I didn't waste this opportunity. Without much thought I adopted the beautiful daughter without the knowledge of my husband or in-laws.
My own parents I didn't tell either. They will feel very guilty and all the plans I have carefully arranged will fail completely.
After one month I gave birth, Mas Fahmi also showed changes and gradually improved. He was so happy to hear that I had given him offspring.
Because he has the spirit to heal and always think positive, within three months he was completely healed. I was so happy living my life at the time. The husband who loves me so much and the little baby that Mas Fahmi named Farah to complement my happiness.
Three years into my happy marriage, I heard bad news about someone who used to live in my heart and may even still be around today.
My mind raged when I heard it go down and even depressed. I decided to look at it in person to prove everything.
Sure enough, the news is true. Either because of pity or indeed my feelings of love that still exist lead me to meet and accompany Bembi.
He was so happy to hear it, even though he sometimes suddenly went berserk but I understood it. A comfortable feeling came back to me when I was with him, but one day Mas Fahmi realized I was the one who changed made me surprised and nervous.
I gave him the reason that I had spent all my time shaping my body. I once told her that being a model was my dream.
Because of Mas Fahmi's great love for me he was happy to realize my dream. Finally my little dream was achieved, with this also I can find a reason to always accompany Bembi.
Slowly, my attention to family changed. That's because I'm tired of my profession of being a model and always with Bembi.
My husband never protests or gets angry when I always come home late at night. Guilt was drawn to him because I lied to him so often, but my love for Bembi and getting bigger lately has kept me from caring.
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"Hallo Rayn what's wrong?" I asked Rayn.
"Sorry Madam interfered with her time, I would like to explain Mr. Fahmi's current state. Mr. Fahmi is under the influence of a powerful drug. Someone guessed it on purpose." Fahmi said.
"WHAT?!" I was so loud in surprise.
"Right Madam, at this time I beg you to come here."
"But it's going to take a long time because I'm not home right now." Rayn was surprised to hear that.
"But what about Mr Fahmi Madam?"
"Let's just say, you take Fahmi to my in-laws' house. Because the distance between my in-laws house and my current place is not so far away. And also the company's distance from my in-laws' house is close." My mother gave advice.
"Okay, ma'am, I'll be there soon."
I quickly went to the promised place. I waited long enough for Rayn to come with my husband in a very chaotic manner.
I led Mas Fahmi to my in-laws house. Because of such passionate desire, my husband immediately attacked me. I can only give up and obey my husband's wishes.
The ringing of the phone made me painstakingly reach for my phone. How surprised I was that the one who called me from the hospital. They called me because they saw my name at the top of the call list.
They told me that Bembi was in an accident. My thoughts were really only on the man I loved so much, without caring about Mas Fahmi I left him.
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My tears were shed to see Bembi lying weakly. I promised him that I would always be by his side.
Long enough I waited for him, the phone in my pants pocket rang. From my in-laws, I was so shocked to learn that my husband had committed adultery on another woman.
My mind drifted to just a moment ago, it was all also my own fault that left it just like that. Though the influence of powerful drugs in Mas Fahmi still master it.
It hurts, so much pain I feel now. I don't know if I don't understand what I'm feeling. In front of me was a man whom I loved very much. It even once occurred to me that in the end I chose it.
With a heavy heart I went to my in-laws house and left Bembi. My heart heats up to see the fragile face of Mas Fahmi, his chaotic appearance justifies all the words of my in-laws.
My mind also floated on the woman that my husband had destroyed his life. It is likely that Mas Fahmi will marry her.
Sure enough, after some time passed my husband asked for permission to marry another woman. Of course I can't resist, but this all happened because of my carelessness. With a heavy heart I agreed.
I regret what I can only feel right now.
