Becoming Like My Mother
CHAPTER 44

After her unwanted marriage took place, Melati could only remain silent in her current place. The place where she would sail the household ark with her husband and her honey. She has not seen her husband's face today. Even when the wedding was held and was next to him.

Chequek. The door opened and she saw the tired face of her husband. He took a quick glance and turned outside the window. Melati heard the sound of footsteps approaching her. But he ignored.

The man sat opposite Melati. He seemed to take many long breaths.

"Sorry." he said softly looking at the puffy face of Melati.

Jasmine looked up at her face, she stared intensely at the man who had become her husband. For a moment he recalled the conversation with his older brother Alif first.

"You want to be combined?"

"It's important my husband is poisoned."

She smiled, in front of her, her husband had made her honey. Will he do what he said first. Her tears that had stopped were now shedding again. Without a sound, his face was flat.

He tried to stop crying, but his tears always flowed.

Fahmi who saw him felt more guilty. He moved and squatted in front of Melati.

"Dear please forgive me. Because my be*a* thing got you into this marriage. But everything has happened and it has to happen. Please forgive me Melati." He wanted to touch Melati's hand.

But quickly Melati dodged. He looked the other way and rubbed his cheeks.

"Please Melati speak. You're my wife now, you have the right to bring out what you're damning to me. Punish me, anger me, humiliate me, beat me and do whatever makes your heart a little calm. But please don't be quiet like this." His face with teary eyes.

Melati still does not budge. He still persisted with his silence. It was true that his heart was just tired of what was happening. But at once she saw the face of her husband who was also looking at her.

He could clearly see the sincerity in those eyes. Suddenly his mind floated up as he chatted with Mom before the wedding.

Flashbacks

"No, even if this marriage is not at all you want. But with this marriage your status has changed to a wife. However your husband, you still have to carry out your duties towards your husband.

Obey and obey your husband Son, serve him well, permit him if you want to do something even though fasting Sunnah. Because you belong to him and he belongs to his mother. Keep your husband's honor and treasure when he's not home. And-" said Mina hanging when Melati cut her talk.

"But it's all too heavy for me to do ma'am. It would be nice if he was the man I wanted and loved. Everything that happened was so bitter to me." Isak Melati.

"Bitter?, are you in such pain right now?, your heart is so fragile now?.."

Melati just closed her eyes with the fall of tears.

"Don't you know how a sick person in a hospital will get well soon?" Ask her. Melati was still silent reluctant to speak.

"The greater the pain the greater the cost, the more strange objects that when paired so pain attached to his body, and maybe a lot of drugs that he had to drink. And does the medicine also taste sweet, delicious?

No, but with effort and sincere with all the treatment it is most likely he will recover. And the people who were beside him also took the effort. Because they also put their hope on him to heal.

Son, don't you think that you're alone. If there is really no man with you, be calm that God is always with us. If sometimes our lives are always not what we expect, maybe because we are too arrogant ourselves do not ask for everything to God.

Honey, listen if you continue to strive and sincerely live all rest assured that something when you will definitely feel peace and happiness. No matter how the storm hit, the lightning roared so hard. Surely it will all disappear (touching Melati's chin and wipe her tears), she said,

Never forget to pray and ask God. Perhaps God wants you to be a spoiled woman with Him. A woman who complains a little, and asks for this and that."

Jasmine slightly pulled the two corners of her lips and scattered into her embrace. Mina patiently stroked her daughter's back. He glanced at MUA who had been waiting for Melati. Because from earlier Melati let out tears until if started to sprinkle various kinds of makeup on her face will be difficult.

Flashback end

Jasmine breathed out slowly. Then hold onto Fahmi's two shoulders.

"You shouldn't be like this, Mom." He led her to sit next to him.

"You're my husband now, sorry you're no good." Continue with a thin smile.

Fahmi stared at Melati's attitude. He thought there would be a lot of insults and insults landing on his heart. And now he actually saw the face of Melati who was smiling even though it was not too wide.

Melati exhaled, hesitatingly looking back at the face of the man before her.

"May I say something?"

"Of course, say it.."

"We have indeed become husband and wife and indeed we should have been through this all. But Mas, maybe I won't be able to be your wife completely and forever."

Fahmi gasped to hear it. Although he heard clearly, in his heart he continued to deny the reality that was concluded by his mind.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm sorry Mas, but maybe in the future I can afford to carry out my duties as a wife such as preparing food and clothes, cleaning the house and others. But to serve you it will not happen."

The 33-year-old man's lips were slightly curved, he could understand Melati's feelings. He is also not the type of man who will touch a woman he has not loved. At that time he was in a state of unconsciousness, but the regrets he had in his heart never wanted to leave.

"You take it easy, I won't do it."

"Yes, and one more. That maybe after my puerperium is over, I won't be your wife anymore."

Deg. Fahmi was wide-eyed to hear the words of Melati. She had accepted this marriage, but to end it had never crossed her mind.

"I-I'm sorry but Mas, I didn't mean to play this wedding. But every woman has a dream, right?, I don't want to live forever sharing, let alone this is my husband. It doesn't matter if I live alone forever, than I have to suppress my desire to have you completely.

As time goes by, it could not be if feelings of love will grow between us. It's gonna hurt me more when I see you with her.

It's impossible that in the end you'll be mine. Because your first wife is more entitled to you, ma'am." Melati revealed with an intense gaze Fahmi who was fixated in front of him.

Fahmi moved his eyes the other way. The smile that had been engraved had suddenly disappeared. I don't know what he felt when he saw Melati last afternoon at the wedding. His heart is beating fast.

And at this time, his heart was so sore hearing Melati's statement. He looked at the face of ayu in front of him, there was nothing wrong with Melati's desire. But the desire desired by his wife was so heavy for him. I don't know why he doesn't.

"Okay Melati, I appreciate your wishes." He smiled forcefully.

For a moment they were silent. And Fahmi glanced at the blanket and pillow beside Melati. Then he glanced towards the bed.

"Did you take the blanket." Pointing to the side Jasmine.

Melati. Fahmi sighed, "You want to sleep on this sofa?"

Melati nodded back.

"Sleep there, let me sleep here. You're a woman, it's impossible for me to let you sleep so uncomfortably."

"No, you're my husband. I don't want to make you tired and sick when you wake up."

Fahmi. "Sleep please."

Jasmine circulated her gaze, she seemed to be searching for sense.

"When did you sleep in your first wife's room?" Melati said with tightness in her chest. Just look at the beginning he already felt the feeling of sharing. Although his heart had not loved Fahmi, it still hurt if his own had to be divided like this.

"You kicked me out?" Fahmi raised his eyebrows next to her.

"No. That's not what you mean, it's just that it's not wrong for you to sleep in your wife's room?"

"You're my wife too."

"But if you're here you have to sleep in an uncomfortable place." He lowered his head.

"alright. I'm going to Sasa's room. If you need anything, you know for yourself that my room is next to this room. Just tap whenever you want." Said Fahmi getting up from the sofa and leaving Melati alone in the room.

Stay alone Melati here. The night that was supposed to be very beautiful for the newlyweds became very stifling for him.