Zaidan's Regret
Don't Torture Yourself

Chapter 34

"Related Zaidan"

Mommy sighed, looking closely at Doni's pair of eyes.

Mother nodded back.

"But bun.."

Doni did not continue his words.

"Mother has no right, to explain Amanda's private life, especially her marriage matters."Mommy said, with sad eyes, like saving something.

"Yes bun, Doni understands, may happiness always accompany Amanda.."Doni said, for some reason his heart said, if there is anything strange about Amanda and Zaidan's marriage.

Because, Doni knows the love story of a Zaidan. Believe it and not, when I find out if Amanda is the wife of a Zaidan.

At the moment, Doni was busy with his thoughts. Suddenly, he was shocked by the presence of Amanda, who was sitting next to his mother.

"Amanda.."Call Doni, look Amanda in the face.

"Dion, you've slept, brother.."Amanda said, smiling.

"Sorry, if Dion bothers you Manda."Doni, keep staring at Amanda's face.

"Dion, this cute, smart and submissive kid, so no hassle, you must know, if your little sly sister is this, she really likes children.."Amanda stared at Doni's pair of eyes, which a dozen years ago always admired her.

"Until now, your eyes haven't changed, the eyes that have always provided comfort and warmth to me.."Inner Amanda.

"My little Amanda, she's metamorphosed into a simple, mature Amanda.."Inner Doni.

Without realizing it, they also looked at each other.

Mother also realized that.

"Doni, Amanda, you go inside first, you want to prepare lunch.."Say mother, while getting up from her sitting.

Mother's words, made them gasp in shock.

Amanda immediately turned her face away, and rose from her seat.

"Lho, where are you going, Manda..??"Ask mom, with a surprised look.

"Surely, help you cook."Amanda replied, astonished by my question.

"No, there's already mba Narti who helps mother, you're here just accompany Doni, you haven't met for a dozen years.."Mother patted Amanda's shoulder gently, then stepped into the home, Amanda and Doni died.

Amanda, smile clumsily, and sit back in her chair.

"Amanda..".

"Of Anggara ."

Call them at the same time.

They throw smiles at each other.

"You're Amanda first.."Doni kept staring at Amanda.

"How's it going, brother all this time..??"Ask Amanda.

"As you can see, good brother, even brother already has Dion, who calls you mamah.."Doni smiled again, Amanda.

"If it's Dion's mother..??"Ask Amanda carefully.

"Manda, I'll tell you the truth about all my personal life, but I also want you to tell me the truth, about your personal life.."Doni's face, looking very serious, with fixed eyes.

"The story of my life, there's nothing special sister."Amanda said.

"Then, my life story too, there's nothing special to tell."Reply Doni, while leaning his body on the back of the chair, with both hands crossed on the chest, and still staring intently at Ananda.

Amanda turned her face away, avoiding Doni's gaze.

"Zaidan Radthya and Devina Deswita, who were married just three days ago, were on their honeymoon trip to Bali, and last night they just arrived in Turkey, can you explain this to me Amanda Maheswari..??"Zaidan said in a repressive voice, staring hard at Amanda.

Doni's question, leaving Amanda stunned, she just fell silent.

"Really, Zaidan and Devina are in Turkey.?"Inner Amanda, uneasiness appeared on her face.

Doni caught the unease. He also breathed.

"Amanda, never torture yourself, with something painful.."Say Doni in a soft voice.

He leaned his body, so that their distance became close.

"You don't deserve to be treated like this Manda, you have the right to determine your happiness and future.."Say Doni again, holding Amanda's fingers.

Amanda who was thinking about Zaidan, again jerked because of the touch of Doni's hand in her fingers.

"Amanda realized, he was happy with his chosen wife, they were going through beautiful days, and their togetherness must be very long, do you want to continue to torture yourself like this..??"Doni asked, her eyes constantly staring at Amanda.

Amanda was unable to answer, she stared at Doni's face which was very close to her.

Clear circles already seem to boil in his eyeballs.

"Cry Manda, if you want to cry.."Doni touched Amanda's face gently.

But, suddenly Amanda seemed aware. He immediately brushed off the rough hands of Doni who was on his face, and released the hand of Doni who was grasping his fingers.

Amanda pulled her body away from Doni, so there was now some distance between them. Doni was surprised by Amanda's attitude.

"Sorry sister, I'm a married woman.."Amanda said.

Doni smiled cynically, hearing Amanda's statement.

"Amanda realized, your husband is enjoying his honeymoon with his new wife, his much loved wife.."Doni shook his head, not understanding Amanda's way of thinking.

Doni frowned, then looked at Amanda with intimidation.

"What, has he touched you..??"Doni asked with a thumping chest, she was expecting unspoken words from Amanda's lips.

Plakkc...

A slap landed on Doni's face.

The slap that made Doni choked, he immediately held her cheek, and looked at Amanda in disbelief.

"Kak Anggara, it is not right and disrespectful to ask me like that..!!"Amanda immediately stood up, and said in a slightly raised voice.

"It's my personal business, we've only met a dozen years, but you've been willing to manage my life, even you don't deserve to interfere in my household affairs..!!"Say Amanda again, with a red face.

As strongly as possible, Amanda held the clear circle, so as not to fall down flowing on her face.

Doni is independent.

"Amanda, 15 years is indeed a very long time for us to meet again, and I have no rights at all with your personal affairs, but I am your brother, I love you very much, he said, I don't want you to be tormented.."Doni said, in a soft voice.

Degs..

"Sister..??"He just thinks I'm a sister."Amanda said inwardly, while bowing her face, so that a clear circle immediately flowed on her face.

"Manda, we all love you very much, especially mother, she must be very sad, if she sees you tormented.."Doni held softly onto Amanda's shoulders, with both of her hands.

Doni immediately took Amanda into his arms. The hug Amanda missed after 15 years.

"Cry if you want to cry.."Doni's whispers are soft, while stroking Amanda's hair.

Moments later, Amanda spills her tears in Doni's arms.

Until the end of her waking up, she immediately pushed Doni's body violently, and released her embrace.

Amanda immediately snatched her bag, and ran away leaving Doni glued to Amanda.

"Yetoo.."Call Doni, and go after Amanda.

Amanda ignored him, she kept running.

Amanda breathed a sigh of relief, as all the orphanage children were inside the parlour, preparing themselves for the dzuhur prayer and eating together. So no one saw Amanda's messed up state.

Amanda was very grateful, because near the orphanage, there was a base object, so Amanda easily avoided Doni.

Doni just stared at the nanar, Amanda's back that disappeared with brother ojek.

"Like her, I'm acting too fast.."Muttered Doni, while harshly wasting his breath.

With frustration and careless steps, he returned to the home.

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By motorbike, Amanda did not take long, to arrive at Radthya's new home.

After paying the fare, he immediately entered the house, and headed straight for the room.

He dodged, to meet with the workers in the house, with his circumstances seemingly chaotic.

Arriving in the room, Amanda immediately dropped herself on the bed, and cried as it became.

His chest felt very tight, considering all the things he was living.

"I know, what Anggara's sister said, it's all true, but I can't leave Zaidan.."Amanda is back sobbing.

Drrt.drrc ..

Amanda's phone was on, indicating an incoming call.

Amanda, too, rubbed her rough tears, and grabbed her phone.

"Mother.."Amanda said.

He closed his eyes, took a breath and threw it away, trying to calm his heart, so that his voice did not sound like crying.

"Hallo, Assalamualaikum mother.."Amanda said, trying as quietly as possible.

"Waalaikumsalam, Manda are you okay .??"There was concern in my voice.

"Manda is fine bun, I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye, because.."Amanda doesn't continue her words, she's confused as to what to explain.

"There's no need to explain Manda, you understand."Answer mother.

"Thank you mother.."Said Amanda, with clear circles back flowing.

"Yes, you just want to make sure you're okay."Say Mother again, across the street.

Amanda, suddenly remembered something.

"Dion, are you awake .?"Amanda asked worriedly, because Dion was staying while she was asleep.

"Dion, still sleeping, you don't have to worry, you'll tell her.."Mother said, which made Amanda breathe a sigh of relief.

"Thank you mother.."

"Beloved, Assalamualaikum."

"Goddessalam.."

Amanda sighed, as the phone closed.

Amanda regained her senses, and tried to close her eyes, and she fell asleep.

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Tok.dok..

"Mrs Amanda..".

A tap and a call, awaken Amanda from her slumber.

He was surprised by what else the wall clock showed at 6 pm. He rubbed his eyes to make sure his return, it turned out that the time had shown at 6 pm.

Tok.dok.

"Mrs Amanda."

Back knocking on the door, and the call startled Amanda.

Amanda, too, immediately moved from her bed, towards the door of the room and immediately opened her.

"Mom Darmi.."Call Amanda in a hoarse voice.

Bi Darmi was stunned for a moment by Amanda's face.

"Sorry madam, please remind me that dinner time is almost here, and like her, the lady has missed lunch.."Said bi Darmi, with a face full of questions looking at Amanda.

Amanda realized, if she hadn't eaten by lunch.

"Thank you mom, I'll take a shower first.."Answer Amanda.

"Good mistress.."Bi Darmi also nodded respectfully, as it passed from Amanda.

Amanda immediately cleansed herself, she looked at her face in the mirror, looking under her puffy eyes, from crying too much.

With a sigh, Amanda affixed a little foundation, to disguise her swelling.

When all is done, Amanda gets ready to go down to dinner.

With a slightly lazy step, Amanda descended the elevator towards the dining room.

Deg ..

When he reached the dining table, two pairs of eyes were staring at him sharply, like he was skinning him.

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"Who are those two pairs of eyes..??"

What caused Amanda, not being able to leave Zaidan .??

Meet his answers, and wait up next.

Don't forget to leave a trail 😊🙏