Who Am I In Your Heart?
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“did I choose someone wrong and why did all this happen to me?” by looking at the sea water in front of me, my heart continued to be turbulent and I did not feel my tears had washed my cheeks. “Rev! said someone who turned out to follow me. “kak Eno! My words then rubbed my tears. “ngga papa again, continue to cry until you are satisfied, until the pain in your heart is slightly reduced! Said Eno who then stood beside me.

“kakak alone right? Say. “iya! cry it? tired nih. . Sit in the car yuk! Said brother Eno who then took my hand and opened his car door for me. “nih drink first! Said brother Eno gave me 1 bottle of mineral water. “go home! I then closed the car door and put on my seat belt.

45 Minutes drive from the beach to the city and I was just silent, “Rev, where are you going? Ask brother Eno. “ke kost sis! I said briefly. “mu eat first? Ask Eno. “no, later! My speech.

Arriving in front of the hostel

“thank you brother! I said that then release the seat belt and open the car door, but. . “ngga can nih I behind your state of kayak gini! Said Eno. “gue no papa, already yes brother, I want it myself! I said, who then left Eno and went into the room and locked the room.

“gue bego or you are a jerk, brother, when I have started to love you, you even hurt me, always like this before! I said while looking at my picture with Brother Eka. Tok tok. . . “Rev, you in dalem! Say Dance. “bucain door Rev! say Dance. I ignored Dance and rushed to the toilet to refresh myself.

Meanwhile, Eka tried to call me repeatedly, but there was no answer from me. He began to worry, repeatedly trying to ask my whereabouts to brother Eno because Rivia was still in a weak condition and Mama Rivia did not allow Sister Eka to leave Rivia.

At 22:00

I decided to leave the hostel when all residents have entered the room. “where is the destination? Ask the taxi driver I ordered. “to the XXX bus terminal yes sir! My speech.

Keeseokan.

Tari still tried to knock on my door and called out my name, as did Eno and Eka's sister who tried to force open my room, but after the door opened, nil . . . they didn't find me. They tried to find me, to Ila's sister's house, to Ayu's house, to aunt's house and even to contact my parents.

“Rev, you still want to eat again? We ate a lot of food, are you okay? Ask a man to me. “yah, I laper bangettttt. ..stuffed. . . and this is really good food. I said while eating all the menus I ordered. “iya anyway Rev, but you are not as usual, you again have a problem? Ask me. “not, I'm fine, I eat, I bribe! I said. “enggak, you no longer good aja, revi please see me! He said, then took my hand. I also began to be silent, it is not easy to pretend Happy when the heart hurts. “iya you really, I am no good! My words then buried my face in his chest.

“why Rev, what happened? Say Vishnu while gently rubbing my hair. “ I am tired, tired of the same way of my life now, I do not know why all my choices are always wrong! Say. “again fight with your guy? Ask wishnu to me. I was silent without answering Vishnu's question

Flashbacks

That night I arrived at the city bus terminal S at 23:14 WIB, I don't know when I thought I would go home to calm down, but when I started to enter the terminal, I knew I would go home, a man who is not happy for me called me who just happened to drive his girlfriend who is also going out of town. He took me to his contract and asked me to rest. As if knowing what was going on with me, she accompanied me until morning, hugging me tightly until I was reluctant to shed tears.

Flashback off

“don't you guys get married again? Say wishnu. “yaaaa. . . 3 months away! Say. “continue to have any problems until you want to escape? Ask wishnu. “He's pregnant my friend! My words with trembling lips. “do you know yourself or you are horrified of others? Ask wishnu. “mama my best friend who asked me to leave him, you know what it's like to be me yesterday? I said. “its okay, already yes do not cry anymore, . you can speak well first with him, instead of you saying now we are not children anymore! Say Vishnu. “entahlah, I can not afford to meet him! I said. “you love so much is it the same? Ask Wishnu.

“iya, I just realized that I love him, but now that I have to forget him, I have to lose this feeling. Say. “you don't love me? Vishnu said it arrived and I released my embrace from Vishnu.

“kok you asked that anyway! My words which then rested my head on the sofa, “joking. Say wishnu who then take mineral water. “if you know, I have a hard time forgetting you! I said in my heart while staring at Vishnu.

“don't buy like that, love me again! Say Vishnu. “emang why if I love again, not that time you ask for a chance to come back for us again! Say. “so, can we dong back again! Say wishnu who then sat next to me. “udah ah, I pesen taxi, I returned yes, thanks already me, have been giving me food, has been horrified my story, anyway you best! I said while turning on the phone that had been more than 24 hours I turned off.

“don't hesitate to call me, if you need anything! Say Vishnu. “not it, not good with your girl! I said. “I've been anterin aja, don't take a taxi! Say wishnu. “don't, far away, already this malem, tomorrow you lecture! Say me. “just relax, I went to college during the day, yuk ah I anterin!