Who Am I In Your Heart?
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Today I am determined to forget everything and start a new life.

I got accepted to work and I decided to live independently. I chose to host a hostel near the factory where I worked, a good start for me. . I started to have a lot of friends and started to forget everything that happened to me, start to open your heart and start close to some guys.

“Taufiq”

He was a guy I knew a year ago through a group chat app. But I never knew where he lived all this time and it turns out that the world is not as wide as moringa leaves, he lives in one city with me now in the city of G. We began to meet, he was a good man, he never touched me at all, he was very polite even he amazed me with his perseverance in worship, he always invited me to the mosque when I went with him and coincided with the time of prayer, he made me aware of several things, until finally I decided to say “yes” when he expressed his love for me.

On the other hand, I met a man named “Setyawan” he is a mechanic in my place of work. I first met him, when he and the other mechanics were checking the engines in my division. He asked me to get acquainted and asked for my phone number at that time, yes I gave him my number. I don't know I was like a cheap woman back then, all the guys who approached me were always responding, there was even a guy who always looked at me, followed my break and was always there whenever I needed anything, “Adi” yes he is from a different division to me, but always take his time for me.

Here I will start telling you about my life with the men, yes maybe you will get bored because here there is only a story from my side and not much to tell about my friend, my friend, that's because the essence of this story is a journey of life that I went through until finally I myself wondered “who am I in your heart?

Long story short, though,

That morning me and some of my friends were queuing up to enter my room. “Eh look at that, that black hat by the door! Said Novi my friend. “which is it? Tanya puspita while glaring looking for what is meant by Novi. “it tuh, the face of the pupita was directed towards a white man, wearing a hat, neat and yes quite handsome. “why Nov emang, do you have a crush on a guy? Tanya Puspita. “so she is a famous handsome QC here, a lot of girls who want to be a girl, said Novi. “hah, ,seriously lu Nov, kayak guys are queuing a lot! Trivialize. I also began to enter my room and in my room must wear a Mask. “eh see, his eyes are very tajem if you see! Said Laila my friend. “who the hell? Ask my sister Laila who incidentally longer than me working in that place. “it's son QC” said Mr. Laila. “alah ngga kak, kak, already kak do not be diiatin kaka already razak girlfriend, ntar I aduin lhoh. .capku. “ih do not be deck, ntar I aduin lhoh, kaka just tell you doang if there is a cute QC here”, said Laila. I also did not discuss Laila's words and focus on working because at that time I had decided to establish a relationship with Taufiq.

My relationship with Taufiq has been going on for almost 1 month and that night Taufiq decided to take me to the city of S, yes a city that is indeed my main destination to come to this city, he said, every day I always said that I wanted to go to the city of S and that day Taufiq granted my wish. “Why are you really curious about this city, this city is stuck, hot, and yes gini gini aja, said Taufiq. “ya I was curious aja, .my words while looking out the window, enjoy the city of S that is now in front of my eyes. “we watch at Mall XXXX aja yes all eat there” said Taufiq. “I just follow me do not know also the area of this city, I said a little indifferent. Arriving at Mall XXX, Taufiq took my hand to the cinema, we also enjoyed a movie that was trending at that time “Twilight”, yes the film was very booming in his day. Seeing me so excited while in S city, Taufiq decided to take me to S city every time we walked without ever asking me my real reason.

3 Months already I live in S city and today is my introductory day with a QC friend who my friend said handsome. Today he served in the machine that I run, his eyes are sharp, from a distance his eyes are on me (geer may be me, but my feeling says he saw me). “eh Laila, from a distance, know dong temennya” he said behind a mask whispering to Laila. “Who Revi, yes already acquaintance but beware do not make you a victim yes, he is still innocent! Said sister Laila. “hei. . .why her to me with her sharp eyes. I only reply with a smile behind my mask. “open the mask dong? His words were then remove the mask. “what, so he's the guy Novi said at that time” said in my heart when I saw the face of the guy in front of me. “Eka” said as he reached out his hand, “revi, said me who then shook hands. “can ask for his phone number! Said Eka while issuing his phone. “ngga memorized kak” saidku. “nih number I have” said the Head of my division who arrived to approach us. “don't be tempted yes, he playboy. .said section chief to me. I just smiled too.

In the evening, my phone rang and an unknown number appeared on my screen. “halo. .sapaku. “eh Revi. .night Rev, he said. “who is it? I asked, “ini I Eka, QC who was acquaintance with you” he said. The conversation continued until late at night. Somehow since then I started to get close to Eka, she always approached me even though she was not watching my machine, she always looked at me with the look in her eyes that made my long-held heart feel this and then felt it back when she saw it. I also quietly dated 2 men, Taufiq and Eka. I don't know myself why I'm that brave and generous as a woman. Every work I was always with Eka even though we were dating quietly for fear that all friends knew and we chose to keep it a secret that we had been dating. “rev, I've learned yes to you, I've been interested in you, the same heart Eka! Said Laila. “iya brother, I said briefly. “He just got cut offin same temen deketku, her face looks a lot like you but my friend is a little shorter than you” said Laila (don't - don't she date me because I look like her ex-boyfriend, I said in my heart). “ he was very loyal to my friend, he wanted far away to pick up my friend from 5am he has arrived at my tea house and continue to come to the same factory, but do not know why they arrived to break up.” added Kak Laila. “oh so temen kaka work here too? I asked. “iya first but it has come out, but I think you want to come back here again deh, if you do not believe you can ask the same temen temen, surely all also say you are similar. Said Laila. Like being struck by lightning, again my heart was broken, is it possible that he approached me just because I look like his ex-girlfriend.

A few days later, I rarely saw Eka serving in my division and indeed she served in another division located next to my division. “eh in cariin Eka tuh sono. .said Mr. Laila who just greeted his friend in the next division.”hah, why did he nyariin I brother!my words that still do not respond to Laila. “sak deh him like, his face is very high, tuh dono him in the glass barrier, wait for you! Sis Laila. “hah, wait for me?I said. “iya earlier he told me to call you, already there!said sister Laila. “not ah brother, crazy shame I was there must be a child next door will ngliatin. Say. “why shy, many times Rev who want to deket same Eka, lhah you asked to meet him aja do not want, you know the next child on the steal look every time he passed? Obviously Laila. “iya yes, yes I have samperin bentar ya sak, nitip nih machine!my words that then passed leaving the machine and sure enough, Eka looked at me from behind the glass with a sharp eye highlight. “long really, he said from the division” dividing hole said Eka without awkward. “apaan, he said, shame is ignored!my words staring at the next division looked at me suspiciously. “ why shame anyway yank, Eka even pulled my hand! With a reflex, I pulled my hand back. “don't be crazy, what do you want to call me? I was worried. “gak papa, just here, nih hold my hand hot! Said his hand closer to me. “hisssshhhh. . . yes I'll go home later I meet you yes, I said. “ first open the mask dong, want to see you, want to see you, some days we will not meet, like the head of my section knows if we are dating, so I am not given to keep your machine” he said. “not ah, shame . Ah I returned yes! I said. “ehem.. .ehem .. .ehem. . Those who saw me talking to Eka also cleared their throat , , , without a second thought I left Eka and went back to my machine. “why Eka? Ask Kaka Laila. “ngga know not clear! Saying. “lu no longer dating is the same Eka? Ask Laila full of suspicion. “kok nanya is that sis!my words, “ya no, strange how you two if again papasan, look at the gaze, continue also like hiding something like that.”ucap kak Laila.

At 14:00 AM local time, we rushed to leave the machine because the working hours were over and alternated with other shifts, when I walk with Laila, it is not uncommon for men from other Shifts to greet me and Laila's sister, people say Kak Laila was the most beautiful girl in my Division at that time and because I 1 machine with her, often come home with her many also began to know me, they often greet me and even tease me. As I was talking to one of the men from the day shift, Eka walked towards me and Laila's sister along with the other QC friends. Indeed, the image of QC in the eyes of factory women like that seems very well, it is because they are dressed neatly and of course their salaries are more and more than us, many eyes look at them amazed.

“eh kak Eka jalan here, may our machine kak Eka deh who take care of ya, auhhhh very handsome deh .cap one of the female employees beside me. “iya deh like emang Eka, we haven't seen you in a long time either! Say partner. Hearing their chat, I turned to look at them all looking at the QC, “yuk Rev back! Take Laila who has completed her chat with one of the male employees. “Eh Rev, where dong your phone number, right I ask from when the day! Habibi said pulling my hand that was about to leave, but suddenly Eka threw Habibi's hand that made his hand detach from my hand. “wihhh relaxed boss, said habibi who then raised his hand. “wau what you? Eka cengengesan. “Bos habits, want to ask for a phone number, hehehehh said habibi. “nih I have, want? Said Eka, “nah Rev, Eka aja you laasih your number, I asked from a year ago aja nga you love! Said Habibi. “very bad Lu bib, just enter here only how many months have been another year said you, yuk ah Rev! Laila pulled my hand and I followed her, “Yank, check HP! Eka said a little hard and made the girls look at me. “ihh. . crazy yes Eka called you Yank, emang already not sane, eka, be a little bit more girls will be neror you! Said Laila. “serem very sis! My speech. “Lu know that all the girls here adore to adore Eka! Said Laila. “Kok brother engga! I said. “gue already know how rotten he is, where maybe I like him! Said Mr. Laila and we went into the locker to change uniforms and take bags. “ayuk cepetan, queueing for absence out, said Mr. Laila. “iya kak yuk. . . I walked out of the locker to the absentee. “Rev to the cafeteria bentar yuk, take Laila. “tumben kak, usually if you're back don't want to stop by again! Saying while fixing the jacket. “iya want to meet with my dear. .heheheh! Say Mr. Laila innocently. “so mosquito dong me! My speech.

Arriving at the canteen.

“yank sorry yes long time, said sister Laila who has met her lover. “kak I wait in sono ya! My words were then walking towards the front door of my division along with some employees who are still gossiping, yes you could say they are Lambe tournya my division. “eh Revi, the impact of lu hour so far is still wild here, yes, usually also already eat meatballs in front of the boarding house if I pass in front of your boarding house. “ah can ae lu mak, it was waiting for Laila's sister again dating mak! Said me who then sat next to their hordes. “lah you why wait for people to date. .ucap brother Nia. “ No, sister Laila wants to stop by the boarding house so all back together sister! My answer. “Wah there playboy want to go through this, watch out for the eyes of your husband at home!mak Lambe said to the horde and when I saw it turned out he was “kok not yet returned? Eka stopped her steps and approached me. “eh yes it was waiting for Laila! I said briefly. “heh already sono in, do not disturb the Revi yes, she baek baek girl, do not you sedain, kasian people far away him!said mak lambe. “lhah, if he wants how dong mak? Ask her while rubbing my hair. “Lu dating Eka? Tanya sister Nia whispered to me. “what the heck whispered? Said Eka and I also stood from my place, “I go back first huh? Said me who saw Laila's sister walking from the canteen. “iya already ati ati, ntar I returned directly I picked ya, said sister eka lirih while removing her mask. “ya dariitadi napa open the mask, do we also want to see a seger seger yak. .celtuk one of the hordes. “kamu still not feeling well? I asked who then they even pulled my hand and put the back of my hand to his neck. Seeing the scene they all uuwuuuwww ria as if this is the ter hot gossip that they will make ghibah material that afternoon. “ihhh what the hell, ntar they know again! My words then release my hands from their grasp. “biarin aja they know, bodo very! Say Eka. “h ah I'm back, . Mak, sister ni, all I go back first yes. . . pamitku to them and walk over to kak Laila. “ati ati rev, pamitku, beware of washing clean hands so as not to cantol same eka! Said sister Nia. I just smiled at their words, and not long “yank, ati ati ya. .yelling them while waving his hand. I turned my head and my sharp eyes fell on Eka. They cheered, “dek, are you dating the same? Have you called twice brother Denger yank that? Ask Laila full of suspicion.