When My Wish Is In Line With My Destiny
41. That Feeling Still Exists?

Two years have passed, that time has not gone by for long. All the turns felt so short.

With so much busyness done Zain while in Cordoba, without him knowing soon the lecture is finished.

In addition to the busyness of his lectures, permission also fills his free time by trading books that are Islamic. Zain never asked his parents for any fees, including for his daily needs in the city.

He tried himself to meet the needs of his life there. Yes, even though every month Mr. Ilham always wanted money for his eldest son there.

Every time there is money left from the sale and also the shipment from Mr. Ilham Zain always save it as savings. Savings that will be useful for him in the coming days.

Not only Mr. Ilham who sent the cost to him. Zain also did not forget his family there, when his book trading business increased the results also quite occasionally Zain sent newspapers and also money to the family who were there.

Not a few people who put admiration on the young man. Because of his many impressive feats of hard work. Zain is often called as the speaker who represents all Indonesian students at every important event held in every city in Andalusia.

That afternoon, Zain went to the cafeteria on his campus. After the lesson was over, his stomach was hungry because it had not been filled with any food.

Zain along with Rayhan went to the same place to relieve their hunger. While waiting for their food to come, Zain reopened his textbook for a discussion of tomorrow's material.

"Zayn."

"Hem." said without seeing Rayhan at all.

"When do you plan to go back to Indonesia, Zain?"

"Not knowing Ray, maybe after graduation" he replied.

Rayhan just nodded.

"This is Snack."

a waiter delivered food to them.

"Thank you."

the waiter just nodded with a smile.

Their lunch meal was already on the table, Zain closed his book and started going to eat.

"Today you're going to the store?" rayhan asked in between their meals.

"I don't think it was Ray" she replied.

"Why?"

"Today I'm not fit, I want to rest first. Maybe tomorrow I can go to the store again."

Rayhan nodded again at Zain's reply.

Indeed, what he saw at this time was a slightly unhealthy rain, his face also looked pale.

"Zain, you must take care of your health, do not be too busy with activities. Fear of college you will be disturbed." he said.

"Yes Ray." said with a smile.

"What are you thinking about, what is the state of your family in your homeland?"

"Alhamdulillah is fine, only the mother is not healthy anymore."

Rayhan was momentarily silent.

"I know, maybe you're like this because I'm not in the same way your mother was there. Maybe he misses his son who is far away" said Rayhan.

Zain fell silent and stopped eating.

"Well, this is how Zain risks being away from parents, especially not coming home for years" he said.

"Mom misses me so much Ray. I also can't bear to see a mother like that if I go home to Indonesia" Zain said while staring at Rayhan.

"Help me dong Ray, give me an opinion so I don't keep thinking of mom."

Raihan was silent because he was confused to say whether he also had no solution for this one friend.

"Em.. gini aja, if the advice from me anyway you better pray first to calm your mind. Ask God for the best solution, if you have to go home yes you do not delay again, pity your mother there" said Rayhan who issued his opinion.

Zain interrupted with a smile and continued eating until he finished.

"How's Ica doing there?" rayhan asked suddenly while patting his shoulder.

"Came?"

Zain immediately remembered someone.

"Yes, Ica."

"Do you know Ica?" zein said, asking.

Zain's question made Rayhan smile.

"Well not Zain" he replied with a smiling face.

"You know the name Ica."

"Rayhan is what the hell you don't know, about the content of your feelings right now I just know" replied Rayhan with a joke.

Zain breathed.

"Zain, we've been living here for 3 years. I'm you're all from your other friends. And I also know why Zain wasn't easily attracted to the other women here, because he was keeping his feelings for the woman he currently had in his heart."

Zain could only fall silent and shake with a smile.

"Does he have the same feelings as you Zain?"

"I don't know" she answered briefly.

"Until now I don't know how he's doing there."

"But I'm sure that Ica also has feelings for you. You guys are keeping each other's feelings or language in love in silence" said Rayhan.

"Why can you talk like that from where do you know?" ask Zain who is increasingly suspicious of his friend.

"Yes, that's my hunch."

"But Zain, you have to fight for your feelings, don't let him belong to anyone else, I'm sure one day you will be united" Rayhan said with confidence.

The look in his eyes showed just how strong Rayhan's confidence was with Zain's feelings.

Zain himself did not say anything to his friend he just fell silent with an erratic feeling.

"O yeah, I didn't see Maheira today?"ask Raihan.

"For what day Maheira does not go to college because there is a family business in Australia" replied Zain.

"Oh that." said Rayhan with a nod of the head.

"Why do you miss him?"

Rayhan just smiled.

"Judah I first yes Zain, today there is a schedule to enter the perpus" said Rayhan who immediately left before Zain replied to his words earlier.

"Rayhan's... Rayhan." said Zain with a smile.

Zain was still silent in his place, there was nothing else he could talk to. His mind was now on someone after all this time he tried to forget him for a moment.

"God, why is this feeling still there and getting stronger. Take care of the heart of the servant, God take care of him who is there, if he is good for the servant, unite us. But if he is not the best for you then remove this feeling and keep the servant away from him.Hamba leave everything to you rob the heart of his servant."

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Two years passed already leaving so many memories for Icha. A bitter memory of the time when he had to be left for good by Rania a few months ago.

Losing a mother is the hardest thing he feels especially to be venomous forever.

Actually in this state Ica still hit with the departure of her mother, but all that is not a hindrance to Ica again rise and eliminate her sense of mourning.

Now Ica chose to mention herself by studying at an Islamic university in Jakarta. His busyness also makes Islam a bitter impression that he had experienced several years ago.

"Come."

Dawn came near with its wheelchair.

"Yes pa."

Icha was busy in front of her laptop.

"Well, why eat? or is papa taking a shower? let Icha prepare." said Icha who made an offer to him.

"No boy, papa just wants to see you" said dawn to the girl.

Icha replied with a smile.

Dawn continued to pay attention to her daughter who was still busy with her college assignments.

"Have you no plans to get married yet, son?" dawn asked suddenly in their silence.

it stopped his hand that was still typing, himself momentarily speechless.

"No" he answered.

Dawn breathed.

"Aren't you thinking there yet?" ask Dawn again.

"Not yet pa. Icha still wants to focus on college."

"Why did papa suddenly ask like that do you want Icha to get married quickly?" Icha asked him back.

"Papa just ask. papa see you still enjoy your youth so papa asked like that."

we face her face with a smile.

Icha got down from her seat and embraced Dawn from behind who was in her wheelchair.

"Icha is not ready to start a new life with others. Icha still wants to spend young time with papa" Icha said in her embrace.

Dawn responded with a smile.

"Icha so dear to papa. Icha still wants to be with papa, if Ica gets married later, Icha will not have much time to continue with papa, for sure, icha time will certainly be more to the husband than to papa." his ideal by being spoiled.

"Papa also love you. Papa also wants to always be with you. But you are a girl, in time you will leave papa and be with your husband." she said, wiping Icha's head.

"If there is a man who is ready to take responsibility for his father's son, he's a gentle, kind, handsome, loving man would you accept him to be your priest?" dawn asked with her eyes staring at her daughter's face.

Icha was silent for a moment, then sighed.

Icha did not answer him he just showed his smile.

"Is there someone you're waiting for, ca?" said Fajar who gave his daughter another question.

Icha was still silent and thought her memory was on someone who was mastering her current feelings.

"Come."

The girl's face was down, she was still silent and had not answered her papa's question.

"Don't you see, Ica is waiting for someone?" said Icha who asked back.

"Em seems to be it."

The girl laughed at the reply from her father.

"People know ah."

"It's not that papa is pretentious, but it looks like the boy from the look on your face is harboring feelings."

Icha was silent again.

Dawn so recognize his daughter, although his familiarity has only walked 3 years with him but he has been able to recognize the feelings of his daughter until now.

"Oh God, what is this? why suddenly my mind remembered by him this feeling is increasingly not because.when it has been more than 2 years it no longer thinks about him , but now the feeling is there again.Astaghfirullah haladzim. O Allah forgive me. I'll leave everything to you, Robbi."