Wasted Child
Emotions Rena

"For Budi, it's Sunday, tomorrow I'm at work. Today I'm going back to the hostel".

"Again, how sudden, what's wrong? Did you just get your shirt here and tomorrow can I take it and pick it up?"

"I'm the same you're not married, we're still dating and just the beginning, I don't want any demons through the know-how. You sleep in your room, I sleep in my room.

"Ok, I know, I owe you the same explanation. Confiscate my ex-boyfriend, we broke up because he was caught cheating. Every time I date has to be disturbed by it. I finally decided not to date again for 7 years. I'm tired of going out and playing games, I want to get serious and get married. And now I'm going out with you and I want us to go to the next level of marriage".

"Are you sure we're getting married?"

"My parents are indeed on duty abroad and it turns out that the mother of one of Aunt Silvani's patients because of the condition of her troubled womb, Mama, that's why Aunt Silvani knows who I am and she agrees that you're my boyfriend. My parents know about you from Aunt Silvani".

"Continue".

"Om Tito was one of my papa's confidants, and I didn't know what the connection was until Om Tito last night at Tanti's wedding". And with last night Om Tito saw meet you and talk like that, he agreed that you were a good girl. Your problem is staying here, actually I asked for and permission from Aunt Silvani"

Budi saw the flat expression of Rena.

"Tante Silvani hopes that you will occupy his currently empty house. And I'll make sure that as long as you stay here I won't be rude. At least just kiss and hug". He grimaced and scratched his head.

"Yes it's aji mumpung, I don't want to be labeled as a matre girl. At least your parents already know that I'm a kid that my parents don't want and they must think I'm the one who bounces around with you to want to be your girlfriend".

"No Rena, my parents know that I'm the one chasing you for your love. I really love and love you. Please believe me, Rena".

" You love and love me now. But do not know tomorrow-tomorrow will your love and affection to me will change or stagnate? We never know Budi. And as for believing in you, sorry I can't trust you completely. Because I know my position and condition. I'm still trying to believe in myself to this day. Everything needs a process. When your love for me is gone, it will be gone, but when you accept me with all my shortcomings and advantages, then there will be love. Regarding affection, we can love anyone because the affection does not demand and accept all things, both the advantages and disadvantages of the people we love and it will be eternal"

"Yes Rena, yes. I accept all your shortcomings and advantages. To me, you're the perfect woman".

" Now you may see me as perfect, but tomorrow you may see that I am not a perfect woman anymore. I'm not the perfect kid for my parents. Until they dumped me and didn't admit me! "

Rena cried when saying the last sentence, Budi immediately embraced Rena and calmed Rena. Budi let Rena cry without speaking a word to give Rena a chance to vent her emotions during this time.

Almost 1 hour Rena was crying in Budi's arms and Budi's clothes were wet by Rena's tears. Rena realized that Budi's clothes were wet, she immediately released herself from Budi's embrace and ran up to Budi's room. Arriving at Budi's room, Rena towards the closet, opened and took one of the clothes in the fold and immediately ran towards the door to give a clean shirt to Budi and ran down.

Budi still standing in the same place did not move only his eyes that followed every movement of Rena's gestures. Rena then handed over the clean clothes to Budi.

"I'm sorry, 'cause I got your clothes wet and dirty. And I'm sorry I went to your room to get this clean shirt, change your wet clothes".

Rena simply nodded her head and went towards her room. Budi menhatjikkan Rena who stepped into his room after that Budi walked to his room to clean his body which was also wet because of Rena's crying.

Throwing himself in bed. Rena, you are the girl I've been looking for all this time. And your inner wounds make you so fragile. You always deny yourself. And you are a good girl who has a firm stand despite the many sufferings you have endured. As long as you are able, you try to make the people you love happy even if they do not accept you and only use you. Honestly, I really love and love you with all my heart. Sayup-sayup Budi heard the door of his room was knocked.

"Sir, eat, aunt has prepared her meal at the dinner table. Fright's cold".

" Yes, thank you, I'm out in a minute".

Budi immediately got up and tidied up his clothes then went out of the room and went down. There was only an aunt

"Where's rena? Called to eat?"

"Already, non Rena sleeping. I tried to wake up but slept well".

Budi stepped into Rena's room and knocked on Rena's room several times until Budi finally opened Rena's room and saw Rena who was asleep. Budi walked up to Rena and woke Rena up.

"Rena baby, wake up yuk, it's been a slang meal later you're sick if you're late to eat". Wake Rena up gently.

" I'm still sleepy dad, give me 5 minutes, I'm hungry dad, want to eat but don't hit me".

Budi heard what Rena said was sad, it turns out that Rena still holds her inner wounds. Budi immediately hugged Rena who was still asleep and made Rena wake up. Rena woke up because of Budi's embrace and made herself become short of breath.

"Sorry Rena, I woke you up by hugging you. Because you were talking hungry while you were still sleeping".

Rena's face flushed to hear Budi saying he was talking in his sleep.

" I'm hungry, I want to eat. I wash my face first".

Budi kissed the cheek of Rena who just woke up and made Rena's face reddened with embarrassment.

"Budi, I want to wash your face first, you go to the dining table later I will follow".

" Ok, ok, I'm waiting for you at the dinner table".

Rena nods her head and sees Budi walking out.