Wasted Child
Letter from Ernie
"Why are you Ren? Don't lie, you're out crying? Your brother called again?!"
"Gga papa, miss you" Rena tried to make Budi forget his question.
"I miss you too. Yes we have lunch well we have to buy for tomorrow and do not forget later tonight we meet Novi and Alex".
Rena nodded her head.
"Budi, I want to eat hodgepodge on 3rd padang road, you want to?"
"Ok my dear Renaku". Rena, a woman who does not demand much and for the business of eating is not complicated, likes fried rice, chicken noodles, gado-gado, ketoprak or asinan betawi. Budi is happy that his love has been received even though he is not sure that Rena began to love him.
They had finished eating Gado-gado in padang 3 and sweat soaked Budi's face because of the hot air while Rena looks ordinary.
"God, can I go back to my hostel? You mean I slept in my hostel? I don't want to trouble you continue. I want to be alone in my dorm room".
"Rena, it's not that I don't allow it but rather that your condition is still unstable, just like you cried. And you're diverting my question. What is the story really? If you still doubt that I accept you against your background you are wrong. I love and love you, whatever and whoever you are. I know there's still doubt in you. Let's just go and I won't do anything to you. Now that we go shopping, I know you don't have any clothes for Tanti's wedding. There is no rejection and not aji mumpung".
Rena shrugged her shoulders. Rena is still thinking about a letter from Erni saying that Erni is her biological mother. Rena wants to know the truth. But he was confused where to start.
"Baggio"
"Renaa, Renaa, why are you daydreaming? We've got to get out". Rena was surprised to find that Budi had opened the car door and was standing next to her. Rena got out of the car.
"Kok we're here, isn't it expensive all the clothes? I have no money to buy clothes here? And I haven't checked whether my salary's in or not?
Budi does not heed the talk of Rena, Budi holds the hand of Rena. And Rena was forced to follow Budi who had taken his hand.
Suddenly someone patted Rena on the shoulder and it turned out that Tanti was with a crossbred guy.
"Great are you Rena, so also mel**** are the same. It will be sweet enough to throw away. Oh yes Budi, Rena is like me, not a high-ting girl anymore heheheheh".
Budi looked annoyed by Tanti's words.
"Don't equate Rena with you, tomorrow you're married but you're leaving with another man. Don't ever bother Rena again, because she's my future wife! Understand you!"
Budi immediately went to join Rena. Not tomorrow Tanti will marry Bagas and why today she walks with another man? I don't know about Tanti's business. Budi brought Rena to a boutique in the shop. Rena gawked at the sight of really nice clothes.
"Budi, why come here? My salary with the price of this shirt is this shirt. I don't want to and I don't like the models that are too glamorous. After all, why buy expensive clothes if only disposable, the money can be used to donate to orphanages or help others. Sorry, we better get out of here. It's not a matter of you paying but more to the function and not fit, that's all". Rena turned around and came out of the boutique followed by Budi.
"Let's go home, okay, I'll stay at your house and I won't buy clothes. I'm wearing the clothes I have, everything's good".
Budi drove Rena home to Budi's house and followed Rena into his room.
"Why did you follow me into the room? You're not back at the office again?
"I want to love you, and not be rejected".
"Sorry Budi, I don't need your card, I still have money saved even though not much but I can still live with that money. I refused, because I am not your wife and I was not your wife yet, when I was your wife, I could not refuse anything you gave me".
"Ok, I'm leaving again. Don't cry anymore, a lot of stock your tears. Rest because tonight we have the same show Novi and Alex".
"Yaaaaaaa".
Rena feels tired once today more to tired of her brain. Life must go on, I can't keep thinking about my past. Until when should I be shut up and lament my past. I live for myself. Yes, I am thirsty for the love of parents that I have never had. God has given good and dear people to me even though I am not their family but they accept me, love me and love me. O God, thank you for all the trials that You have given. And now there is Budi who loves me but I am afraid because I am not who and what. I'm Rena and I'm not Thelma. Whoever my parents did not want me to be, I still pray for and love them. Rena was determined in her heart until she fell asleep.
At 8 00 Budi just got home. Aunt opened the door for her Master.
"Bi, where's Rena?"
"Still asleep, sir, looks tired. Aunty tried to wake Non Rena but didn't wake up".
"Yes let me wake Rena up, I want to take a shower and change clothes first, please prepare a meal yes Bi, thank you".
Go to her room and take a shower. After bathing and dressing, Budi immediately went to Rena's room, Budi knocked on the door several times there was no answer. Budi opened the door and saw Rena still asleep. Budi approached Rena and kissed Rena's forehead and cheeks. I want to feel Budi kissed Rena's lips, but he did not want to disturb Rena's sleep. Budi stood up, and his hand was held by Rena.
"God, just got home? Sorry I overslept. What time is it now?
"It's 9:00. You haven't taken a shower, let's get up and take a shower. It looks fresh and not like a withered flower. Aunty has prepared dinner, do not over time take a shower later the food is cold. I'm waiting at the dinner table".
Budi immediately came out of Rena's room and waited for Rena dj the dining table. Not how long Rena caught up with Budi who was waiting for him. They eat in silence.
"Let's go, can I talk to you? There's something I want to tell you about us".
"Ok, where are you going to talk? In the living room, in your room, on the porch or are we out?
"On the porch, but I'm asking for half an hour. I'm going to go to the room first".
" Ok, I'll wait ".
Rena went into her room. He tried to calm his heart to tell Budi. Rena can not imagine Budi's answer later. Life must go on.
