Wasted Child
I Love You Too

Rena can't sleep, Rena remembers her childhood events. Rena is crying again. They can't sleep either. Slowly Budi walked towards the guest room and from the door Budi faintly heard Rena's cry. I knocked on Rena's room door.

"Rena, what's wrong with you? You haven't slept?

Rena who heard the knock on the door got up from her bed and opened the door. Budi saw Rena who opened the door in a state of crying directly hugged Rena

"Rena baby, cry as long as it can reduce your sadness. I'm ready to hear your anger, your sadness. And one thing, pray for guidance to God. So that you are given inner healing for all the pain you feel so far".

Hearing Budi's words, Rena's cry became more and more. Be silent while still hugging Rena, even though her clothes have been wet by Rena's tears. Slowly the crying stopped.

"God, I'm sorry your shirt got wet. Forgive me for not being able to repay your love. There are many women more obvious than me. You already know about me, you already know that I am not wanted by my biological parents. I'm a banished child, and I don't know where I came from. I am not accepted by my birth parents and my father, my mother and my sister. I don't know when they'll take me again. I'm that kid...

Rena did not continue her words, because Budi kissed Rena's lips gently.

"Rena, I accept you, whoever you are, where you come from, who your parents are, I don't care, I accept you to be my lover and to be the mother of my children. I want to make you happy with no exceptions. I love and love you. If it's possible, let me propose to you today, and I'll ask for permission from Aunt Silvani and Om Bram".

Rena looked at Budi expressionlessly. Because Rena feels inappropriate for Budi. Rena hugged Budi and sank her face into Budi's chest. Budi stroked Rena's back gently. Rena let go of her embrace.

"God, thank you, I'm sorry to sleep first. I've been rather calm". Rena closed the door to her room.

Rena, whatever your answer, whatever your choice, I will always be there for you. Tomorrow I'll bring Rena to buy clothes for Tanti's wedding. Walk to his room.

" Good morning, I'm going to the office today". Rena approached Budi who was drinking coffee before leaving for the office.

"You're at work Monday. I'll take you somewhere later in the afternoon. So take a break, don't think about it and this, I forgot to give you an extra gift".

"Yes, Mr. Boss. Extra gifts for what? You've already given me a panda doll's birthday present".

"Open up?"

Rena opened the box given by Budi. A new phone and a small box.

"What do you mean give me a cell phone? My phone can still be used and it's still good why you should waste money on me. I don't like it. And this box, what's it like?"

"Just open it"

Rena opened the small box, Rena saw there was a necklace and ring.

"What is this for?"

"For you". Budi got up and took the necklace and put it on Rena's neckline and took the ring and then pinned on Rena's finger.

"I love you and I want to make you happy". Budi kissed Rena's head.

"Nothing but. You don't have to answer anything. The important thing is that I want you to be happy, even if you reject me. It's afternoon, I'm off to work, baby Rena, love you".

"Love you too". Rena unconsciously said that sentence. And Budi heard Rena say. ?pbudi immediately turned back and embraced Rena who was still sitting from behind and kissed Rena's cheeks.

"Thank you, dear Rena". Let's move our feet lightly. Because he heard Rena say I love you too.

"God, I'm coming, I'm going to my hostel. I miss my room. I'm not going anywhere. I just want to sleep in my room". Rena is after Budi.

"OK, I'll pick up for lunch and remember not to go anywhere. I don't want you to get sick anymore".

Rena is happy to finally let Budi go back to her boarding house. Budi escorted Rena to the front of her boarding house. Rena was about to get out of the car but Rena's hand was held by Budi.

"God, this has arrived, I want to go out, and you have to go to the office later exactly this is already 08.00. Take off my hands and I promise not to go anywhere, besides my bag and my wallet are still in your house. And I just brought a cell phone".

Budi leaned over to Rena and kissed Rena's forehead and cheeks, then let go of Rena's hand.

Rena just shook her head to see Budi's behavior.

Rena opened her dorm room and many letters were under the door. Rena immediately took the letters. There was a letter from Bagas and also a wedding invitation from Bagas. Rena put the letter from Bagas into the desk drawer, she did not want to open the letter. There was one letter from Erni but no delivery address. Rena tries to remember Erni's name but she has no friends or relatives named Erni. Rena immediately opened the letter.

...Rena, how are you? Now your name is Rena, and your father and I gave you the name Thelma, and you were born when we had no money at all. Finally we borrowed money to Pak Agus and Bu Ita as your father and mother who you have known. You're the kid we've been waiting for after all this time. Because your brothers are men. ...

...Since your birth, you have not found a job at all and every effort always fails. While life goes on, finally the father and mother lend money back to Pak Agus and Bu Ita, without Mother knowing it turns out your father made you a guarantee if we can not pay our debt. When we were about to move out of town, Mr. Agus took you from my mother's arms, and said that you were made a guarantee. I was angry and raging with your father. You were the only daughter we expected but my father thought that your birth made us suffer. I do not want to leave you with Pak Agus and Bu Ita. Finally I am sincere to release you, maybe it is your destiny like this. ...

...Mr. Agus and Mr. Ita always say that you live a healthy and adequate life, but they forget that Bude Party and Pakde Katino tell all things about you that are always made a victim. ...

...Rena or Thelma, I can only write to you and I beg you to open the door. Mother also sent me your photos when you were a baby before you were finally taken. Mom and Dad made a terrible mistake with you. And you were made an excuse because you didn't get a job. I know, after you read this letter, you will hate your mother and father even more. Since you didn't live with us and we moved out of town, you have a thriving business and your brothers can go to college. You have suffered until now. You are not a child we deliberately throw away, but because destiny requires us to be separated from you. ...

...I apologize to you for making you cry and hurt from childhood until now. ...

...Your mother, father and brothers love you, but you do not want to meet you because you feel guilty for giving yourself as security. ...

...Our mistakes in you have caused us to suffer the consequences. Once again forgive father and mother. ...

Rena folded the letter with mixed feelings. Rena does not believe if what is written in the letter is true mother or not. When Rena saw the photo as a baby, Rena cried. Current photos of Rena with father, mother, brother and sister also exist. Rena could only cry back. Rena's phone is ringing, there's a phone coming in from Budi.

"Hello Rena, I'm in front of your hostel, let's get out of the room, I'm waiting".

Rena immediately went to the bathroom and washed her face so that it was not too visible that she had cried