There You Are Within You
Eleven

Instead of wrestling with the ambition of wanting to forget, a broken woman must simply enjoy all her wounds and feelings until those feelings disappear on their own..

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Vania has arrived at the boarding room, the most comfortable place for the fragile self to hide after outside activities. Return to being the real Vania after showing the cheerful and tough Vania out there. Vania put the Famy gift box, then took off her work clothes, then cleaned herself up. And it ends with the usual santuy fall.

Vania was lying on her back, staring at the ceiling of the room and preparing to sleep. But the eyes were not also closed, making his body riled back and forth. 😁

Vania then wakes up again, getting out of bed intending to dim the light of the room. Make the atmosphere in the room as comfortable as possible by replacing the room lights with bone white tumblr lights. Then as Vania is about to return to bed Vania sees a box from Famy that has yet to be opened. Also looking at the polar portrait pile box that he had pulled out of the room wall yesterday.

Vania then headed towards the object, touching the two boxes lying in the same place. Vania touched it, slowly opening the white box with a simple red pattern.

He saw a brown teddy bear as well as a piece of paper and a bar of silverqu*en chocolate. Vania has not expressed herself, she just saw the objects and then put them again into the box. But the next second the hand again took a piece of paper that was there. Open it slowly and then read the writing written on the paper.

The first time I saw your joking and spoiled, it made this heart become distraught. The cheerful attitude that you always create and your sweet smile that seduces, makes me always think of you. I tried to get close to you, but it was just a big smile you gave me..

*What should I pour in this piece of paper..

Even beautiful ink scratches can't represent this taste..

There are many things that you may not know about me, how much of all my bones are stored, even more of my love that I put in my heart for you..

Meeting you is a destiny, being your friend is a choice, but the growth of the feeling is out of my control..

I love you Vania..

I felt my chest pounding again after I closed tightly because of the past wounds.. You made me want to get to know love again..

I don't expect you to return this letter with forced love.. I just asked for permission that I would fight for you..

Fahmi. who loves you.. 🖤*

"It's Vania... Open hearts.. The cure for a broken heart is to fall in love again." said Vania who was in him.

"It's not that easy.. I don't want to make anyone else an outlet for my grief." Vania spoke to herself while still staring at the letter from Famy.

"Then at least let him show his love for you, Do not refuse and avoid again.. Let it all flow like water.."

"I can't forget him yet.."

"For forgetting is as difficult as remembering someone you never knew.. Begin to move so that your heart will recover.."

Vania argued with herself. Has anyone here ever experienced the same? Asking and talking to yourself is like crazy, but trust me...