Not for me
CHAPTER 46 - ERIKA'S LETTER

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Linda opened the gate of her boarding house.

"who are you looking for?" Linda was a bit surprised when she saw Reyhan in front of the gate.

Linda did not expect, Brama who used to have turned into a handsome man, dashing and authoritative, when not long ago it felt like this man graduated from college, the eternal student.

"Erika's there?" ask Reyhan

"Erika's? there's none. He doesn't have to be here anymore" Linda replied

"Where is he now? move where is it?" ask Reyhan curiously.

"I don't know, Erika didn't say anything, but wait a minute." Linda suddenly remembered the box that Erika had given her back then.

Linda went into her room, then came out with a box.

"It's..." Linda handed the box to Reyhan

"what's this?" ask Reyhan

"I know less. I just put the box in to hand it over to you" Linda replied

"All right then, thank you" Reyhan said

He wears his sunglasses, holds the box and enters his car. He stared at the box, curious about the contents inside.

He drives his car home, he will open the box at home later.

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"This is our home now ma, I think we'll be safe here. No one will bother us anymore" said Erika while hugging her mother.

They opened a food stall, just like when they were in Bandung. Yes, now they no longer live in Bandung, although their place is now more crowded, but they feel their lives will be much better here.

Erika and Elisha start looking for a job, while helping her mother in a food stall. While their father told them to rest, so that his health quickly recovered.

Erika breathed such fresh air, it felt like she had not enjoyed something like this for a long time. He is sure he will be able to forget everything he has been through, making him learn that he will be better again.

Erika bought a local newspaper to find a job. Since he does not have a mobile phone, he based on the newspaper only. Although his parents and younger brother had cell phones, he did not want to rely on them, he had to be able to do it himself, not want to trouble or trouble them.

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Reyhan went inside his room, still holding the box that Erika had left. About what it was, he still wondered.

Reyhan opened the letter

*Rey, sorry.....

Maybe I'm just as bad as leaving you. But I feel like this is the best way.

I don't know how you really feel, maybe you really love me or just play with my feelings.

At first, I didn't like you, I really hated it. But as time goes on, there comes a feeling of liking for you.

However, I think that's all I'm going to throw away, yaaa very far away, if possible I'll bury it deeply until I can't remember.

I don't know what you mean to approach me. Do you want to destroy me by making me like you, then dumping me like shit, like your dad ruined my family's life? No, that's enough, I guess.

I don't want you to ruin my life any further, now it hurts.

I'm leaving, assuming there's never anything between us, nothing ever happens. Suppose we never met and never knew each other.

Live each of our lives, I think this is the best. Marry the woman of your family's choice, who may already be yours today, and be happy with your parents. I will make both my parents happy and get married if I find someone nice and accept myself for who I am.

I'll give you back the phone you lent me so that there's nothing left of you in me.

Take care of yourself, I wish you all the best and I do not hold grudges.

Thank you for everything

Erika

**I am not what happened to me,

I am what I choose to become***.

Reyhan closed the letter. He is angry that Erika left him, he is also upset because it turns out his father Iha who has destroyed Erika's family.

Maybe Erika also already knows about all the rumors circulating about her and Fiona. It is precisely this that makes him the hardest hit, when he knows that it turns out that the man he likes, sleeps with other women.

Reyhan lowered his head, held his head and shouted. He can't accept all this. He lost Erika again for the second time.

First, when he graduated from college. He still has the prestige to admit that he likes the girl, until finally they separated because Reyhan has graduated.

And now because of her father and Fiona, yeah because of the two of them. I can't stay still. I'm gonna cancel this wedding, anyhow. They won't be happy, while I suffer here.

Reyhan folded the letter, put it in a box, closed it and kept it in the closet. He did not take his cell phone. He promised to find Erika, see you.