NAYA SARANGHAE'S
The Naya Saranghae Part 38

(pov ARDITO)

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No need to forget ...

Just released ...

Slowly ...

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Lately my life has been heavy. Staring at the sky was also so dazzling. Sometimes it feels unsettled. It's like being followed by thousands of guilt. I've been scared lately. I don't know why.

"Ardito!"

I looked at the voice calling behind me.

"It's good to see you again, Ardito."

"You-you?!"

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CAFES

"How are you?"

"Okay" I replied.

It feels a little awkward when suddenly having to meet with Dhini. The woman who works as a teacher in an SLB is Dalisa's cousin. I haven't seen him in a long time since my future wife left.

"Since three years ago, I have been searching for you" Dhini said. "I met Ardian that day and he told me you were moving abroad."

"He'em," I nodded as I sipped the americano I ordered.

"You're back here now. What does that mean, you've forgotten everything?"

"What?!"

Dhini smiled at me. His hand moved into the bag he was carrying and he took out a plastic package.

"I keep looking for you to give this away."

"What's this?"

The pain!

It suddenly hurt when I saw the contents of the package. A long maroon dress and a velvet box contained a small golden circle inside.

Dalisa-i remembered the last good times with him. These items have not been used yet.

"I'm sorry if I remind you of Dalisa again" Dhini said. "I only feel that I need to return these things to you."

"He'em."

"Ardito, go back to being a surgeon again!" I was a little surprised to hear Dhini's words. "Dalisa's death was neither your fault nor your failure as a surgeon. Don't waste your abilities just because of your guilt! If Dalisa were here, I'm sure he'd say the same thing."

"so." There was a tickle of tightness in my chest, but I was slightly comforted by Dhini's words. "Right now, I'm enjoying my profession as a general practitioner. That's fun."

"Wasting your hard work and letting go of your dreams, is that what you mean fun?"

"What?!" my peek.

Dhini got up from his seat and stared intently at me.

"Let go of your guilt .. live your dreams! That's why he fell in love with you - with the man who always did everything for his dreams. You're the best surgeon we've ever known, Doctor Ardito."

A smile from his face accompanied the footsteps of the steps that left me.

Living to pursue dreams. That principle I buried long ago. I've even forgotten.

***

ARDIAN APARTMENT

20.15 WIB

"Geez!"

"Hi, my dear sister. Hehehe ...."

"Geez! You're drunk, aren't you? Iiish ... shit!"

Flash back to the past is making me lose control. Half-conscious, I went to Ardian's house.

"Naya, take a pillow with a blanket!" There was a faint cry from Ardian who was carrying me to the sofa.

"What's wrong with her?" ask Naya.

"Without drinking."

"Did?!"

"Surely something has happened" Ardian said. "He's not a drinker, really. Never mind, let him sleep here! I'm so sleepy."

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"Akh .. pain!"

My head is in tremendous pain. My neck is like a cramp.

Ah, yes! I drank a lot earlier. My mind has been dead-end since I met Dhini. I got up from the sofa and walked towards the side of the door. I pressed the 'ON' button on the light switch until my eyes squinted slightly to adapt to the glare.

I looked at the classic wall clock hanging above the TV. It's still 2 in the morning. I went back to the kitchen to get water. My throat feels hot and dry. I think I'm crazy. I've never even had a drink like this.

"Huh .. adem!" A few sips of cold water slid into my hull. "Hem? The ardian?"

From the homepage there are lights on. The closer I get, the more the sound of a finger pressing on a computer keyboard or something.

"What meda?"

"Oh? Was I too noisy to wake you up?"

Apparently Naya. He was sitting on his laptop.

"Because you wake up and can't sleep anymore, just work" he replied.

"Novels?"

The girl nodded while sipping coffee from her cup.

The street looks deserted if observed from this fifth floor room. A breeze of wind slightly pierced the bone-feeling pain. There was still a sense of weight at the end of my back head, the view was still a little blurry.

"What's the matter until you drink that?" ask Naya.

"Ehm .. a little upset" I said, chuckling.

"Danish! It's old still fucked." He laughed too. "Ah, is this yours?" The plastic package that Dhini gave me.

"For you. That's a dress."

"Eh? Seriously?" Naya immediately opened the contents of the package in her hand. "Well, right! Real pretty. Who's this one?"

"Someone gave it to me as a gift" I replied lyingly.

"It could be giving a gift of a dress to a man" Naya grumbled. "Maybe he thinks you've got a wife."

"Mahaha ...."

"May I try?"

"As far as you."

He was always spontaneous. The kind of girl who is indifferent to circumstances. Never keep an image in front of others - that's how he is. I didn't think Ardian would fall in love.

"How, Doctor?"

The girl spun around while showing off the maroon dress in front of me. Her tiny body made her style stick perfectly and look beautiful. A little curly hair on the lower end - what's with my eyes? Is the effect of alcohol so great? I started hallucinating.

"Dialysis."

"Doctor-doctor .. what--"

I miss this feeling so much. Warm when I hold her. Sweet from the lips. I've missed him. I miss him so much.

"Stop!"

I felt my body being pushed against the marble wall.

"Na-Naya! Naya ... sorry! I-I don't-"

The girl looked at me with tears. Both of his hands closed his mouth. His body collapsed to the floor with his cries.

"Sorry! Sorry, Naya!"

What's with my brain? I could have gone crazy for my sister-in-law.

"You guys are here? What are?"

The two of us were blown away when Ardian suddenly appeared before us.

"May? What was? Why cry?" Ardian walked up to his wife who was sitting on the floor. "Why?"

Naya appears sobbing in Ardian's arms. As for me .. I continue to condemn my stupidity.

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07.15 WIB

"You took a taxi, Nay! I'm going to Ardito's mom's place for a second, there's a need for that."

"What?!"

The girl shrieked in surprise at Ardian's words. The atmosphere between us became a little awkward because of the incident earlier.

"Why not eat? Don't like?" asked Ardian who saw me from earlier just stirring my food. "Rapidly finish your food!"

After breakfast, I followed Ardian who walked out of his apartment. For a moment, I had intended to talk to Naya to apologize, but it seemed difficult. He kept avoiding me.

Tinkling sounds typical when the elevator opens, Ardian and I step into the silver box.

"What's wrong?"

"Hem?" I was a little surprised to hear Ardian's question.

"I kept quiet because I didn't want to fight with you in front of Naya."

I breathed heavily hearing his words. "You seen? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that!"

"Then I met Dhini" he said. "Is it because of Dalisa? That's why you're drinking?"

I chuckled at her words. "Suddenly I feel powerless in front of you. Ah, shit!"

"If you imagine Dalisa inside Naya and do another fool .. die, you!"

"Yes. I want to die too" I said with a little laugh. "From here you can tell that Naya can only give her heart and body to you. Even I was always there for him when you dumped him. How pathetic!"

"Stop thinking crazy!" ardian. "If this is all over, I'll take it away. I don't want to stay here anymore."

"He'em, me too. I want to go back to our hometown-Korea."

Sometimes, pretending to be okay is exhausting. I'm a little jealous of Ardian. From the past, he had always lived casually as he wished. Being a naughty teenager and enjoying his life. I want to be like that too.

Perhaps it was this envy that made me unable to get along with her. He walked too far in front of me until it was difficult to reach him. I thought, forever we won't be able to go hand in hand, it turns out I was wrong. Ever since the girl showed up, we started getting closer like brothers. Whether we have to or not, we need each other.

"Ardian, if you have some free time, would you like to go bowling together?"

"Hem? Why?" ask Ardian while stepping on the gas pedal of his car.

"Just get in. Want to take back the time that was wasted."

"Iish .. what the fuck!" his gerrick.

I don't want to forget, but I also want to keep going.

Goodbye, Dalisa.

I'm sorry, if slowly I have to let go of our memories.

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