NAYA SARANGHAE'S
The Naya Saranghae Part 33

(ARDIAN PV)

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💓You can erase memories, but you won't be able to erase feelings💓

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"Ardian, don't be like this!"

I'm curious about everything I've forgotten about him. Lately, I've seen her sad a lot just because I went out with Nadine. As far as I know, our relationship is not to the extent of disturbing each other's privacy. My mind was also disturbed. Her shadow started to appear suddenly in my mind.

This chick? How does a girl like her bother my mind so much? Tonight, I want to make sure of something.

"A-ardian?"

There was deja vu when we were this close. As my hand moved behind her long hair.

It felt there was deja vu when there was no longer a barrier until his breathing could be felt.

I felt deja vu as the flesh on his cute face touched my lips. Something is stirring my head.

"May I do it?" my whiskey.

She's quiet. Just looking down with a pretty face.

"If ever, can I do it now?"

My heart aches a little, I don't know why. His eyes began to dew without daring to look at me. He seemed to want to cry.

"Sorry."

Eventually the tears spilled while her little body was in my arms. I felt her hands squeezing my arms while sobbing. He looks sad. Seems to be suffering because of me.

Why, Naya?

What have I done to make you so hurt?

It was cold that night. I was in the blanket with him.

No. gabe. Nothing happened. Naya just cried all night and ended up falling asleep in my arms. If only I could remember everything. Could I touch her with feelings?

His face looks calm. His eyes were closed with his arms around my waist. I flicked away some dangling hair covering his forehead.

"Beautiful," I murmured. "You're beautiful, Naya. It's so sweet."

I still seem curious. As the curiosity got more and more tangled in my brain, it felt like I was getting harder and harder to think. I just follow my instincts as a man. Follow a heart that thumped when I saw a woman in my arms. It's not my fault, is it? He is halal for me anyway. I just wanted to answer my curiosity a little bit.

"Ehm?" Naya started to open her eyes.

The sunlight sent its glare through the glass of the room window. His eyes seemed to be squinting trying to avoid the light that hit his face.

"Wake up, it's noon!" I pulled my arm that felt cramped because he had been wearing it all night for a pillow.

I flipped the blanket that covered my body and got out of bed.

"Ardians."

"Hem?"

"I'm .. I'm sorry," he said. "On last night, I didn't mean to reject you. It's just .. I ..."

"No what. I didn't think about it, though." I took off the thin t-shirt that stuck to my body while opening the closet looking for a towel.

"Why aren't you angry?" ask Naya.

"Do I have the right to be angry?" I'm still struggling with the order of the clothes in the closet to find my towel.

"I'm halal to you. Don't you want to do that, you don't need my permission? Why keep it out just because I'm not ready?"

Uh! It felt a little awkward hearing his words. But I also want to straighten something out with him.

"Sinya." I closed the closet door and walked back to him. "Why did you reject me?"

His eyes were slightly rounded with confusion that began to ambush.

"Ehm .. because you don't love me."

Is correct. This is what made me break it. I don't want to make him feel like he's taken away by me. But I'm also not sure, if I do that to her, can there really be no love?

"You ... You think, can I do that to you even if there's no taste?" my many.

"Well?!"

"Wanna try it?"

"What?!"

"Come on!" I grabbed his arm.

He just shut up, resigned. Her steps followed me into the bathroom.

Turn on the shower until the gurgling water sounds a little annoying to the ears.

To be honest, even with Nadine I never did. I've never had a mind so far because he's not halal for me.

But Naya .. she's different. She's my legitimate wife. The thing is, can I do it if I don't have feelings for her?

The cute color that was painted on her lips began to fade, picked up by me. She was skinny .. so small. I barely felt the flesh as the distance between us disappeared.

"With you, this is the first" I whispered. "I've never done it with anyone."

"I've already."

"What?!"

"with you. I've done it with you, my husband."

Ever been?

Did angels really guarantee what we do now? Back then?

"Is it true that right now, you're doing it without using feelings?"

"Mrs?"

"I love you. So loving you that I keep holding back the pain in my heart when you forget me, Ardian."

"sorry. I'm sorry."

I don't know!

I still have a hard time interpreting everything. What is happening right now, just happens. My hand, my mind .. just moved to him. Either a curiosity or indeed there is a sense that is difficult for me to explain.

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"Yes, I'm opening an email from you right now." I said to Ardito from behind the phone. "There's a lot of footage you sent me. Which one should I see? Ehm .. okay. I'll call you back."

"What's wrong?"

So relax.

Is she that kind of girl? After we had done so much under the shower, she could still be relaxed in front of me? I feel a little awkward towards him.

Haiish ... shit!

Why am I the wrong one?

"I've finished two chapters for the novel. Should I send it to you? Or to Lusi?"

"Let's see!"

Naya got up from her seat and moved to my side.

"It." He opened his laptop and showed me a draft novel.

"Try setting the paper to TNR A5, I want to see the number of pages!" I said.

"TNR A5S? What'sthat?"

"So old bodo!" I shake his forehead. "I grabbed her laptop and fiddled with the settings on her Ms.Word. "Look. Understood?"

The girl looked at the horse towards me. "Ehm .. is very well edited. Make more love, huh!"

Ah ... shit!

He could have just said relax like that. He really didn't realize that I was so awkward with him. Seriously, I was suddenly nearby. So distracting.

"Why?" He's staring at me. "You're restless? Awkward is with me?"

"What?!"

"Because we did that?" saith. "I told you, it's not the first time. No need to be so awkward!"

"We really did?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Did I do it consciously?"

"Of course!" yells. "You think I made you unconscious and forced you, did you? It's crazy, you!"

"Bu-not that I mean."

"Iiish ... sucks!"

"Wait!" I grabbed her hand as she left me. "Come here for a second!"

"Ma-want what?"

"I want to erase that orens color on your lips."

What the hell is going on with me? I had a hard time controlling myself in front of him. Have I gone crazy?

"What are you doing in the living room like this?"

"Mother?!" Me and Naya immediately withdrew. "Why is Mom suddenly in my house?" my yelling.

"Mother has pressed the bell many times, but the door was not opened. I know the code, so go in. Not even disturbing your affection. It should be done in the room, not in the living room like this!"

Haiiiiish .. shit! How embarrassing!.