Intersection of Sense
Misgive

He looked blankly at the garden behind his house. Yesterday after arriving at his parents' residence, Sekar just kept quiet at home.

Sekar lied to Zul about his sick mother. He just wanted to go home and enjoy his solitude.

Mama Sekar himself did not ask much and let his eldest daughter enjoy solitude. For Mama Sekar, the problem of Sekar and Zul is their privacy. Mama Sekar is sure, if Sekar is able to overcome it even though the heart wants to interfere.

Mama Sekar approached Sekar while carrying tea and bread, Sekar himself still remained and drowned in his daydream.

"Have you called Zul today?"

He looked towards his mother. "Already, Ma. This morning he told him he had reached Samosir"

"You want to stay here until Zul gets home?"

"The plan is so, Ma. It's okay, Ma?"

"No problem. You're Mama's son. This is the main house where you go home, even if you already have a berthing"

She smiled wryly at the words of her mother.

"I don't know if that house will forever be the one where we both go home, Ma. In fact, even though we both went home, Bang Zul's heart was not in that house. Even if there are only a few percent"

Mama Sekar looked at Sekar with pity. No one ever imagined that Zul turned away from Sekar. Although now Zul finally chose Sekar and improved his household, but seeing Sekar who was still feeling broken made his heart more sliced.

"Mama hope you can be more patient, Sekar. Give Zul a chance to continue to improve your relationship. Don't lose to that woman, forever you are the main one. That woman is just a passing advertisement"

Sekar just stood still and looked straight at the garden, "If it were true, Ma. If the woman was just passing by, if only"

"You mean, Zul's still in touch with her?"

She looked at her mother's face without feeling her tears flowing. Sekar closed his eyes to remember what Nadin said to his friend about Zul. That day, unbeknownst to Zul, Sekar pleads with Nadin to follow where Zul is going. And Nadin finds Zul meeting a woman on Bima's campus and takes him across the city border.

Of course Nadin is unlikely to follow Zul continuously. What Nadin knew, Zul took the woman out of town and went somewhere. Sekar knew where Zul was going that day, and Sekar finally knew Zul was not alone.

"Strick, answered Mama. Did Zul go back to that woman?!"

Sekar just nodded slowly, it was difficult for him to say yes because it felt like all the words had stopped flowing.

"Bajin**n. It could be that he betrayed you again, basic no ot*k" various insults came out of Mama Sekar's lips. Not being able to imagine Zul betraying Sekar again and it's back with the same woman.

"Mama will talk to Zul, when the hell he broke your heart. Does he have no heart? Happy in the suffering of his own wife. Did he not know, the wife's suffering brought disaster to his life as well?"

Anger is clearly reflected in the look on Mama Sekar's face. Realizing that his son-in-law still hurts his son makes his motherly instinct want to directly hit the mistress Zul.

"You must be strong, Sekar. If we can get to that woman, we hit her. Let him be ashamed to be conscious. Let's not itch with people's husbands. Geez, is there no young man she can match. Why should men's husbands, really bitches"

"According to Mama, is this the woman's fault?"

"of course. Already know the husband of people, still want to be courted. There is no ot*k. She is a woman with no self-respect. Want to be made a mistress"

"Bang Zul doesn't want to make him a mistress, Ma. He wants to marry the girl"

"What?! You mean he wants polygamy? Oh, my God, Zul!!! Really crazy of him."

Crazy, the words were often spoken Sekar against Zul. Various meanings have also been said Sekar to Zul. For many years Zul always treated him well. It did not cross the mind of Sekar about Zul's turned heart.

Question after question was thrown Sekar, but Sekar could see the sincerity in the eyes of Zul towards Diva. Nadin told Sekar, Zul invited women at Bima Campus. It was easy for Sekar to figure out who the Diva was. However, the idea of meeting the Diva was repeatedly thought of by Sekar.

Six months had already seen how Zul dying missed the Diva. Her husband drowned in a daydream that made her sick for days.

Zul's feeling that looks so deep, so magnificent makes Sekar feel useless asking Diva to stop, because Zul also does not want to stop. His heart was deeply attached to the Diva.

Pain again gnawing on the heart of Sekar. Good and bad decisions flow through his head. Without being asked Sekar knew Zul's wish. That he will not take off one of Sekar and Diva. Zul wanted to have both legitimately.

"My heart is bland, Ma. Bang Zul is close to me, always doing his best for this relationship. But it was difficult for him to throw away the taste that had already lodged in him. Mama knows, this is the second time I've seen Bang Zul so loving and so hard to forget"

"Strong,,,"

"I shouldn't have married her, Ma. This is the second time I have to mourn his love is not so great to me" Sekar bowed weakly while covering his face. Crying is the way that should make him calm, but it makes his wounds widen.

11 Years ago,, the,,,

"Marry me" I told Zul when I met for the second time in Medan. Zul has been living in Aceh. And I myself settled in the field.

Zul was my first love, that cool and charming guy was always the target of girls when we were in high school. After a long time, we met again in Medan. She told me about her lover who broke off the relationship with her without any clarity. Tells about the demands of age that requires her to get married.

"What?" Zul asked, not believing "You want to marry me?"

"Yes, we've known him for a long time. There is no need for pdkt anymore. Feeling problem, I'm sure if we're together every day and try, surely that feeling will arise"

Of course this is a risky decision. I knew Zul still loved his ex, and I also ended up having to accept the fact that for months Zul always dreamed of his ex and cried softly in the silence of calling his ex-lover's name.

Back to the present

"Sekar,," Mama Sekar patted Sekar's shoulder which had been daydreaming since.

Sekar did not respond to the call, his head was reflected on how he first asked Zul to marry him and the days he saw Zul dying from longing. Now, that happened again.

Sekar doesn't know if Zul ever loved her that much. Although Zul often said love to Sekar, now Sekar realized it. Whether the feeling is really real or just SOP for the sake of making Sekar happy. Now Sekar doubted whether she had ever been loved or not by her husband.