
Zul lifted the suitcase that Sekar had provided and put it in the car. Today he will leave for Samosir for training held by the headquarters where Zul works.
At first Zul invited Sekar, but Ibu Sekar was sick, so Sekar had to return to his mother's house during Zul's departure.
"Is the package ready?" Ask Zul.
"Of course, just leave. The train leaves at 10, brother so leave for the night?" Sekar looks worried because Zul will go alone to Samosir at night.
"Yes that's it. Let's get there early in the morning, keep going straight to the show. Yes at dawn, can take a short break at the gas station"
Sekar looked at Zul. Looking for the rest of Zul's grief there. Yes the sadness is still in Zul's eyes, although not as much as yesterday, it seems Zul has been able to overcome his separation with Diva.
When Zul who had to struggle to forget the Diva, at that time Sekar also struggled to forget the mistakes of Zul. Not sure what happened between the two of them, who Sekar knew he found Zul coming home in a state of chaos.
Flasbacks
"What's wrong? Is your relationship with him over? You look fucked up"
Zul did not budge and headed for the wardrobe, passing through Sekar who had been watching him since.
"It seems right, you decided?" Continue Sekar.
Zul was silent.
"If anyone talks it's responded!" Sekar began to get impatient.
Zul looked at Sekar deeply and approached Sekar who was looking at him with a loud look. Then lead Sekar to sit on the bed while Zul kneels before Sekar.
"Strick, you're right. My relationship with him is over. He broke off this relationship, and now I'm yours again. Again, please forgive me. I want us to be together again, I want us to be happy together again without a third person, and I want you to love me back, because the truth is I love you too. Give me a chance to start it all over again" Begging Sekar is Zul's way to open Sekar's heart again. Even though in his heart is still neatly stored the name Diva, it does not mean Zul wants to release Sekar. After all, Sekar was a woman who had been loyal to him.
"I can't believe that easy on you, bang. What if in the future you still meet him, what if the reality in your mind is still there he is. Even if you don't see him back, but if you're still tucked in his mind it's a lie,,,"
"Then don't leave me, Sekar!" Pinta Zul, "Don't ever leave me, let me fully recharge my mind and soul about you again. I'm much more afraid of losing you"
"I beg you, stay by my side. Keep loving me. Don't go Sekar" Just lose the Diva for Zul. He doesn't want to lose Sekar either.
"You're selfish bang. How could you so easily apologize for everything you've done to me?!"
"Then what should I do, Sekar?! Do I have to die in front of you? Is that how your pain is treated?!"
"Certify me! I don't want to live with you much longer!"
Zul took a deep breath, trying not to be provoked by emotions and spoke softly to Sekar.
Sekar did not immediately answer Zul's request. Sekar chose to leave Zul who was still on his knees. The feeling of sekar is currently raging.
Sekar remembered his mother's words when Sekar told him about Sekar's disappointment at Zul's betrayal. Ibu Sekar just begged Sekar to forgive Zul and remember all the kindness of Zul. Because all this time Zul also never hurt Sekar, it is sometimes Sekar who is more stubborn.
She locked the door of the guest room and sat crying behind the door. Hate his heart that still loves Zul. Hate his heart for forgiving Zul. It was not impossible that there would be other women present. There is no guarantee that Zul will never cheat again. The fear of being betrayed again swung in Sekar's mind. But parting from Zul also he was unable to. But how can he calm his heart after forgiving Zul?
•••
"Dad?"
Upon awakening, his memory returned when Zul decided to have it compared to the Diva. Some of Zul's proofs are always tapped at Sekar to make sure Zul doesn't switch again and some other things make Sekar finally believe that Zul is really changing.
"Why? How daydreaming?" Ask Zul curiously.
"It's okay. I'm just worried because you're going alone"
Zul hugged Sekar, "God is okay. Doain is good-bye brother. If for example something happens to the same brother, yes adek must be sincere. Because it's his destiny"
I was silent to Zul's words. Recalling their first quarrel, Zul says that the Diva did not seize Zul. The body and soul of Zul belong to God. Sekar did not feel captured, because Zul did not belong to Sekar but to Allah. But for some reason, it certainly did not feel sincere when Zul shared his heart. But also not sincere if one day Zul died.
"Don't you ask me something?"
"Can"
"Abang still loves me, right?"
Zul squinted his eyes looking in wonder at Sekar, "Why ask that?"
"Yes sometimes I think my brother still loves that woman"
Zul knew who Sekar meant, of course Diva. It's been almost 6 months since Zul and Diva finally parted ways, since then Zul doesn't even know the news of Diva.
"The body belongs entirely to the body, be it body or soul"
Just silence to hear it. Zul did not answer the question Sekar steady, Zul's answer that seemed abstract sometimes be a shock in his mind.
"We're leaving now?"
"okay"
Zul leads Sekar to the car. Zul will take Sekar to the train station, while Zul will leave tonight for Samosir for duty. Before leaving for the station, unbeknownst to Zul, Sekar deletes all intercept applications on the Zul phone. Sekar chose to release Zul slowly. Sekar chose to make a total peace with Zul. If one day Zul turns double, God will tell him.