Devotion (A Devotion)
Sperm X
Mas Hadi slept facing the wall. The dim room lights, not so clearly describe the look of his face. Only breathing sounds start to get regular. He was sound in his sleep.
My feeling is that there is something wrong with my husband. Instead of thinking about the words of Mas Hadi being hurt, it is better to take water wudu. I stirred up all the restless and restless on the prayer rug, dowry from Mas Hadi fifteen years ago.
The tap water feels refreshing. The position of the Ngaliyan region located in the highlands, makes the weather a little cooler than Semarang City which is located in the lowlands. Although not shivering, enough water that cools the head. As if I had forgotten my anger, I exercised the rights of the Almighty at two in the morning.
“Then let not their words make you grieve. Really, We know what they keep secret and what they state.” Quite a quote from Yasin verse 76 is an entertainer, when the heart is gone because Mas Hadi's sentence is not comfortable to listen to.
Waiting for the morning, I took the time to open the internet and learn about the pregnancy program mentioned by Doctor Melisa. I can't imagine Mas Hadi's reaction. Will he agree, if he has to carry out a series of procedures to get a baby girl? The baby I want so much that I can make her happy.
Thinking about the advice of the baby tube from Doctor Melisa during the consultation, made me curious about the baby tube procedure. Some references mention, in the process of the baby tube, the wife's egg will be taken using a special needle that has a cavity. The egg cell is immediately reunited with the*****couple, which must be taken on the same day. It is then kept inside the clinic to ensure its maximum development. After the embryo fertilizes the egg and ******* is considered mature enough, the embryo will be inserted into the uterus.
The doctor will insert a kind of channeling tube called a catheter into the ****** until it reaches the uterus. To increase the chances of getting pregnant, three embryos are generally transferred at once. Two weeks after the embryo transfer, the woman will be asked to do a pregnancy test.
It was painful to imagine all that. In fact, without a baby tube program, I could get pregnant normally. Especially considering the cost of baby tubes are not small. Is it possible that Mas Hadi would agree? To go to the doctor, the response is not good.
I'm sighing. The dawn wait is still very long. I fell asleep next to Mas Hadi.
Izal's voice, the youngest banging on the room called out to me. I squirm. Athaghfirullah! Awake late! I left Hadi who was still curled up, rushed to dawn prayers, and prepared breakfast.
A bright week. Izal and Vian had already run to the field to play ball. Adi, the eldest, prefers to go karate training at the Ngaliyan District Field Dojo.
“Mas, last night I consulted a doctor.” I started the conversation while rubbing butter and jam onto a loaf of bread that would be burned with an electric bread burner.
Mas Hadi sipped the warm tea calmly. The rest of his anger last night had evaporated somewhere. “Hmm.” With a soft voice he mendehem, as if enough with it, he can answer my story. His hands were incessantly glaring at the phone screen.
“Mas, how can I not pay the doctor and the medicine, huh? So I pay with my own money. Can I claim ga to the office?”
“Kok, ga ngabarin?” tanya Mas Hadi was shocked.
“I called Mas many times, but many times also my call was rejected,” my answer restrained annoyance. Upset at having to recall the scene of the rejection of the call made by Mas Hadi last night, when I wanted to confirm the insurance issue.
The man didn't respond much to my frustration. Stick with his activities, sip tea, and start eating warm toast. His phone never slipped out of his hand.
The smell of butter mixed with chocolate airs. The warm smoke from the pile of bread I prepared for the children soared, greeting my sense of smell. I inhaled a deep breath, storing the memory of the toast scent this morning.
I enjoyed the bread in silence. Chew it slowly, while composing persuasive words. Rotating the brain, so that Mas Hadi will undergo a pregnancy program as recommended by Docte Melisa.
“What, we can talk, Mas?”
“By the way, I heard kok.”
“Can be in ga claim, the payment?”
“Later to bring me the receipt,” the answer is short.
“About her pregnant program, ..” the sentence stopped. Stifled in the throat when about to pronounce all the procedures described by Doctor Melisa. Doubtful. Is it true what I have done.
“Why is still a program as well, did I say no need, no need,” replied Mas Hadi.
“But, I want to. I'm okay with getting pregnant again. For Mas. So that Mas is happy to have a daughter.” Slowly stirring warm tea in front of me. “See, Mas is very happy to joke and play with Caca, I want Mas also happy with the child I will give later.”
Duhai self, does it hate to see Mas Hadi joking and playing with my own best friend's child, I until willing to have to get pregnant again? Actually, I don't mind Mas Hadi playing with anybody's kid. My husband is the kind of guy who likes to play with kids. Especially the neighbor's daughter. However, when Mas showed something different to Caca, there was an unwillingness in this heart. I can't explain, unwillingness for what.
“Trus, what should I do, let you conceive a daughter?”
“Totally? Want?” Between doubt, happiness, and a sense of what form it takes, I can only refract my eyes.
Blug up! The feeling that had risen in the clouds, instantly collapsed unceasingly as the answer was thrown from the mouth of the man who had accompanied my life for fifteen years.
“Serious, dong, Mas!” i'm anxious.
“Yes, try the story first, how and I should what?”
“Hmm ...” I started to doubt. “We have to do some things, so that I can get pregnant girls.”
“What are you?”
“So, gini, Mas. First, we need to set our diet. Foods that contain a lot of acid. Because, ****** X which carries a female nature, likes acidic conditions. So, as much as we can arrange our food.”
“Try, all diets.”
“Trus, the matter of related pattern is also set. If possible before the fertile period, because, ***** X can survive longer than****** Y. So at the time of ovulation, the one on the fertilization path is just***** X only. ****** Y is dead.”
“Ga knows.”
“Hmm, gini aja, we have a relationship, day 9-12 after I menstruate.”
“You relationship coke set-set.”
“Kan, want to program pregnant girls.” My heart feels like it's on a roller coaster. Sometimes at the top, sometimes suddenly have to slide quickly down.
“And you want. Not me.”
“Yes, I want to.” Susultku. I can't hide it anymore.
“Ya udah.”
“Mas! You know this shit! What do I want?” At last only a shiver of turmoil came out of my mouth.
The face was shocked. His eyes are staring hard at me. “Kok angry, anyway?”
“Yes how not to get angry, I invite you how I can get pregnant with girls, how do I make ***** this X can fertilize my egg.” The sound from my lips was unbearable.
“And I told you, no need to get pregnant again.”
“But I don't like it, you're close to Caca and Nofi!” sergeant riled.
She doesn't want me to get pregnant with a girl, but look after another woman's daughter? If I could give him a daughter, he wouldn't have to pay attention to another woman's child. Why would not you? Why not understand?
“Ya, yes. I didn't give a gift to Caca.”
“Next week, Mas check with the doctor!”
“Check what else?”
“Check *****.”
“What effort?” ask without sin.
“So I can make ***** X a lot, and I can get pregnant girls!”
