Devotion (A Devotion)
Queen Maggot

“Indeed true yes, if honestly it hurts.” Mas Hadi's voice was lethargic.

“Honest what do you mean, Mas?”

What does it mean to be honest? He said I got cancer, that's a lie! Saying no idea where Nofi got the information about my illness, was also a lie! Now he's telling the truth about his feelings for Nofi. Allah Rabbi!

Like the impact of a very heavy object crashing into my chest, tight. This hand felt trembling to hit his mouth. Heat filled the head room. Forcefully blow your mouth. Men don't know themselves!

“If I do love him, how trus?”

Crazy question! Loving other women, while as a wife, I am still able to serve her. Is it just because I can't give girls? Didn't I say I would get pregnant again if she wanted a daughter? Am I not ready with all the programs to support so that I can get pregnant again? But he rejected all the solutions I offered.

“Arrghh!” I clenched my fingers tightly. Irregular breath snorted deeply. My emotions have tipped on my tongue, abandoned logic, silenced cheap theories of love.

The stone palace I built in a dream, where I incarnated a queen inside, shattered into pieces instantly. The king whom I cherish for his dignity and honor, chose to sow flowers in another palace. The bush gnawed at the age of our marriage. Was it my fault all along?

“What makes you love others? Am I less beautiful? I serve you less? Didn't Mas say he'd never leave me until death do it?”

I remember that sentence very well, a sentence that he often said in addition to another sentence that he put since marriage, “don't love excessively, you will get sick. I won't love you a hundred percent either. If you love another man, I will not restrain you. There's no point in keeping people who don't want to survive.” How long have I not heard that sentence.

At that time, I assumed what Mas Hadi said was related to love for man and God. The message that is caught is, it should not love humans excessively. True love belongs to God alone. We do not need to pin our hopes on humans. The human heart is easily turned back and forth.

I also tried what my husband said. Trying to love appropriately, not excessively, does not want to depend life entirely on the man. By building a business selling goods for women, I can support myself. Sometimes, I can help financial needs that cannot be met when Mas Hadi is in a tight state.

All this time I was also not too demanding about finances to Mas Hadi. The needs of children's school and daily are not balanced with the salary of Mas Hadi, I am fully aware. I received whatever was given without much complaining. Yes, there is no need to pin hope on humans. I concur.

“It's night, time to fuss again these nights. Every day noisily, did I not just come clean to you,” you should go to the room.

I wasn't content to take all my heart out, now he's asking me to stop talking. Just yummy! I got up in a hurry and followed her into the room.

“Already, I don't want to discuss anymore!” angry enough.

“You mean don't want to discuss that how?” I held my voice so it wouldn't be heard by the children.

The room, located at the back of the house, near the dining room, was cramped by erratic thoughts. The cool air that is flowed by the air conditioner, does not make the heat that I feel lost. The hot air carried away by every sentence of the father of my children.

“You have told me before. I was married in a magical manner to a queen from the southern coast of Java. I am the king, you are the queen who will always follow me. As for this new queen, want to come with me.”

“Hey, Mom! Everywhere, the queen is just one! If there is a 2nd man, his name is not a queen but a concubine. Anyway, what kind of occult wedding?” Half a laugh I listened to his chatter about the king and the queen. Just-there's.

“You don't believe it? In the middle of the night, our house will smell good. Well, that fragrant smell signifies the arrival of the queen who will come with us. The queen is good.” His eyes looked at me seriously.

“Mas, shirk is his name. Shirk! Believe the same that is magical. Throw away the ring. It gets further and further along with religion. Sin!”

The night is getting late. Time slowly rotates. I barely slept waiting for the evidence presented by Mas Hadi. This house will be the guest of a queen who will serve. My eyes were heavy waiting for the moment my husband promised me. There is a new queen coming.

Whether the queen will come together as one family in this house, or will take my place as the only empress. Hm ... ! I have sense.

I pretended to close my eyes. In agitation I thought about how he would no longer talk about queens. Perhaps this was a premonition, so that he could bring Nofi into this house to be the 2nd wife. Just yummy! I'll cancel your intention to bring a new queen into this house.

At two in the morning, Mas Hadi woke up. I heard the shower light up. The water rattled waking desolate. He returned to his room and performed a night prayer ritual. After the prayer, I heard the sound of a paper being opened.

I take a look at everything Mas Hadi did in tanya. Night prayer? During this time he rarely prayed, why now night prayer? Good, maybe already repented of idolatry.

However, my feeling of legibility only lasted for a short while. A few minutes after the greeting, there was a hundred smell from the direction Mas Hadi prostrated. I changed my position to lie down, to see more clearly what was happening. Sleep lights are less clear illuminating the condition of the room.

Fine white smoke was seen coming out from his palms. The smell is getting sharper. I almost coughed at it. Ikahan itching in the throat, tingling. Long time Mas Hadi prayed. I changed positions again. This time I stick the head towards the place of prayer. I was still pretending to be asleep.

Mas Hadi held a stone necklace. No, it's not a prayer beads. It may be used as a prayer beads. He continued to count the remembrance with the jet-black stone necklace.

“Hai, You. Get out of my house!” I suddenly awakened this body. In a closed state, I speak ferociously, “what do you want here? Wanna destroy my palace? Don't expect you to do it! You will be destroyed, before you can destroy me!” Ha ha ha ha .... I laughed in my heart. I can also play a role.

Mas Hadi got up, he immediately turned on the lights. “What's up?” tanyanya panic.

I open my eyes slowly. Acting confused, I saw her frantically running over. “Indeed why, Mas?”

“You suddenly just woke up and kicked someone out. What are you looking at? You smell the fragrance ga?”

“Iya I see, women wearing royal clothes. Like a queen, beautiful,” I said stuttered. “But, Mas ...” I didn't continue the sentence I had neatly written. I purposely hung her to be curious.

“But what?” the man replied in panic.

“But, as he turned around, his back was full of maggots, the stinging stench made me vomit. The queen left behind only dirt and caterpillars. The hair on his head incarnates a black cobra, with eyes that highlight red. Horrifically. She is not a good queen.” I am excited to tell it as if what I am saying is reality. I laughed out loud, in my heart of course.

“Really?”

Duhai, that face. Between amazement and disbelief hearing the story of the Maggot Queen. It turns out he really believed me. Goody!