Comparative Scale
Mama said

I've been in this room for a week. In fact, I was absent from my college for a week.

Both Andra and Sky have come repeatedly to persuade me in various ways but never to produce results.

I was alone in my little room. Silence mute. Without any more tears but I seemed reluctant to open my mouth even to speak.

My dizzy mother saw my condition. He even found out through Andra and Sky about what happened to me.

Like this morning, Mama knocked on the door and went into my room. He sat on the edge of the bed and gently stroked my hair.

"Ke.." call him slowly and I just answer him with a sigh.

"Everyone will feel the pain of being left behind, dear. My mom has felt that too. When your father is gone forever, Mama is like you. But, does Mama have to be like that all her life? You have to get back up, even if you know it's hard sometimes. However, for the sake of Mama's life for you and your Brother, Mama will be strong."

I don't feel my tears coming down without asking.

"Life will always have a choice and every choice will always have consequences. The breakup will always be there and that's for sure. If we don't find a match, we'll split up. If it was time we would part ways through death. Life is a consequence, baby. Whichever you choose is always the reciprocal."

Still stroking my hair.

"Right now Jody is leaving you too there must be a reason you don't know yet. And that reason makes you split up. Don't you know, Ke, that you're not alone. You have Mama, Brother, even Andra and Sky who are always there for you. Do you want to disappoint them just for a reason?"

"Say people, a soul mate isn't going anywhere. But what Mama wants Keke to know is that the soul mate will come even without you knowing. God has set every course of our lives, baby. Maybe this is also one of the trials that Keke must live so that Keke is more mature both in thinking and acting."

"Remember, Ke. You are never alone. There's Us. There's God. Does Keke want to live like this? lamenting people while the person may be having fun enjoying his life?"

"Mama and everyone loves Keke. So, don't ever waste it."

Mama kissed my head, stroked my head gently and walked out and closed the door again.

I wept. Remembering the word Mama just now. Trying to digest that sentence well. Try to understand well.

I thought and thought until I fell asleep with my eyes closed.

***

I saw Jody standing in front of my house. His eyes were so sad. I who saw it from inside the house immediately ran out to get it. And when I came before him, He hugged me tightly.

I let Him hold me tight. I also feel the longing. After He hugged me, then He slowly let go of his embrace, then took hold of my face, slightly raised up, rubbing my tears with his fingers.

I held her hands with both hands and looked at her.

I saw a wound in his puffy eye. The wounds that said as if they did not want to part.

I want to ask, why? but that word never came out of my lips.

Until Jody took both my hands off her, then she wiped the tears on her face and then I saw her lips begin to move.

"Ke, I'm letting you go. We'll never be together. I'm gonna keep picking on him." Then Jody turns her body around.

I'm silent. Trying to understand every word. WE'LL NEVER BE TOGETHER.

The words continued to ring in my ears even I covered my two ears. I wept.

And.....

Instantly, the door opened and I saw that Mama had entered my room and calmed me down.

I'm dreaming!

***

The next day, I woke up and went to the bathroom and washed my body. Then, I changed my clothes in neat clothes, took my bag and then headed for the dining table.

Mama who was quite surprised by what I did, even though He was already smiling, brought Me breakfast at the dinner table. And, I ate it.

After eating, I stood up and held my bag.

"Where are you going, Ke?" ask Mama.

"To campus,Ma. Where are you going?" I replied as I walked towards the front room.

Mama smiled and even started laughing. I looked at her, confused by Mama.

I was just thinking, maybe Mama is happy because I've started to move as usual. I rushed out of the house.

"Are you going to college?" ask Mama again. Strange, I thought to myself. My mom doesn't usually ask.

"What's wrong Ma? keke was wrong?" ask Mama.

"Not wrong, Ke. It's just......" Mom hung up her sentence and laughed.

"What is Ma?" I still don't understand what Mama means.

"Today's Sunday, Ke. Where there's a campus open." Laughs again.

I'm surprised I'm not playing. I turned around half-run to my room and looked at the calendar. Trying to remember the day.

Holy jeez!! it was true today Sunday. Mama smiled and laughed.

In a fit of annoyance I slammed my bag on my desk.

Mama who followed me and was already at the door just smiled to see me.

"A satisfied with my taunting?" a little bit of moving my lips.

"Aahh, my dear Mama's son is crashing again. I'm satisfied." Mama replied, laughing and passing from before me while I was still moving my lips. Piqued.

After that, there was a smile on my lips. Embarrassed by the incident and also I am grateful because I have also been able to organize my heart and see Mama laugh earlier, my heart is relieved. My mother no longer thinks hard about me.

Ahhhh....I'm bored..I'm neat like this where you go.

I got up, got out of my room and was busy looking for Mama.

"Maaaa.." half yelling.

"Yes, Mama again in the bathroom."

"Ma, Keke wants to go out" I said.

"Yes can. Just don't make it night for Ke."

"Ready, Ma." I replied.

Although I don't know where to go at least I just enjoy the beauty of the world out there might make my mood even better.

I went back into the room. Take my wallet and put it in a small bag, then go to the mirror, see if my face is still puffy or not.

I thought for a moment in front of the mirror. Then, I took something in my nightstand, opened it and rubbed it on my lips.

Hmmmm...I rarely wear liptint. I prefer the look as it is.

I don't know what got into me today, after wearing the liptint my hand moved back to find a comb and then combed back my hair.

After that, I stood in front of the mirror looking back at myself.

And after I was satisfied with what I saw, I immediately walked out of the room.

The mother who saw just shook her head.

***